THE HEAVEN THAT IS TAKEN AWAY

Part 123: Wasted and Neglected

Pov Ringgo's

I opened my eyes, suddenly in a room that felt foreign to me, an all-white room with a strong medicinal scent glowing and piercing my nose. I tried to circulate my gaze around, seeing some beds with people lying there just like me.

I also saw some people in uniform passing by there. After a while, I again gathered consciousness in my memory.

"where am I" I said.

"sister Ringgo, are you conscious?" one of the men in white uniform asked as he rushed over to me with a slight smile on his lips.

"where am I, why am I here?"

"father was in the hospital, he was brought here unconscious" the woman in uniform explained.

I looked around, and I was in the hospital. I try to recall what happened a few hours ago before I got here.

"who brought me here, doctor"

"the father friend who brought here, his name is Rianti, he was also the one who finished the process of filling in the data." the nurse gave an explanation with a calm tone characteristic of a nurse.

I sighed, there was a sense of happiness as well as bitter that I felt when I heard the name that the nurse had just mentioned.

I feel happy because it turns out Rianti is still good and cares for me, even though I have made a fatal mistake to him. She was indeed a noble hearted woman, whom I had hurt her heart all this time. Why, I just realized it now. I feel like the dumbest man in the world.

I've traded a precious diamond sparkle for a piece of copper full of rust. I'm really stupid, why can't my eyes see that clearly just yet. It shouldn't have happened, I'm really sorry now.

Now, I can only swallow the bitterness that is now suffocating and stifling. I know my regrets are too late, there's nothing I can do now. I will face and regret all this stupidity for the rest of my life.

"Now, I will check the condition of the father first." the voice of the nurse brought back my memory who was lamenting the stupidity that had been done so far.

"oh yeah! After this, please contact your family to keep the father here . You may be able to go home tomorrow, because the condition of the father only needs light treatment."

"father has started to stabilize again, now can rest now. Excuse me first!

The nurse then left after checking on my condition, I was silent and stared at her disappearance. I looked around, my heart was sad. I feel lonely, no one cares about me.

I contacted the Queen immediately, but there was no response from her. I kept trying until I finally gave up.

I'm really alone now, I don't feel my tears. My chest felt tight when I looked around. In a corner not far from me, I saw a father lying limp on his bed. He smiled as his son and wife asked him to joke.

I can only look here at the warmth of the family, which I obviously would never have gotten. I was getting sad and sad to see it, could not stand it all I then turned the sleeping position facing the wall.

I cried, the tears that were just on my eyelids are now starting to flow. I can't help it anymore, let this tightness in my chest go away as my tears spill over the pillow.

After a long time of crying and lamenting everything that happened, I fell asleep with tears that had soaked the pillow.

I don't know how long I slept, I woke up. Iopen eyes. I'm trying to find the whereabouts of someone I really hope for right now, who else if not my wife the Queen. But, he doesn't exist.

I breathed heavily, then I took

grab it and try to contact him, stay off the hook. I began to despair of his presence, my stomach was hungry.

I turned to the table near me, and there was food there. I tried to reach him even with a very weak energy. I held up the plate, my hands were trembling a little.

I immediately ate the dish, it felt very bland. But I kept on devouring it. I ate unfeeling, the food I swallowed was so bitter

After finishing the meal I immediately lack medicine, I do not want to be here long. I want to go home soon, the smell of medicine here makes my stomach nauseous.

The clock has shown at six o'clock in the afternoon, but the Queen has not been seen his whereabouts. I was like a child waiting to be picked up by his mother, but the one in waiting did not come either.

'The queen where you are now, do you not know I am lying this sick?'

I mumbled, my heart getting sad. 'Is this the karma I have to accept?'

I cried again for the second time today, remembering how my old days would be. I imagine how bad my old days would be if I continued living with the Queen.

'o God why my life is like this." I sobbed back, it felt like my chest was exploding holding back the anxiety that was stirring in my heart.

I tried to sit and keep staring at the door, hoping that anyone would come to see me. Hopefully, the Queen will come to see me soon.

Long wait, the Queen did not come. I feel jealous of others. They were looked at by their families and relatives who came to change. Unlike me, since realizing earlier no one came to visit just to ask my situation.

Even at night, I had no hope. I then tried to close my eyes, put my heart and mind to sleep, which had been tired of waiting.

I have now got a reply for my work on Rianti. Hopefully this doesn't continue 'I find it hard not to bear it.

The queen I've been hanging out with and bowing all this time, I don't know where she's been. I have fulfilled his wishes and wishes. But I can't be proud of him.

Long minded, I fell asleep too. I woke up when Azan was reverberating. I saw the atmosphere in my ward already seen busyness.

Family members waiting for their sick family appear to have woken up, they are seen wearing sarongs and mukena about to go to musholla.

I tried to get up and get out of my sleep, feeling that my energy had returned . I walked to the bathroom a little bit. Maybe this is the time for me, I must seek forgiveness for all the sins I have committed so far.