Secrets of the Former (Love Left Behind)

Thirty Three

This time Shanessa is facing herself. The thesis trial he went through so calmly. There was no panic, no groggy feeling that he used to show pol-polan. In fact, when the trial was finished his heart remained the same, empty.

Shanessa chose to step aside from the happy celebration of her comrades-in-arms today. He sat in the aisle seat and pulled out his cell phone. Stare at the screen for a long time, then touch the dial selection right in Nevan's name.

***

Nevan stepped in and immediately combed through the entire cafe to find Shanessa. Shanessa called and asked him to meet.

It's not hard to find that girl. Shanessa always likes to sit by the window and stare down at the highway. Today Shanessa wears a shirt and looks so formal.

Nevan stepped closer and instantly her heart flinched when she saw another figure sitting across from Shanessa. His figure that had not been seen by him, Gantari Dihyan Irawan. Meanwhile, beside Gantari sat Farez.

They don't seem to be chatting. The three looked silent and awkward, until Nevan approached.

"Eh! Have you come?" Shanessa greets Nevan as usual. It's like their relationship is okay.

Gantari lowered her head, while Farez seemed to occasionally glance at Gantari. A worried expression was implied from the young doctor's face.

"I am Gantari and Farez. It's okay, right?"

Nevan who had just stunned her body beside Shanessa only replied with a sigh of gloom. The atmosphere is really uncomfortable. What exactly did Shanessa mean?

"Today I got a thesis and graduated" Shanessa told me. A good news that is not delivered with a happy expression. "That means we're getting married soon, right, honey?"

The deg!

Nevan turned to Shanessa. What exactly is the purpose?

"I hope it won't be postponed again because ...." Shanessa turned to Gantari, looking at her sharp cousin. "Now there are many actors."

Nevan's jaw hardens. He was about to reprimand Shanessa, but Farez interrupted.

"Take care of what you say, Shanessa!"

Farez stood up, then grabbed Gantari's hand. His gaze was so sharp that it hit Shanessa who was smiling full of scorn. "This is not how you heal your wounds. Sorry, but we better go."

Farez stepped away by pulling Gantari with him. However, his steps had stopped when Shanessa again voiced out loud.

"You match. Just marry!"

Nevan let out a rough sigh, then clasped Shanessa's hand firmly, making the girl smile again with satisfaction.

"It hurts, huh, your ex-wife I despised?"

"Damoru!"

Shanessa pulled her hand, until Nevan's clutches came off. Then, he looked at Nevan coldly.

"I've kept my promise, it's your turn!"

Nevan did not immediately reply, he still looked at the girl in front of him in disbelief. Who her? She was not like the Shanessa she knew.

"You don't have any intention of marrying me, do you?" Shanessa Sentak. A smirk was engraved on his lips.

"Our feelings are still chaotic. We better put our feelings together first." Nevan finally replied.

Shanessa looked at him fiercely. "You never intended to marry me!" sharp hatch.

"When?"

"Two weeks away," Shanessa replied flatly.

"Good."

Shanessa got up and turned her back, then walked out of the cafe. A single tear escaped his eyes.

***

Gantari's lips twitched. He was no longer able to move his legs following Farez and chose to degrade his body, to squat in the parking lot.

Gantari bowed, then buried her face in both of her own palms. Samar, a sobbing sounded from there Gantari cried. Farez's heart ached hearing it, he crouched down. Then, hugged the woman in silence.

***

Since that day Nevan no longer appears. Gantari even laughed at herself for wishing Nevan would come and explain to her. What explanation? Explanation that he's ruining people's relationships?

"Assalamualaik."

Gantari who was watering the plant this morning immediately twisted his body and found .... Farez's there. He immediately commented a smile when he realized he had shown a disappointed look.

"Wa'alaikumsalam."

"I bought soto lamongan," he said cheerfully.

They ended up eating together on the terrace. Farez felt Gantari become more quiet and often caught off guard while daydreaming.

"What ...." Farez deliberately hung up his sentence, waiting for Gantari to look at him. "Is it better?"

Gantari bribed her soto lanong, then shrugged her shoulders. "A little better."

Farez smiled. That woman is not a weak woman. "Where do you work now?"

Gantari seemed silent for a moment. "Labour. I still have a lot of savings."

This time Farez chuckled. This young doctor was indeed easy to laugh, especially at Gantari.

"My partner leads the company. I can recommend you if you want" Farez said.

Gantari seemed to think. He cannot be forever unemployed.

"Now not. Maybe tomorrow, the day after tomorrow, next week, or next month" Farez said as he looked doubtful.

"You're engaging me in nepotism, aren't you?"

Farez gawked, then laughed loudly again.

***

Gantari was replacing the curtains of the entire window with the one he just bought this afternoon. He climbed up the chair, nailed it, to put the curtains on his own. But Ms. Fatimah was already screaming in panic so that Gantari waited for Anwar alone.

"It's a man's job, Neng. Wait for Anwar. Go home again, too" he said.

Gantari chuckled, then resumed her action nailing there and here. Meanwhile, Ms. Fatimah followed in a panic.

"Duh! The Maghrib. I'll take a shower, yeah, Mom." Gantari stuffed her war gear into the closet, then picked up a towel behind the door.

"Judek. Then I go home first, yeah. Come here again tonight."

Ms. Fatimah indeed every night to visit Gantari's house just to accompany. He is busy watching soap operas, while Gantari will be busy with his laptop.

Fatimah had reached the doorway, but turned her body again. "Who is that, huh?" said.

Gantari, who was brushing her hair, looked at Fatimah.

"That's in front of the alley there's a car from the afternoon. Maghrib doesn't go back and forth." Mrs Fatimah the road approaches Gantari again. "Did Miss Suryo buy another car? Rich really ah," he continued.

When you talk about your neighbors, the story is long. "The car is really cute, you know, Neng. It's black."

"When did you see her?" gantari's Response.

"So early in the morning when my mother sent fried food there was already a car, but soon it was gone," said Ms Fatimah. He did throw fried food into the stalls near here, so often pacing.

"Mom's just going to the shop to buy the nails of his car is again," he continued.

"Duh! Even gossip." Ms. Fatimah giggled. "Mom's really coming home, yeah."

Gantari smiled to see Fatimah running out. He was about to close the door, but there was someone standing near the wall of the alley.

Gantari loosened her head, then walked outside, but the man turned and left.

***

Bi Murni is cleaning up Nevan's house this morning. Sometimes he steals to see Nevan busy with his laptop. The thin sideburn that Bi Murni had never seen before, was now creeping on Nevan's beautiful face. Her hair was not as neat as usual. Without even asking Bi Murni knew that Nevan had not slept all night.

"Eat first, Mas. That's Auntie prepared," said Bi Murni slowly.

"Please make some coffee, Bi," Nevan replied without looking.

"If it's coffee, Auntie won't make it." Pure Bi's voice sounded trembling. Rather than seeing Nevan roar that night, her master's condition was now far from making Bi Pure's heart ache.

"Sleep, Mas. Don't torture yourself like this." Bi Pure finally sniffed.

Nevan finally looked. His eyes were so weak. "If I go to sleep, I don't feel like waking up, Bi."

Bi Murni further broke the cry. He stepped closer to Nevan and hugged her tightly. Rubbing the young master's hair slowly. "Auntie is here. Whatever Mas Nevan's decision, Bibi supports."

And, a clear water finally escaped Nevan's eyes.

Nevan eventually went to bed with the help of two sleeping pills. An alternative that he had left for quite a long time, but there was no other way, because he did need to sleep to stay sane.