Dew Heart Traces

The Most Shining Star

The Star funeral was full of solemnities. I saw a tombstone bearing his name. All who love her cannot hold back their tears but me. I don't know why my tears didn't fall. In my mind, if I cry like them, then the Stars will be very sad to see me. I don't want him to see me like that, he always wants me to be smiling and happy.

The orange could only hug me while crying and call his papa.

“Papa,” said with sobs. Bik Nah also could not hold back her tears since leaving the house.

Most of the people had already left the burial site after the event was over. The four of us including Nania who still want to stay longer. I stroked the headstone that read the name of the Star while repeatedly kissing it.

The star is an orphan, he is also an only child. His life had always been alone, but beside him so many loved, seen by the many who came to bring the final rest. He knew very well that his life had no family, so he built his own family with the people he helped economically and so on.

“Mama cry. Don't hold,” said Orange

“Let's Papa sad, Son! if Mama cries in front of her.”

“Thus worry Mama is sick. Baby girl, Ma!”

“Mama gapapa, Darling. Aek baby is also very strong kok.”

“Now we have to how without Papa, Ma?”

“Papa will always be with us, son. There is a God who takes care of us too.”

“Thus I miss Papa, Ma.”

“Iya, Son. If you miss Jingga, pray for Papa. Then Papa will know that Jingga miss.”

“Papa haven't had time to see adek baby yes, Ma.”

“Yuk we're home, son. Tomorrow we come here again look Papa.”

We went back home to attend the event tonight. There will be a lot coming. Before riding in the car I had a chance to see the shadow of Mas Danial who was also walking towards his car. Apparently he was following the funeral of the Star. I'm no wonder how Mas Danial has always been involved with the Stars. I don't want to know anymore because it's not important to me.

Tahlilan event went well. Tears from all of Star's friends and employees still flowed as they recited the best prayers for her. I believe God will convey their loss to the Stars.

“Look, Honey. There are so many who love you and so many who will accompany me,” I murmured.

Time is too long to lose someone we care about. Seeing the stars clothes are neatly arranged often I squid. His body was still in our room. It was inevitable that I always missed her warm embrace in the room, where we used to joke and make out.

Soon I will give birth, my body feels heavy to walk. The USG results showed that our son was male. The stars and I imitate. I wish her face and nature were like a star.

Last check before I go into my labor week. I drove Nania to the obstetrician and there I met Mas Danial again. It seems like for the meeting this time he had planned so without awkward he approached me after I came out of the examination room towards the parking lot.

“Dek, can I have your time for a minute?”

“Iya I know, Deck. Actually I'm not comfortable like this either, but I have to deliver the last message from your husband.”

Last message from the stars? Did I not hear wrong? Why even the stars leave the message to Mas Danial not directly talk to me. When they met that day?

I finally want to meet you in the hospital canteen. I asked Nania to accompany me even though she was sitting at a different table so we could comfortably talk without awkwardly anyone else heard the Star's last message to me.

Danial gave me a letter.

“The star asked me to write it but all that was there were his words without me subtracting or overriding.”

 

Dear my most beautiful wife in the world. The woman I love most after my mother.

I'm sorry I asked Mas Danial to send me this letter, don't think about it. Danial is innocent because I asked him to help me tell you this.

Dear.

Mas Danial helped me and took me to the hospital when everyone didn't dare to help me in the accident. Either God arranged everything so that at that time he found me lying on the street covered in blood. He deliberately lied that his wife was sick here when he just wanted to know my situation every day without making you uncomfortable.

Now I know why you can't forget Mas Danial and why you loved him so much all this time. He's a very nice guy. He deserves your love, I can't even beat him.

Honey, I know I won't be in this world much longer. I know very well my situation can no longer be helped. If something happens to me do not cry too long, do not be too long alone just waiting for me. No, Sweetheart. Marry the man you love. Marry Mas Danial, the man who will never be lost from your heart. I'm sincere, honey. You know that your happiness is the most important thing in my life.

I've also been told by Mas Danial that you're pregnant with our child. There is nothing happiest in my life but Allah to give me a wife who can give me a child.

I'm so happy, honey. Thank you so much for that gift. If he's a boy give him a name as you dream “Muhammad Alfatih Laksmana Bumi” and if he's a girl name him “Pelangi” so he's as beautiful as a rainbow.

I'm sorry I couldn't keep you company for long. But I also don't want you to be in grief, be happy with Mas Danial. He still loves you proved he always secretly pay attention to the development of your life even when we are married he is also happy. I'm sorry I didn't tell you that she sent us a bouquet of flowers and she was the one who gave us the gift of the hotel where we had our honeymoon. He once told me that you are a woman he never had time to be happy so give her the happiness she deserves from the man who loves her.

Honey, there's nothing I want most but your happiness. I love you so much. I'm taking our son. Love him as much as you have for me. Greetings of love and longing for my daughter Orange. Ah, considering she made me cry. Tell him “titip keep papa lover well ya”.

Love ….

Don't forget to be happy.

From husband.

Star