THE HEAVEN THAT IS TAKEN AWAY

Part 88: Love Is Dead

"Is that how much you hate me deck?"

"do I want to answer all the trashy questions that come out of your mouth?"

"dek, I know it hurt you so much, but what's wrong if I still expect an apology from you?"

"you are not wrong at all, but I cannot forget all the insults you have given me. You know how much it hurts to know you're lying and cheating behind my back. How painful it is to know that you indulge him while I struggle desperately in all my limitations. I'm the one trying to get someone else to reap the results, it hurts a lot. Why are you doing all this to me, why?"

"have you ever thought about my feelings? I was stupid, I asked you that. Of course the answer is no, you definitely never think about it." I kept on blurting out word for word and did not forget to throw out some questions that did not require an answer to him.

I feel like he's enough to talk pretentiously and love me, everything he's saying now can't change anything anymore. I will say what he should know one last time and I will never repeat it again.

I feel like it's time he knew how I felt right now so he could know himself a little. I will explain and describe how bad he did to me, so that my love could not endure. That love is gone now and will not come back again because he is dead

"mas sorry deck. Suppose there is something you can do so that you can forgive all the mistakes you have done to you, you will definitely do the deck."

"you don't have to do anything for me right now mas, there's no point. You better get away and get away from me because that's what's best right now."

"is it still okay to come and visit you when you miss you deck?"

I smiled grinningly not understanding his way of thinking, for moreover he came to visit if it was no let alone the bond of love between us.

"no, you can't come to see me anymore because I don't want to. I am now a nobody to you and you are now someone else's, so from now on you should forget and stay away from me."

"don't my law be this heavy deck, if it's impossible for me to be your life partner then make me your brother." - Ringgo said in a soft voice, he suddenly became sweet and charismatic in front of me.

I fell silent and tried to digest the words that had just come out of Ringgo's mouth. I can't believe he could talk like that right now, all this time where he put all the wisdom he had.

"you should go home now, I don't want the Queen to find you here. I wish you'd stop being a problem in my life, let me live in peace." I spoke in a serious tone while looking into both eyes.

"assuming time can be turned back, you will never let any of this happen. Mas won't let any of this happen deck."

"don't regret it, like rice is now porridge. You better live your life and I'll also find my happiness."

"what do you mean deck? Are you going to find a replacement for me soon?"

"of course you don't want to live alone while you're happy with him."

"is that fast the deck?"

I don't want to see the doubts and weaknesses in me. Now, I'm not a weak woman he can seduce just by using a useless fist.

"delight forgive me." Mas Ringgo again apologized to me, I saw a tear drop in the corner of his eye.

But, I will not see the sadness in his eyes because it will only weaken my heart. I should be able to hold back my feelings because after all he is now he is not mine anymore.

I just kept quiet and did not respond to his words, there was nothing I could say this time.

Mas Ringgo turned his back and stepped away. From behind, I could see him rubbing his face.

'is he crying' I said inwardly, not believing what I had just seen.

"gold,."

"yes deck," Mas Ringgo immediately turned his head towards me. I saw her eyes wet and her face red. Sure enough, he was crying.

"I've forgiven you, but you never see me again. I will also never interfere in any matters concerning you in the future. You and I are nobody from now on you should always remember that." I ended my words while Ringo's mas left without saying anything.

I feel relieved after saying all that, I hope that Ringgo mas understand and do not disturb my life anymore. Now, I just remember the events that I just experienced.

Frankly, I don't think it's easy to say all that. I had to look calm even though my mind was turbulent withholding emotions.

After the departure of the Ringgo I immediately opened the door and entered the house. I looked around, my house was a mess.

I immediately changed my clothes and started cleaning the house. I have to finish it soon because later in the afternoon I will go to the landowner's house that I will buy.

Actually, I could have transferred the money to Roland, mas Roland is a businessman so 500 million is not a big money for him even though for me only this time I saw that much money.

Suppose, I keep that money on Roland's mas there's definitely no one who would be suspicious. But, I did not want to do that because I promised myself I would become a strong and independent person.

I will show the world that a woman is not a weak creature who can only cry when hurt but she can also do the same thing as a man.

From now on, I must be able to take care and learn the courage to make the best decision for myself. I can't always count on Roland, after all he'll have a life of his own when he's married.

I hurriedly finished my work, after all before afternoon everything was in order. I moved the bed that used to be in the master room to the back room because I didn't want to sleep there.

I don't want the memory of Ringgo's mas to continue to harass me, after all three years of living with him must have left many memories in my life. I hope that by no longer occupying the main room, over time I can forget all the memories we once knitted together.