THE HEAVEN THAT IS TAKEN AWAY

Part 45: It's Too Late for Nothing.

" deck do you want to be okay? mas Ringgo said, whether he was really worried or just asking but I didn't care at all. All the attention he's showing me now, it's been meaningless to me.

Free, he's paying attention to me now I don't want any of that. I felt that my feelings for her were completely gone, my heart was already in pain that was left with only a flake of wound that was difficult to heal.

"how do I feel now? you must know the answer. I feel like I'm bad, even really bad. After your betrayal and infidelity, there's no way I'll be okay. You shouldn't have asked me that." I said as I looked cynically at Ringgo, he really had no right to ask me that question.

"mas is truly sorry deck, may you forgive all my mistakes." Ringgo said apologizing but his apology was not enough for me, to erase all the suffering that had broken my heart.

He didn't understand how much he had hurt my heart, it's useless to say I felt it would never happen to him. If only he had thought about my feelings, none of this would have happened.

"you are truly great, you have cheated on me behind my back, but you have never been able to fully support me all this time. I live in deprivation with you, let alone to buy good things buy me underwear you almost never. Do you think that what you did to me is worth forgiving? I said as I asked a question that didn't need an answer at all.

Mas Ringgo was just speechless listening to his question, he seemed to be unable to answer the question I threw at him. I also don't need his explanation right now, everything is clearly visible in my eyes.

I also did not expect to be able to live with her, which I wanted now quickly parted from her. I feel enough already the suffering that I feel, this relationship should I end do not want to waste more time living with him.

"but the deck, mas still loves you very much and never crossed the mind of wanting to part with you." mas Ringgo said, instantly making my stomach as if nausea wanted to vomit to hear it. I admit he's very good at words

"dec pardon my mistake, mas really regret everything that has happened." mas Ringgo said as he held my hand, but I immediately pulled my hand not to be touched by his dirty hand.

"the regret you now feel is too late mas, I can not forgive all your mistakes you should never talk about this again. It's all over now, from now on we live each other's lives." I said as I got up, not wanting to continue.

"grandfather, where are you going, our conversation is not finished yet." - Ringgo said, he got up while holding my hand.

"i want to go back to sleep, I don't want to continue this conversation. I feel like this talk is pointless." I passed from the presence of mas ringgo, it felt like my stomach did not feel hungry anymore bored once discussing this useless matter.

I'd better go back to sleep to rest, tomorrow I'll meet the shameless lizard Queen. I I showed him who he was dealing with, I'll make him regret daring to mess with me.

"grandfather....

I don't want to listen to the words mas ringgo anymore, it will only add to the pain in my heart. I soon passed leaving the Ringgo mas still standing looking as I left it. I'd better go to bed soon, it won't be worth it for long.

I lay my body on the bed, your mind glares back to remember the past that I have been through all this time. My tears did not start to fall soaking the pillow, crying over the misfortune I had experienced.

"why is this always so...! I groaned in my heart, my heart was sad to remember my love that always ended in destruction. I've always been victimized by the same woman, I've lost it.

'what is this destiny, God? will my love's destiny always be like this?" I kept asking, I finally fell asleep until the morning with tears still flowing, without anyone going to wipe it off.

I woke up from my sleep, immediately got up to take wudu' about to perform dawn prayers. I opened the door, and I saw that Ringgo was still asleep on the sofa without a blanket.

Normally, I would cover him if I saw him sleeping cold without a blanket. From today on, I don't do it anymore. Why am I caring for people while he does not care at all about my feelings.

I looked away as I passed, not wanting to dissolve in my feelings. After I finished praying, I immediately made tea for me. I sat down at the table, enjoying the tea in front of me.

"is the grandfather awake?"mas Ringgo's voice sounded suddenly I was shocked to hear it. I did not answer but continued to enjoy the tea that was in front of me.

I saw Ringgo sitting on the chair facing me, but I just kept quiet and didn't want to talk to him. He looked at the table and then looked at you but I still ignored him.

"coffee deck for which mas? mas Ringgo asked after a while I was still silent no sign of rising.

I feel like it's no longer my responsibility, just let him make it himself. I don't want to make it for him, let him feel if I don't serve him.

"mas, you should get used to making your own coffee and breakfast from now on because soon we will be separated. I won't do anything for you, so you better get used to doing everything yourself from now on." I said without turning my head, Ringgo was seen rising from his seat.

I immediately finished the tea without breakfast because I did not make breakfast this time. Three years married, I just this time do not make breakfast usually when Ringgo know just fine. Mas Ringgo if he wants breakfast let him make it himself, he doesn't need my help anymore.

"where are you going, early in the morning it's neat." mas Ringgo said, astonished to see my appearance.

"i'm going where you don't need to know, because that's not your business anymore. I hope you don't interfere in my business and I won't want to know what you're doing. You are free to do whatever you want." I said as I passed from before the Ringgo. She was listening to me talk, definitely not expecting me to be able to say that to her.

This morning I intend to meet the snake Queen, I will force her to cancel her report. . He must be willing to fulfill all my wishes, otherwise he must be ready to bear all the risks.