THE HEAVEN THAT IS TAKEN AWAY

Part 5: Sorry, I Was Forced to Do It

"sorry, how can I help you?" ask a servant to me. I was shocked half to death hearing his words, conscious from daydreaming.

"i-this I want to buy this, how much will it cost? tanyaku. Frankly, I'm ashamed to ask. I've been, I've never bought, let alone used this thing. But now, I have to do it.

"oh this is mbak, the price is sixty-five thousand only?" the waiter smiled at me, as if he knew I was ashamed at this moment.

"why buy lingerie this time? I used to wear it, too. Today, we are required to try hard to keep the husband so as not to be disturbed by actors. Now many wandering actors, they are not ashamed to tease people's husbands, even though they approach our husbands not solely because of love but rather want treasure" he said

I smiled listening to his words, my little heart confirmed what the servant said. I feel like what the waiter said, is happening to me now.

"what price can be less, because I also want to buy a pair of nightgowns?" I bid the price I was trying to find.

"i give you fifty-five thousand, that's the lowest price you can't go down anymore" said the waiter.

"all right I take mbak but quickly wrap it if you can use a black bag, mbak" I said while wailing left right.

"it's normal to be upset, don't be ashamed" he said, laughing lightly as he passed.

"oh yes mbak, is there a nightgown that costs forty-five thousand? ask the waiter again.

"there is mbak, because mbak new customers at our kiosk I give special prices. I will give this nightgown cheaper than the usual price, hopefully mbak continue to be our subscription.

"thank you, yes mbak" I said gladly. After paying, I immediately left the stall.

I then rushed towards where people were selling cosmetics. I bought some cosmetic products there. Once calculated it turned out to be the price of two hundred and thirty. I paid for all that, using the shopping money. I don't care if the shopping money is less, I'll ask again.

'sorry, I had to do all this. All this because of you mas, you have made me this way' I said in my heart, a feeling of sadness immediately spread in my heart.

After paying, I then left the cosmetics store.I felt very satisfied, after a long time finally able to buy my personal needs. I feel satisfied, even though the items I buy are not expensive items and branded goods. At least, I can replace old things that are no longer worth using.

I walked down every aisle of the market, not wanting to hurry home. I enjoy the view of the market, trying to entertain myself. all this time, I never linger in the market even though just washing my eyes.

All this time, I was too concerned with taking care of my household, to forget to take care of myself. I always put happiness first in Ringgo so I forgot to make myself happy.

But not anymore, I have to try to create happiness for myself. I will not let myself always give up.

All this time I loved and trusted Ringgo mas, but Ringgo never appreciated all that. I love him wholeheartedly, but Ringgo's mas could stain the sanctity of my love by having an affair behind my back.

'mas, you have the heart to do all this' I said softly, sad that my heart remembers all that.

Satisfied washing my eyes, I walked out of the market. I wait for the department to go to where I live. While waiting suddenly, I saw a dispensary immediately popping up an idea in my head. I then went to the pharmacy to buy something.

"mas, is there a sleeping drug sale? ask the pharmacy guard.

"yes mas, lately I have trouble sleeping do not know why mas" I replied while looking at him.

"don't think too much, try to calm down" he said again, advising me.

"this is the cure" he said, offering me some sleeping pills.

"oh yeah, how much is it?" ask again.

"all fifteen thousand" he said.

"this is the money" I said while offering twenty thousand dollars

"thank you mbak" he said with a smile as he gave me the change.

"sama-sama mas" I replied, then left the pharmacy.

I went back to waiting for the angkot, not how long the angkot I was waiting for came. I rushed up, wanting to get home soon. On the way, I stared at the sleeping pills I had just bought. There is heartbreaking pain, I can't believe I'm going to do all that to Ringgo.

'sorry, I had to do all this. It never crossed my mind all this time to do all this, but you are the cause of all this. You have hurt me, you have made me this way, I said in my heart, very sad.

Not long after, I got home. I immediately got down and paid the freight. Then, I rushed into the house.

Once inside, I put my groceries on the sofa. I went straight to the kitchen, prepared dinner. I hurriedly finished the cooking, though I hurriedly tried to cook wholeheartedly. I'm going to make a good meal because it's all part of the plan I'm going to do later.

After how long, I finally finished cooking did not forget I tasted it. Although in a hurry, it turns out the cuisine I made remains delicious.

When I finished, I immediately cleaned the kitchen from the garbage I used to cook earlier. I'm used to it, after finishing cooking, the kitchen is cleaned.

'finally done as well' I said in my heart, relieved it felt like everything was finished on time.

Then, I rested for a while after the fatigue reduced I went to the bathroom. I should have been tidy before Ringo's mas came home. I immediately washed myself, feeling very fresh in my body.

I immediately headed to the sofa after finishing the shower. I took everything I bought and brought it into the room. Soon I was wearing the clothes I bought earlier, it was fitting and beautiful once I wore it. I looked myself up, but I was still beautiful.

I took the cosmetics I bought earlier. First, I polished my face with powder. I'm wearing thin powder, don't forget I'm polishing lipstick on my lips. I combed my hair and I let it run beautifully. Lastly, I sprayed perfumed oil on my body.

After I finished dressing up, I did not forget to take a peck before I finished. Can't believe after so long and like this, it turns out I'm no less beautiful than the woman out there.

I'm ready to wait for Ringgo to come home, can't wait to run everything I've planned.