Secrets of the Former (Love Left Behind)

Thirty Four

Many times I miss you for no reason - Ardiona Nevandra.

***

Nevan wakes up when Azan Ashar is seen. He narrowed his eyes to look at the figure pointed at by the clockwork of the wall, apparently sleeping all day. Fortunately, he had sent the job and finished the dawn.

He got out of bed and went straight to the bathroom. Drenched his entire body with cold water, hoping to find freshness.

The goal heard the voice of Pure Bi who was calling outside. Nevan did not go out of the room, he berwudu and pray first.

"Not yet to go home, Bi?" asked Nevan after leaving the room.

Bi Pure turned his head and paid a farewell to someone across the phone. "Where, Mas? Did you go out?" he ignored Nevan's question.

Nevan nodded, then commented a faint smile. "Auntie's coming home, it's okay. I'm gonna go out for a second" Nevan said, then left.

Nevan drives his car at high speed. The gas pedal he stepped deeper when overtaking other cars, so he felt his vision was a bit blurred due to his increasingly high speed. In fact, the occasional long honking sound from another car was aimed at him.

After spinning indiscriminately, Nevan finally turned his car in a mosque that he had never been to and performed magrib prayer there.

In fact, he had sat long enough on the steps of the terrace of the mosque, even though his shoes were neatly attached. He pursed his lips, seemed to think and then stood up and moved from there.

His car he drove back and now parked in front of a narrow alley. He pulled out his phone and typed something.

Nevandra Ardiona

18.55 WIB

Can you meet me for a second?

Read

Gantari frowned as she read Nevan's message just now. After disappearing for a week, he instead sent such a message.

Even so, Gantari opened her door and placed the scriptures she had read back on the nightstand, then walked out of the house.

He did not find Nevan there, so he continued walking down the alley and found a black car parked. He recalled the story of Fatimah about the black car a few days ago.

Gantari opened the car door and went inside. There's Nevan in there with his thin sideburns.

As it has been, they will be stuck in silence until one of them relents to start and that person is Nevan.

"I'm getting married."

Although holding him desperately, but Gantari was still surprised when he heard Nevan's confession. He was stunned, but then nodded slowly.

"Another week" Nevan added.

Gantari bit her lower lip. His fingers have been squeezed since.

"Congratulations," she replied briefly without looking at Nevan.

"Tell me." Nevan sighed heavily, then continued as Gantari stared back at her. "Should I take you away?"

Gantari turned to Nevan, then frowned inexplicably.

"It's just the two of us" Nevan continued.

Gantari gaped, then threw a glance out the window. Trying to control a sudden sense of dominance.

"Dion." Gantari looked down for a moment, looking at his fingers which he squeezed himself.

"Five years ago or now, I never hated you" Gantari said. He looked up and looked at Nevan.

"Painful feelings?" muttered Nevan in disbelief.

Her tears dripped once more, leaving her chest tight. He even banged his arms against the steering wheel, then shouted in despair.

Gantari walked down the alley in the darkness of the night with wide strides. He wanted to get out of there quickly because his tears could no longer be contained. His lips seemed to tremble even though he had tried to hold it by biting it.

He opened the door with trembling hands, then closed it quickly and instantly his body sagged to the floor. Gantari finally shed tears, until sobbing behind the door.

***

"This how?"

"That's great."

"What if this one?"

"That can be."

Mirna snorts. One of the young members of the Wedding Organizer was resigned and brought back examples of henna motifs that Shanessa will use when the agreement. He was quite dizzy with a very short deadline, plus the bride who could not be invited to work together. Although the reception was postponed, but still all the preparation of the agreement must be planned carefully.

"OK! All I choose, yes, but no protest tomorrow" murmured Mirna.

In addition to working as a wedding organizer, Mirna is also her level sister on campus, so they are already familiar.

Shanessa turned, but did not react. There is no typical happy look of brides there. The circumstances are much different from when the fiancee used to be.

Ardiman walked over and stood silently near Shanessa who was sitting alone on the sofa, making Shanessa look up. Before long his lips seemed to start shaking as a result of holding back the cry. Then, he quickly held her tightly, followed by Shanessa's roaring voice.

***

Tiwi came to see Nevan at her house. Apparently the son was focused with a pile of files scattered on the workbench.

"Are you sure?"

Nevan. His sharpener was flat.

"Are you sure you're going to marry Shanessa?" repeat Tiwi.

Nevan did not answer. He just returned to his job and just stopped when the sound of a sobbing from the mother.

"This time mama won't force you anymore" Tiwi said in a raucous voice. "Whatever your decision, you will support" he continued. Then he came back sobbing.

Nevan got up and walked up to Tiwi who was sitting in front of her, then hugged her mother tightly.

***

Gantari was giving the stray cats food on the side porch of the house, when her phone rang and showed an anonymous number. Even so, Gantari knew very well who the owner was. He stared at his old phone screen.

When the call was finally received, Gantari did not immediately speak. He was silent for a moment, and then replied. "Hello?"

Similarly to the person across the line, he was silent as well. There was no reply from Gantari's words just now.

"I'm fine" said Gantari.

"I feel calmer now" he continued.

Silent.

"Grandfather?" Gantari took a deep breath, then continued, "I've forgiven you, Grandpa. So, please, Grandpa can forgive me too."