THE HEAVEN THAT IS TAKEN AWAY

Part 2: The Neglected Heart

'i can't believe all this happened to me' I muttered softly, in disbelief

Mas Ringgo could destroy and take away my paradise, which was built with love and trust. I was hurt remembering the fate of love and my household on the brink of destruction.

Actually, I was suspicious of Ringgo. I feel lately the attitude of Mr. Ringgo has changed, since the last six months.

Mr. Ringgo used to come home late at night, usually never. Usually, he was home at seven o'clock, even if it was eight o'clock at the longest. But now, Ringgo often come home late at night, frankly I was curious and astonished

"mas, why do you often come home late at night lately, what is it? I once asked unable to cover the curiosity that appeared in my heart.

"now mas often overtime deck?" the answer is as if there are no lies.

"but, I wonder why you've been so busy lately. Did you go up the mas department? ask again, curious.

"mas did not rise to the rank of deck" replied Mr. Ringgo again.

"how come you home now so often late at night?" I started to feel something strange.

"now we want to improve our performance in the company. Now there are many termination of employment, I am afraid of being fired by the deck" he replied in a serious tone. I believe in the answer to the Ringgo mas at that time because it was very convincing and reasonable.

"mas now your salary must be bigger than before, right?" I ask again hope that the salary of the Ringgo mas rises like what I asked earlier.

"why do you think that?" asked again while staring intently at me as if I do not like asking so.

"sorry mas not why, I just think that now your performance is better, of course, the salary must have risen anyway.anyways, Mr. Ringgo has been working there for a long time." my answer is to give her a reason not to get angry and upset.

"ohhhh, mas did not rise the deck salary, did not rise the position where the salary may rise." that's the answer at that time.

I tried to believe in the words of Lord Ringgo, though my little heart still said there was something that was hidden in Ringgo. I ignored every doubt that came to my heart, even though it sometimes crossed my mind.

But this past month, I've felt the change in attitude of Mr. Ringgo is becoming more and more apparent. I feel like Ringgo keeps a lot of secrets from me, he's not as open as he used to be. Even now, Ringo rarely puts his phone near me. Mas Ringgo now deliberately kept me away from his phone.

One day I once held her phone intending to give it to her. I just wanted his phone because it was ringing from earlier, but Ringgo was angry at night unclear.

"dek, never open your phone without your knowledge, you also need privacy" said Mas Ringgo in an angry tone.

"sorry, I never intended to open your phone. I'm an educated man, I know how to behave. Mas Ringgo don't just accuse me" I replied sad it feels accused by a very loved one, it really hurts.

"why is the mobile phone in your hand, what is the purpose if not to open" accuse mas Ringgo again.

"forgive me the deck, it doesn't mean to accuse you. Mas just want, you respect the privacy of mas no other purpose" said mas Ringgo looks regretful in his eyes.

"mas Ringgo, I'm your wife. Don't I have a right to know about you?" many I hold tightness in the chest, so treated.

"but not everything you have to know deck, I need privacy please appreciate" he said again.

"actually, you're hiding what from me. I've been feeling weird about your attitude lately, what's wrong with you? much

"please, you're being honest with me." I said again, I hope there's some honesty that Mr. Ringgo would say

"dad, don't think weird. What can I hide from you" replied Mr. Ringgo, staring at me.

"i don't think strangely mas, I just feel your attitude is strange and unnatural. Your attitude seems to say that there is something that you are hiding from me." I said what I had in mind, I felt that the attitude of Mas Ringgo was really strange.

"please hope you don't have any thoughts, you must believe the same!" mas Ringgo said, I heard the words of Mr. Ringgo as serious even though I did not see any honesty in his eyes

"but mas, i....!

"have already left, we have finished this conversation.mas hope you believe what mas say." said Ringo as he passed cutting off my unfinished words.

I tried to believe the words of Lord Ringgo at that time, trying to erase any suspicions I felt. I'm trying to believe it because I love Ringgo. I don't want to hurt my own feelings with all the suspicion I feel.

But today, I feel very sad and disappointed.I feel, Ringgo mas really outrageous. Mas Ringgo does not appreciate the sacred love and loyalty that I have been guarding for him. It hurts, the trust I gave was betrayed.

'tega you did all this to me mas' I muttered inwardly withstanding the grievous wounds that had been scratched by the man I loved so much.

I thought that Ringgo was so brave for me, he cheated on me without me knowing it.

I believe all of this happened, but this is the reality that I have to experience. I didn't expect to get hurt because I loved her so much

"are there any other lies that Ringgo hid from me?" I asked in my heart. Now I don't know how many lies Ringgo hid, I don't know.

From now on, I have to find the truth that Ringgo tries to cover up. I have to be clever in acting, do not let the Ringgo mas suspicious of me. I do not want to be rash in making decisions, have to think carefully every step I will do

"all right, you're the one who started this battle. Mas Ringgo never blame me, destruction will come to you because of your own mistakes." I said in my heart, unable to control the anger that now dominates the heart

I can't accept all this, the love and trust I've been playing with. I won't let my paradise be taken from me by anyone. I will avenge every pain you give me. You wait for my vengeance....