Secrets of the Former (Love Left Behind)

Satu

Nevan has started working and Shanessa took the time to come for lunch together. Though at 12.15 WIB there will be a lecture schedule and Shanessa is not worried about being late. For him, college is not important.

They chose to eat in the office cafeteria with Nevan's new colleagues, after which they decided to sit in a park chair while chatting.

Shanessa has been giggling ever since. He has looked really happy since Nevan's return.

Even when Nevan was just telling a piece of the story and Shanessa immediately greeted him with a burst of laughter.

"It's not funny, you know," Nevan protested at last.

"Ah, time. Your friend chose a major out of fear for his father is funny, honey."

Nevan snorted, then smiled amusedly. Then, Shanessa looked inside. What less is that girl? Shanessa's been flooding her with lots of love without demands.

Shanessa who was stared at so, suddenly became misbehavior. Especially when Nevan put one of her palms over Shanessa's head, then slowly down closed the lover's eyes. Her wide, warm hands made Shanessa start to close her eyes.

Nevan did so for a long time, until Shanessa teased, "I think there will be a Korean drama scene."

Hearing Shanessa's words, Nevan immediately chuckled softly. He pulled his hand out of Shanessa's eyes, then said, "I've never seen a Korean drama, unfortunately."

Shanessa pursed her lips, then remembered something. "Actually, do you want to seriously talk to papa?"

"Same grandfather too," errat Nevan.

Shanessa nodded, then squinted her eyes. "Should you tell me I wasn't, anyway?"

Nevan just shut up. He turned his head to look at the sky that was beginning to dim. Letting the wind sweep his face.

Shanessa was still staring at Nevan hoping for an answer, then pulled the end of the man's shirt sleeve. Made Nevan give up too.

Finally Nevan turned around and looked at Shanessa fixedly. "I'll tell you at the same time, and ...." Nevan hung up her sentence, her gaze deepening as she continued, "All decisions I leave to you."

***

A man in his 40s with glasses framing his pair of eyes let out a tired sigh as he exited the black APV car. It has been two weeks that he did not return home and paced to take care of his business in Kalimantan. He walked through the grass that lined the yard with shunt steps.

Behind him was a pale white girl with shoulder-length curls. Eyebrows that creep neatly naturally, framing the slick eyes are small, but able to intimidate.

Plus, his tiny and pointed nose is quite capable of making men feel at home for a long time looking at him and want to pinch him anxious. The woman's name, Gantari Dihyan Irawan.

"Gantari, all love files are the same to Mr. Surya. You have a holiday tomorrow. Om's body feels like it's crumbling like this," the uncle glanced, looking briefly at the nephew who was still walking behind.

Gantari nodded slowly. Being the uncle's assistant for more than a year made him used to being deft.

He was still walking while carrying a bag containing a pile of files that his uncle intended to go into the house.

"Pa!"

Shanessa ran from inside and squatted around hugging the man who was her single parent.

"The trip was really long" he said in the arms of his father.

Ardiman. The peak of the princess's head is just a wayangnya dear.

"It's only been two weeks."

Shanessa pouts. He loosened his embrace and looked at his father gently, "I miss papa."

Ardiman Ardiwinata rounded his eyes, then turned to Gantari, "Did he ask for souvenirs yesterday?"

The question was only answered with a faint smile by Gantari. Then, Shanessa hastily pinched his father's waist until she laughed crisply. Suddenly he forgot the tiredness he was complaining about.

The father and son then entered the house with a laugh. All the news Shanessa directly told me without pause.

Behind, Gantari just looked at him with a faint smile. His face suddenly changed. He missed his father too.

***

Nevan breathed deeply. This morning Shanessa told me that her father had come home and now she was preparing to meet him.

A plain sky blue shirt with chino nutella pants wrapped around her body already made Nevan look so formal. Plus dark brown pantofel shoes and super neatly combed hair make it really look stiff. When did this become a style? I don't know.

"Come on, come on in" she asked.

Nevan stepped in as per instructions. Inside, apparently Grandpa and Shanessa's father were enjoying their morning tea.

"Good morning." Nevan greets, then comes in turns to kiss their hands

Grandfather nodded lightly, then patted the side of the sofa beside him, as a code for Nevan to sit there.

"This is him who can't wait for your return" said Darya Ardiwinata, the family's elder.

Ardiman smiled in response. She called Shanessa to sit next to her.

"Why so tense, huh?" shanessa chirps are met with crisp laughter from Darya and Ardiman. Unlike Nevan who is making up his mind to convey what he meant yesterday.

Nevan was hurt. He himself still doubted whether the wound had healed or not. His heart had been broken, and he also did not know whether the fault had sprouted back or not.

The woman of his past who had been deliberately buried deep now wants him to open. Although it hurts, although it must be trained, but it must. Because he's already decided to open a new leaf with Shanessa and it all has to start without a lie.

"There's something I want to tell Shanessa, Om, and Grandpa" Nevan began. Not yet his chest is already tight. Not to mention his brain was already filled with a tangled flash of the past.

Then he paused for a moment, tried to muster up courage, then continued, "I want to have a more serious relationship with Shanessa, so ...."

"Wait a minute! There's one more member of the Ardiwinata family who isn't here yet" Shanessa quickly cut.

He wants this happy news to be witnessed by all family members. Then, without waiting any longer, Shanessa moved on and slightly ran up the stairs.

Nevan breathed out slowly. He looked down at his hands that were above his thighs. Just camouflage.

"When is that kid serious?" kekeh the father while looking at Shanessa who is still running without sin.

Nevan smiles. He was silent during Shanessa's departure.

"Here we go! Seriously, I forgot to introduce you." Shanessa's voice burst out again, causing Nevan to raise her head and turn her head towards the source of the voice.

"He's my cousin ... Steady."

The deg! Nevan felt her heart stop beating. There he saw a smiling Shanessa and another girl who had no intention of looking at him.

Nevan did not respond immediately. He remained silent for quite a while. Looking at the two with an illegible look.

Suddenly Nevan's face turned even grim. Many times he turned his face away, no longer staring at Shanessa.

Gantari took over the conversation. He cleared his throat to break the awkwardness, then wanted to leave.

"Where are you going, Gantari?" Ardiman looked at Gantari's clothes, then frowned. "Holiday first. Rest."

"There is an urgent matter to be resolved" Gantari replied briefly.

Ardiman grunts. "Look, Dad! Your granddaughter is crazy to work."

A granddaughter? Nevan's mind raged.

Grandpa chuckles. Then nod with pride. Meanwhile, Gantari did not say much anymore, she just nodded respectfully then left just like that.

Since Gantari's departure, silence has regained control because no one has spoken. Including the ones awaiting confession. Until, Shanessa finally touched Nevan's shoulder carefully.

"Darling?"

Nevan jerks. He seemed overwhelmed, but was then able to control himself immediately. His body bowed with his head bowed. For a moment he stared blankly at his tightly knit hand.

Finally Nevan took a deep breath. This confession cannot be delayed. "I ...," he paused his words, seeming to gather courage, only then continued, "Have been divorced before."

Nevan stood up and nodded respectfully for a farewell, then passed quickly from there. His mind was in chaos, his heart was falling apart again.

Why when he wants to open his heart, the ex-wife actually reappears?

She ... Gantari Dihyan Irawan's.