Secrets of the Former (Love Left Behind)

Eight

After taking Shanessa home, Nevan returns home. Their moods were both in a bad state, until the trip was passed without chat as usual.

Bi Murni came over, asking him if there was anything he needed to do before returning home. However, Nevan shook her head and asked Bi Pure to just go home because the night was coming soon. Bi Pure according. He came home with a few dishes as usual.

The house is getting quieter and Nevan has always liked it. The twilight breeze he did not feel, although now he was standing on the second floor porch. The bright orange sun is the thing he likes the most. That beautiful color has nothing to beat.

The voice of the Maghrib interrupted and Nevan entered the house. Stepping into the bathroom and ablution to face the great. His mind was still drifting and he apologized for his indiscretions.

How come Dihyan's mother had never thought of him all this time?

The last he heard, the former mother-in-law said she wanted to accompany her friend on a farm. Although it was forbidden, but Gantari's mother argued if she was there not to work but spend old age in a refreshing environment.

Surprisingly, Dihyan did not ban. This makes no sense, because usually Dihyan is the one who desperately asks his mother to always be close to him. Although he did not understand, Nevan finally agreed.

Since her mother's departure, Gantari has become more grim. Even a few times Nevan caught his eyes puffy. When invited to visit the mother, Gantari always refused on the pretext of being made up.

That night, two months after her mother's departure, Gantari returned home late at night. His face looked very messed up. When asked, there was no answer he gave. Even though during their marriage, if out of the house even briefly Gantari always gave news.

Every day the strangeness of Gantari is becoming more and more. He gets out of the house more and more without permission when Nevan goes to work. In fact, he often went home earlier than Gantari. Nevan asks the reason for his departure, but there is always no satisfactory answer. Until, Nevan ran out of patience and with a little force asked what he actually did all day. However, what Nevan got was different from what he expected. As long as he knew Gantari, Nevan had never seen him that way. Gantari looked at him with a sharp gaze and uttered an equally sharp sentence.

"You should pursue your goals! Not a builder like this."

Nevan jerks. His chest suddenly ached.

"I should also pursue my ideals" Gantari began to cry. Nevan was about to hold his shoulder, but Gantari was out of his way.

"I want to be a rich doctor, so there's no need to expect money from the poor."

Gantari sobbing. His body sagged onto the carpet.

"Dion" Gantari looked up with a wet face. His gaze was so agonized, making Nevan not dare to stare back.

"We shouldn't get married" he continued.

Deg.

Nevan breathed a deep breath through her mouth. He was stuck every time he remembered that time. Heart's sore. His whole body was uncomfortable and he did not like this feeling.

His head felt dizzy, as soon as the view turned blurry. Nevan edged back, until his back hit the wall and he only realized where he was now.

Hospitals.

Nevan turned around quickly and stepped away from there. His chest rumbled, he thought, until someone greeted him slowly.

"Shaness hasn't come home yet?" The flower boy-faced doctor was the culprit.

Nevan. He stared at Farez long enough without giving an answer, making Farez misbehave and thinking he had wrong people. Farez almost swung in a step as Nevan said, "How long has it been....," he hung in the air for a moment, but then he continued, "Mother Dihyan is being treated?"

Farez frowned, but then he replied, "About five years."

O Allah.

All this time it never occurred to him that something was stuck. Never once has he doubted his decision in the past. All this time he never once thought of other possibilities and today suddenly he doubted all of them. Today he suddenly knew one thing he did not know before and might cause other curiosity.

***

Today once again Nevan to Shanessa's house and in the future it will probably be more frequent. Yes, to help Shanessa meet her own challenges.

"We got married after you finished college."

Getting out of the car, Nevan walked towards the door of Ardiwinata's residence. His pantofel black shoes moved slowly stepping on a stretch of neatly cut lawn grass. His gaze was straight at the door, but suddenly the door opened and Gantari came out of it complete with formal stellan.

"His he home?" inner Nevan asked herself.

Striking the road like this, it feels like the slow motion effect is active just like that. "Why is morning shit like this?" muttered Nevan tried to widen her footsteps so that this tacky slow motion effect was coming to an end.

Seeing Gantari who did not glance at him for even a second made Nevan's self-esteem unacceptable.

"Gee!" Nevan stopped her steps and chose to turn her body to face the person she just called 'uh'.

Gantari who heard the one syllable stopped even though he did not turn the body, so Nevan who containedatif took a few steps back.

"Even if we have a bad story in the past, but can be a little stale from now on" Nevan took a slow breath, then put both hands in his pants pocket and continued, "Cause any minute we're gonna be brothers."

Gantari turned her head, returning Nevan's unilateral eye contact earlier. Nevan flinched, there was a strange swish that appeared when his gaze clashed.

"Darling!"

Contact disconnected. Shanessa who was standing in the doorway waved cheerfully at the arrival of the worship man.

"I'm ready. Yup! To the campus," he continued smiling sweetly.