Secrets of the Former (Love Left Behind)

Dua

Now we don't have to talk about love anymore. After all, people say, love is greater than love. Let it be a pity that adorns this life, because if love intervenes life can be destroyed to numbness, like Nevan.

***

"I've been divorced before."

The deg!

Shanessa widened her eyes in disbelief, her mouth was about to force a laugh and considered all this a joke, but seeing Nevan's look, her voice suddenly stuck in the esophagus.

So were Ardiman and Darya, they were just as shocked to hear Nevan's confession just now. A fact that has never been imagined before.

"Whatever decision I leave to you and the family," Nevan continued slowly, then looked up at Shanessa inside. "I'm sorry I just told him now" he said solemnly.

Nevan went and went home. Leaving behind dazed faces, Shanessa especially. Nevan knows Shanessa is very hurt, but she's just as upset.

***

Until the night, Shanessa did not stop crying, making her father and grandfather confused. He still had no idea what he was hearing today. Shame and fooled.

"That's it, Shanessa." Ardiman rubbed the princess's hair gently, which was still wrapped in the blanket. A hiccup sounded from there.

Shanessa got up with a red nose and puffy eyes. Instantly his head felt dizzy. "Now what am I supposed to do, Pa?" tanyanya was desperate.

Ardiman wiped away Shanessa's still-flowing tears. Her heart also ached to see Shanessa this way.

"All decisions are in your hands. Just like Nevan said." Ardiman took a slow breath, then wisely said, "Papa personally appreciates his confession."

"He fooled me for two years" said Shanessa bitterly.

"We don't know what he's been through. It's not an easy thing to reveal a unpleasant past, Sha."

Shanessa. He gripped the edge of his shirt, until his knuckles turned white.

"It would be more painful if she told you after marriage."

Ardiman's words just now made Shanessa lift her head.

"But all decisions remain in your hands, dear. If it still feels heavy, take it off."

Hearing Ardiman's words just now actually made Shanessa harden in tears. The second option sounded so scary to him.

In the next room, in silence Gantari listened to the conversation of the father and son. He was pensive, then closed the door to his room and turned off the lights.

***

Nevan looked at the bright morning sky from the balcony of the house. Coffee provided by Bi Murni, not yet he sip.

He took a deep breath, then exhaled it roughly. His mind was not because of yesterday, suddenly the appetite continued to live again dim.

His phone rang and Shanessa's name was on it. The girl he hurt intentionally. Not because of yesterday's confession, but more than that.

...****************...

One of the tables in a cafe on top of which is only inhabited by a cup of coffee and a glass of orange juice because the customer has no appetite, a pair of humans have been silent since they met. Shanessa relented and opened her voice first.

"Have kids?"

"No."

Shanessa was also secretly relieved. He thought about that last night. It hurt a lot more to hear Ardi ask him to let Nevan go, rather than hearing the man's confession two days ago.

"When?"

"Six years ago. When I was 18."

Married at a young age and not because of an MBA? thought Shanessa.

"How long?"

"Is there any other secret besides this?" Shanessa stared at Nevan. His eyes still left wounds.

This time Nevan did not answer. He returned Shanessa's gaze for a moment, then nodded slowly.

"But I can't tell you yet."

Nevan knows Shanessa is disappointed. But it's impossible, right, he said that his ex-wife was ... Gantari, his cousin.

***

"It's been over five years and you still carry food with you every visit." The young man in white in a white coat, looked at Gantari from across the nursing bed. On top of that bed, lay a middle-aged woman with clenched eyes complete with her slow rhythmic breath.

"Some day, when I come, we'll have to kill you." Gantari's eyes still glanced softly on the face of the woman who was his biological mother. His hands are also deftly clean the hands of women who are still beautiful at his age with a wet cloth.

Farez, the handsome man who was also a doctor smiled in response. It seemed that the word salute was not enough to represent his feelings for the great girl before him.

"Doctors or nurses who represent eating this food alone, is more than enough," continued Gantari while throwing a thin smile that successfully made Farez waver.

"Nurse never gets away, Gantari. Dr. Farez is always lying around with no leftovers." A female nurse chimed in between her concentration to install an infusion.

Gantari smiled again.

"I've given you guys!" refute Farez later.

"Yes, just once. It's also because the doctor has to be discharged from the city."

Doctor Farez recalled again and it was true. Now he just scratched his nape misbehaving, making Gantari and the nurse laugh crisply.

***

After clarification, Nevan drove Shanessa home. The whole journey is not passed with warm talks as usual. The atmosphere was still awkward, even though Shanessa said, she accepted the lover's past.

"I'm straight home, yeah." Nevan opened the conversation when they arrived in front of the fence of the Adiwiyata family home.

Shanessa doesn't talk much. Everything was still chaotic and he himself was at a loss on how to fix it. After all, why would he even have to fix it?

So, Shanessa just nodded, confirming Nevan's words just now.

Geck. Geck. Geck.

The car's window was knocked on, making Nevan and Shanessa turn to the source of the sound. They almost jumped when they found Ardiman as the culprit was grinning wide with orange training clothes.

Nevan hurriedly opened the door and got out of the car. He immediately greeted and kissed the hands of his parents' best friend.

This is the special value of Nevan Dimata Ardiman. A polite attitude that many young people no longer have.

"Let's go in!" take Ardiman with a soft pat on Nevan's shoulder. Then, stepped away leaving Nevan who had not had time to refuse.

***

Ardiman manages to hold Nevan with a business chat until night and inevitably Nevan also has to have dinner there. Dinner passes with a warm cloak between Darya and Shanessa. The rest are just spectators.

Bi Sumi and Bi Tarti serve the main meal. Ardiman shoved a plate of sweet-sour squid with tomato slices and cucumbers in it on Nevan who greeted Nevan with a nod.

"Where's the cigar?" Darya who was originally busy chatting with Shanessa started to look at Bi Sumi. Bi Sumi put on a confused face, then glanced at Bi Tarti who also shook his head in ignorance.

"It's Sunday, Dad." Ardiman took over, then signaled for the two ARTs to leave. "Let's go as usual" he continued.

Darya turned her head again, looking at the large clock perched in the living room, then frowned.

Ardiman answered again. "Two weeks ago he's been working hard." He smiled faintly, only to continue, "So, I gave him permission today to stay the night."

Shanessa tense. He looked at the old man anxiously, waiting for the reaction of Ardiman's words just now. But apparently, Darya did not retaliate. He was silent even though his face looked hard. Then, Darya continued eating, making Ardiman and Shanessa exhale in relief.

Ardiman even smiled. Nevan's presence seems to be a weapon for him to make Darya not prolong the problem and he succeeds. Meanwhile, the shield, Nevan, was silent despite the many questions in his mind.