THE HEAVEN THAT IS TAKEN AWAY

Part 12: The Truth Is Painful

"grandfather, let's wake up in the morning" I heard Mr. Ringgo wake up. I squirm my body lazily about to wake up.

" yes, but I'm still sleepy" I replied accordingly. Actually I've been awake since dawn, but I feel lazy to wake up.

My heart still hurts, remembering what I found and read last night. I'm still confused as to how to deal with Ringgo.

Usually, I'm in the kitchen at this hour to prepare breakfast for the Ringgo. I always wake up early before I wake up. I will prepare all the needs of Mr. Ringgo work to the office.

But since last night, I've been lazy to do all that. I feel free to do all that, if never appreciated. Mas Ringgo has really outrageous dared to cheat behind my back.

"gold is done deck, would you please make breakfast and leave for work?" pinta mas Ringgo, I heard him say on the sidelines of the drowsiness that still plumbed my eyes.

"iya mas" I replied shortly as I got up and passed from the room. I feel not excited about doing anything. I feel very lazy to cook, to prepare breakfast for mas Ringgo. I am still upset with him who has wished me love.

I don't know what to do after this to Mr. Ringgo. I was confused and could not believe what had happened. I can't believe my love isn't precious enough for her.

Slowly but surely, I felt that now I was starting to hate him. The feeling of sincere and holy love as long as I planted it in my heart, slowly began to fade away. Mas Ringgo had managed to poison all of that with treason.

'mas Ringgo once had the heart of you to me, it turns out you are not as I thought you were all along. You are so smart to lie to me, that I am unable to see the truth that you are hiding from you' I groaned in my heart, it was really painful to know all these truths.

Mas Ringgo could destroy the household mahligai, which for three years we have lived. I tried to build heaven, but Ringgo instead presents hell in my life.

I don't understand what's on my mind, Ringgo. I served him sweet honey but he gave me a deadly poison. Now, I don't know until when I can hold on.

Now, I just realized one thing turned out that love was not as beautiful as I imagined it to be. I realized not always the sincere love that I planted is not necessarily a happy fruit, but instead bear the fruit of suffering.

I make and serve a cup of coffee first. After that, I immediately cook breakfast for him. I don't know what to cook for her this morning.

Finally, I decided to cook instant noodles for the Ringgo mas. I made an instant breakfast noodles feeling the dish was fast cooking it.

All this time, I was most abstinent in cooking noodles as breakfast mas ringgo. I don't want to make it because I know noodles aren't healthy food

But today, I no longer think about it. It's useless I always take care of his health while, mas Ringgo does not want to keep my feelings. He is more willing to make others happy than to be loyal to me.

'forgive me, for today and beyond I will not try to do my best for you. Not that I have the heart of you, but that you have willed all this, I am still deep in heart.

Not how long breakfast for the Ringgo mas is ready then I immediately thrust it to him.

Now that my mind was not calm, I could not think calmly. I can only babble in my heart without being able to express it. Let me keep silent for now, I wait for the right moment to tell you all my feelings.

Now let it be, I will continue to carry out my duties as a wife. I will continue to do well even without a genuine love for him. The rays of happiness in my heart have disappeared, but Ringgo has extinguished the fire of love in my heart.

After finishing breakfast, I saw that the Ringgo was soon moving on to work. I now feel careless, not caring at all about him.

"dek, mas went to work first yes" he said goodbye to me. For some reason, the hatred that now had defeated my respect for him.

"yes, good on the road" I replied, kissing her hand carelessly. I'm saying it's just a small talk. I tried to be as normal as possible in front of him even though my heart was broken to pieces seeing the cleverness of the Ringgo mas covering everything.

'so clever you cover this up from me, so you can act as if nothing happened. But you have to remember one thing mas, really good at you covering the carcass but one day the smell must be smelled also by me' I continue to batin while smiling bitterly, as bitter as the feeling I now feel.

I saw Mr. Ringgo heading straight to the garage, then start the engine. After letting her go, I immediately went to the room continuing my disturbed sleep.

I'm really not excited and very tired today. The spirit of my life seemed to disappear, I felt my world as if it had been destroyed deliberately by Mas Ringgo.

'"tega's right, Mr. Ringgo did all this to me. He did not think all this time who had accompanied him. I accompanied her since she was no one." I said to myself as I headed for the room.

Mas Ringgo was not who, he was just an unemployed person.Because my love for him is so great, I sincerely accept him as he is. I never questioned his social status.

Considering all that, I feel very sad. Mas Ringgo is like a bean that forgets his skin, does not remember who he really is. He could have betrayed the deep love and loyalty that I had been guarding for him.

' mas Ringgo someday you will regret everything you did to me. By the time it comes, I will make sure you will lose everything you have today' I muttered inwardly. I can't lie to myself if my heart is really hurting right now.

Not long after, I again heard the roar of Ringgo's car. I could hear that he was looking for something now but I just kept quiet. I don't care and don't want to help her, let her find her herself.

'dek you see the mobile phone mas not, I forgot to put it. please mas looking for the deck, mas afraid late work" he said to me, I'm now more upset made.

I got up and got out of bed, immediately headed to the sofa to pick up the mobile phone. Not long after, I went back to the room and handed the mobile phone to him. I saw there was a slight look of surprise and astonishment on the face of the Ringgo mas.

I know for a fact that Ringgo was surprised to suspect that I had opened his phone. But, I don't care if I go to sleep again.

' mas Ringgo, I know everything you are keeping secret from me. Now I'm just waiting for the right time to unload everything. While waiting for that moment to arrive, you please enjoy the beauty of the affair you are living at this time. One day, you will feel the pain of the suffering I am feeling right now' I said softly in my heart. Slowly, I closed my eyes hoping that my screams would be gone by the time I slept.