Secrets of the Former (Love Left Behind)

Ninety One

Gantari drove his motorcycle down the highway. His mind floated though his gaze was still focused on controlling the speed of the vehicle. There was a big wedge in his heart that made his entire organs so unpleasant.

"Oh!" Gantari pecked upset not because there was a vehicle that suddenly stopped, but because his heart was increasingly tight. He pulled the brake pedal and turned his motorcycle at the intersection, then drove again with no hesitation towards Nevan's house.

Allowing trouble will only make it unpleasant to eat and sleep.

Gantari's motorcycle is parked in Nevan's yard. For a moment, Gantari was silent looking at the two-story house dominated by white paint in front of him. Then, he exhaled a deep breath, then removed the helmet from the head and stepped towards the terrace.

Early in the morning satronizing the ex-husband's house feels awkward too. What's more, Gantari is sure that Pure Bi is at home.

Uh! What did he expect? Dealing with Nevan, is that it?"

"Mister Gantari?"

Oh, dearGod.

Gantari who had been jolted immediately twisted her body and found that Pure Ma was already standing behind her with a kingpin.

While grinning widely, Gantari nodded and greeted Pure Ma'am kindly. "For nyiram flowers, huh, Bi?"

Crisp.

Bi Pure only glanced at the kingpin he was holding, then nodded. "Fast meet Mas Nevan, deh, Ma'am," he was worried.

"Why, Bi?" asked Gantari with furrowed brows. Pretending not to know. On that matter Nevan's disappointed face was still swirling in his mind.

"Much a mess, I guess."

Gantari nodded, then entered the house after being invited by Nevan's Household Assistant. Meanwhile, Bi Murni decided to continue his activities of watering plants.

Last time he came here with Nevan and today he came alone. There was no confusion in finding Nevan's room because Gantari had found out and entered Nevan's room. Back when Gantari was still working at Rawikara Retail, she was also here when Nevan disappeared from the office and apparently was lying in the room due to illness.

Gantari slowly pressed the doorknob and the door slowly opened with a soft sound. The first thing Gantari saw was Nevan lying on the bed on his stomach.

Gantari decided to enter without a sound after closing the door again. He knew Nevan wasn't sleeping. The man has a hard-to-sleep disease if he has a lot of thoughts.

It seems that Nevan threw his body on the bed as he slept at the foot of the bed. Sleeping on his stomach with his hands partially covered his face, making Nevan look so innocent. Secretly a smile was imprinted on Gantari's lips. His first smile this morning.

Gantari's gaze shifted from face to finger Nevan. One of the things I like the most. The fingers were so white and pliable, sometimes even Gantari was jealous to see it. Gantari slowly lifted her chin and moved to grab Nevan's finger, then played it.

Nevan bergeming's. He didn't move at all or just opened his eyes. Making Gantari's beliefs stronger, if Nevan is not sleeping.

Gantari is like that too. He had no intention of speaking at all. From now on it was just cool to play Nevan fingers.

"My feelings have not changed and will not change" Nevan said in a heavy voice muffled by the surface of the bed.

Gantari smiled again, though she knew Nevan had not seen her.

"I know" Gantari replied. There was a warm feeling in his heart.

"I don't like hearing that and I hope I won't hear it again." The young man continued to speak with his eyes still closed.

This time Gantari clasped Nevan's fingers. Close their fingers tightly. At first glance he took a breath and exhaled slowly.

"I'm sorry I hurt you again."

Nevan. His eyes are still closed.

"It was me who always hurt you, right?" Nevan's voice was heavy. He still remembered Farez's words. Still remember the rumors with Mariah. In fact, he still remembers the fact that ... he allowed himself to misunderstand Gantari for so long, long ago.

Unable to control anymore, a tear escaped the tip of Nevan's eye. Making Gantari who saw him feel the pain in his heart.

Gantari pointed her free hand at Nevan's head, then rubbed it gently. Both of them have been hurt by the past and circumstances. The only way is to just keep going even if you can't forget the end.

"Look ...." Gantari cupped her palms to Nevan's face, and inevitably the young man looked up and opened his eyes.

For a moment, the two eye beads that were harboring the wound clashed. Trying to share and understand each other. Until then, Gantari's lips slowly stick gently on Nevan's lips.

"I just want you, I don't want anything else" Gantari said later.

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