Dew Heart Traces

The Star that Disappeared

Solitude makes me think all happiness is not on my side.

Until the stars taught me how to be happy. Now the man is lying without a sound.

“Darling, I miss. Don't you miss me? Wake up, wake up.”

I cried because I could not resist the longing, I did not like the long silence of the Star.

My head feels like someone is touching it slowly. I lifted my head and the miracle happened. The star finally opened his eyes, he realized from his long sleep.

I cried and hugged her. My husband has finally returned.

Still stammered the Star spoke, but I didn't bother too much because with him knowing it had given me great hope that he would recover in a moment.

I stroked her hair which had started to lengthen. His hair was still black all without a single strand of gray hair sneaking in between.

I repeatedly kissed his forehead, cheeks and lips. I want him to feel my passion for her. Sometimes he looks at me with a sad look even without being able to speak fluently.

“Sayang .. I miss home, kangen hugged you. Good health, let's go home soon. I'm bored here.”

The star only blinked its eyes a few times as if approving of my words. Her lips tried to move her so she could answer my words, but I forbade her. I don't want him to force it too much.

“Bapak has not been too fluent to talk because there was a hard impact on his head when the accident occurred, but I do not need to worry because it will not make the problem too big. Only with therapy, slowly talk Father will be as ready again. Father's condition must still be monitored because the bleeding is still there.”

“Iya, Doc. With my husband conscious alone it has made me very grateful, I am sure he will soon recover.”

“Iya, Mom. We will monitor the Father intensively for 24 hours. I have much to pray and be patient.”

“Bismillah, Doc.”

I returned to the room where the Star was being treated, but there was a strange sight. I saw Mas Danial there as if talking to the Star. I paused my intention to enter directly. I wonder what Mas Danial is doing in the Star room during my consultation with the doctor.

They were both in the room long enough. I occasionally peek behind the glass. I finally let the two of them and headed to the cafeteria. My mind was groping what was going on with them.

An hour later I came back to see them and sure enough Mas Danial was still there. I don't want to join them because it would be very awkward.

I went back to the cafeteria again to wait for them to finish speaking. This time deliberately linger so that when I return there, they have finished talking. Stars haven't been fluent in speaking maybe that's why it takes longer for them to communicate.

When I get back Mas Danial is gone, it means they're done. I didn't tell the Stars either if I saw the two of them talking for long. I want the Stars themselves to tell me it's time to come.

I kissed her back. Then he woke up

“Ssa .. yy ... aang ..” he said in stammer.

“Iya, Darling ... what do you want?”

He shook his head.

“Aa .. kkuuuu .. mmaa .. uuu .. pee .. luu .. k.”

Without further ado I hugged her tightly. I felt wet cheeks but those weren't my tears. Did the tears come from the stars?

The stars are crying.

“Why does Darling cry? Which one hurts?” I asked, but he just shook his head.

I rubbed her tears that were getting more and more flowing. I've never seen the Stars cry, what have they talked about so much that the Stars get so emotional? Do I have to ask the Stars directly or Mas Danial? Both are impossible for me to do because they know that I saw them talking. Dilemmas.

“What's up, honey? What the hell's been going on? Don't cry, ah. I'll catch up with you later, you know.”

After hearing me say so, the Star immediately tried to stop her crying. His hand tried to reach me, then I greeted swiftly. I put it on my cheek while kissing the back of his hand.

“Ma .. aff ... kaan .. aak ... kuu.”

The sound of footsteps from so many people woke me up. I've seen a lot of nurses and doctors doing heart massage for Bintang.

“What's up, Sister? What's wrong with my husband?” I was so panicked to see the gripping atmosphere.

Many times doctors do CPR, but I haven't seen any good signs of the stars. I couldn't stand that, as if I hadn't stepped on the earth. I floated, the mind not fused with my body.

“You can, Star. You don't be mean to your son!” I said in my heart hoping the Stars would hear me.

“Time of death thursday 30 November 2022 at 21:47 WIB.”

Darkened.

I don't want to wear black because I don't like it very much. The orange started to clean my feet and put on warmer clothes.

“Mama's still cold, huh? Orange wear warmer.”

“It's enough, Darling.”

“So prepare food first let mama eat new we leave ya.”

“Mama is not hungry, Nak.”

“Mama must eat so that the baby is not hungry.”

I held my belly which had already looked enlarged, soon after my gestational age towards six months, the end of the second trimester.

With a little force, the food prepared by my daughter I chewed. Enough to nourish my unborn baby.

I looked up a little to see the clock on the wall.”We're gonna take Papa in a minute, son.”

I headed outside the house where many guests and family had arrived. I also saw all the Star's men.

“There are so many who love you, dear,”.

I walked while on the orange and Bik Nah. I watched those who tried their hardest to hold back their tears. Maybe so I wouldn't be affected.

“No, Star. I will take you not with my tears but with my love.”

The sound of the sirens of the ambulance burning was very deafening to my ears. I tried to cover my ears, but not enough to shrink his voice.

“Honey, don't worry about the three of us. I promise to live happily as you aspire for me. I will never forget that. Enough for you there to wait for us, my children will teach me how to love the way you love your mother. Relax there, honey. Now it's my turn to love you like you love me until we finally meet again. I love you, I love you, my dear. Husband.”

I kissed the forehead of my husband's corpse, the man I would never exchange for the rest of the world.

“Goodbye, Sweetie.”