Secrets of the Former (Love Left Behind)

Hundred Three

You don't have confidence, do you? Do you believe that you can keep Gantari from Wiratha's om-om? Loe's coward, Van.

Tomorrow meet Jero at the same place. We'll finish it as soon as we can.

"Dion?" Gantari held a soft shoulder Nevan who from earlier often looked dreamy, until the young man gasped. Nevan, who was sitting down with her hands tied, turned her head and looked at Gantari with sadness.

"If you don't want to, it's okay" he said. It's not a statement, but a hope.

"I .. want to." Gantari lowered her hand from Nevan's shoulder, then lowered her head. "I want to know what really happened to Mom. I want to know what Jero has done for me."

Gantari raised her face, then looked at Nevan. "I also want to know .. my origins."

"Dihyan." Nevan straightened her body to Gantari. "I don't care about the past at all."

"But I care. Our relationship ... isn't it about the past?"

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Nevan already knows, if Gantari's weakness is the Moon, his mother, and the world also knows for sure, if Nevan's weakness is Gantari Dihyan Irawan. The young man resigned and decided to accompany Gantari to meet Jero once again.

This time the meeting took a while. Again Nevan and Edo chose to stay away. Even so, both of them were silent without any chatter. Nevan's mood is not good, even if only for pleasantries.

"His name is Oscar Wilde. A student exchange student from Ireland." Jero starts and Gantari chooses to keep listening.

"He was very humorous, intelligent, also handsome and for the first time I fell in love." Jero's mind floated on the figure of a middle-haired teenager who managed to make him recklessly forget the upbringing of parents.

"Even though he was young, but Oscar was so mature" he recalls.

"But he left you" interrupted Gantari sharply.

Jero looked at Gantari, then nodded his head a few times. "You're right. He left me and chose to face God."

Gantari's blood rippled. He was ready to confirm his guess, but Jero continued, "He went home and wanted to tell his family, but the accident just made him leave."

Gantari felt her hair bristling. Without blinking he looked at Jero who now began to wipe the tip of his eyes that began to wrinkle.

"I'm ruined. Completely ruined." Jero looked painstakingly catch his breath, then continued, "I was forced through everything myself. I hate fate, I hate the world and I hate God, but not the child in my womb."

Jero's face looked so upset and Gantari began to worry about seeing him, but Jero refused to stop.

"I'm afraid there's no other chance to tell you everything."

Gantari sprinkled a glass of mineral water on Jero. His heart had begun to soften, but Jero only took the glass, but did not drink it.

Gantari could see Jero's hand holding a vibrating glass. But the woman did not stop the story.

"After his birth, I decided to give Moon to Midwife Lin and return home as my parents wished, but apparently my heart was never cut off from her. My moon."

Jero's cry finally broke as well. It causes a bitter taste in the gantari esophagus.

"I'm always watching the moon. Seeing his progress from afar. Despite having a new family, the Moon remains irreplaceable."

"My mom ... know about this?"

Jero raised his face, then nodded slowly. "A week before she married Clouds. He knows everything."

"My mom .. Don't hate you?" Gantari bit her lower lip, afraid of being mispronounced, but she needed answers.

A faint smile was imprinted on Jero's lips. He sighed slowly, this time looking calmer.

"My daughter is so good. He never showed his disappointment to me. In fact, when I asked him to hide this, he .. agreed." A tear Jero escaped again. His heart was broken again. "I'm ashamed. Why can a parent as bad as me have a child as good as him?"

"May. What does Maya's death have to do with my mother? Why was my mother blamed?" tanya Gantari could not stand it.

Jero shakes. "It's not the Moon's fault. I failed to be a mother. Because I was lamenting the Moon too much, my other children felt unattended."

"Do they know from the beginning?"

Jero stared at Gantari. Finally, he drank his mineral water. In fact, he nearly finished it. As if preparing for a more bitter reality.

"They know. I even wanted to meet the Moon and ask her to come back to me, but ... The events of that night, made me undo the intention. The night I couldn't do anything for my daughter. The night when the Moon gets the stamp as .. female entertainer."

Gantari felt her chest so tight. In fact, it felt like just breathing she was starting to have trouble. He shifted his eyes. Can't imagine the bitter events that befell the mother.

"I ... I'm scared. I'm starting to doubt my new family can accept the Moon."

Gantari bit her lower lip. Her cries began to break, until her shoulders shook. The fact that, no one was willing to accept her mother really made her heart ache.

Gantari felt her hands squeezed and Jero did it. "Sorry, Gantari. I'm sorry."

Again his heart was broken. The mother of his mother seemed no less hurt. Gantari felt her heart in a mess. He was angry, very angry, but the Moon could use Jero, but he was not the Moon. He is not the Moon who has never hated anyone else. He is not the Moon who can act like everything is fair. Again, he is not the moon.

A hug this time received Gantari. He felt the warmth of the tears wetting his shoulders.

"The accident my mother had. Does it have anything to do with your son?" ask Gantari coldly.