Papa's Little Daughter

Will Be Sincere

Right at night the penghulu comes. I called my father and an aide to the hospital for a bit with a white kebaya for me. Chandra also calls Dewi's mom and Yolla's sister.

We both held ijab qobul in the hospital. In front of Shania the legitimate words of the witnesses were finally spoken.

Tonight, there's a speck of rain out there drenching my hospital window and Chandra is officially a couple. Tonight with the sound of a monitor of Shania's heart rate, I've become Shania's mother.

A cry of joy filled the room. I salim with my mom, hugging my mom with a warmer taste like old times. Chandra is too. Chandra was crying in my dad's arms.

Shania looked at me. A meaningful look he showed me.

I knelt in front of his bed. Touching his fingers and then holding them. "Shania, this is my dear mother. Mama will stay with you, mama will not go anywhere. Mom promise. But Shania also promised yes, Shania will also continue to be the same mama, okay?"

Chandra who is still the scab is approaching. I embrace her gently and smile. I then said back. "Papa sama will continue to be with Shania. Shania should also be the same papa mama continue huh? Promise huh?"

There was no nod that Shania gave us, but I'm sure Shania would have answered in her heart. Shania would have promised too.

I'm pretty sure.

The marriage that Chandra and I did was like making a good change. Shania's condition is gradually improving. No more oxygen is needed. Shania's body was fitter than the previous one.

A bright morning we can enjoy together, with very fresh air of course. The universe seems to approve, on a new day when we have been inaugurated into a small family intact the weather this time was very bright. It really seems very supportive.

I opened the window. Let air flow in. A soothing morning glow also graced the atmosphere of our family's first morning.

Chandra kissed my cheek and then switched to peeking at our baby. I am so excited about activities like this. I hope that this harmony can always be maintained until later. For a very long time.

I really want to be like this.

Shania slowly pointed towards the bathroom door. Me and Chandra frowned.

"Why? Shan wants to take a shower?" ask Chandra."

Shania nodded.

Chandra slowly took off the clothes that Shania was wearing. The monitor cables were also temporarily removed.

"Mom please prepare warm water ya." pinta Chandra.

I smiled and rushed to the bathroom to fill the bath with warm water. The warm water is ready and Chandra carries Shania's body into the bathroom.

With great affection Chandra puts Shania into the bath. Chandra could not bear to see Shania's body leaning on the hard object alone there, eventually Chandra went inside and took Shania.

"Mama let's go in, we'll play water with ma."

"It won't fit you."

"Cuade. Ayoo hurry."

"All right."

The three of us are in the same bath. Splashing water into Shania's body and creating laughter.

Shania laughed happily. He even moved his hand like we do.

Chandra makes bubbles out of soap using her halo. Shania was very happy. His eyes twinkled seeing the bubble fly into the air.

I don't want to lose to Chandra. I'm following along like Chandra. The bubbles are finally created very much. Shania's smile continued to knot. Both of Shania's eyes were as if they were colored back. The two eyes that usually look like I am now excited again.

Shania, mama is so happy dear...

Shania's bathing activities are very happy. Now Shania has been lifted and carried to the bed to wear clothes. This time Shania asked for her favorite dress.

This is a birthday gift from her dad. Clothes with a tile skirt that expands like a ballerina. Very pretty, pink. My son is so beautiful and adorable.

Finished bathing and wearing clothes, Chandra then clutched Shania's body tightly to keep warm. While I prepare food to be injected through Shania's hose.

"Breakfast first, baby." I said and injected it.

Shania eats on her papa's lap. We talked a lot, told a lot about everything.

The time we really spent meant a lot.

In the afternoon, Shania asked to play a youtube video on TV. Shania told me and Chandra to get on the bed. He asked for company to enjoy the show.

Chandra hugged Shania from the right side, while I hugged her from the left side. Shania looks very comfortable. Sometimes he looks up to the right and left, to look us in the face.

Haha, this kid is really very funny.

"What's up, baby? Cup..." Chandra pinned a kiss on Shania's forehead while Shania was still focusing her eyes on the papa.

Shania stared at Chandra for a long time. The cocomelon display that was in front of him did not make him amazed, his papa face was the only object that became Shania's favorite.

Chandra turned to tickle Shania's stomach in a fit of anxiety. Shania was too keen, laughter softly managed to create. We're so happy to hear that. Shania's condition is really getting better. Over time it gets better.

...***...

Right after dinner the doctor came into the room to do a check up. Like I said, the doctor said the same thing as me. Shania is in a very good condition.

Chandra hugged me, channeling her happy feelings towards me. I'm pretty sure Chandra is happy many times more than I feel.

Thank God, You have answered my prayers and Chandra's.

Doctors removed all the heart-rate detection cables attached to Shania's chest because they were no longer needed.

"Tomorrow morning I'm scheduled for a CT-Scan test, yes, to look at the cancer cells" said the doctor and we both nodded our heads in approval.

I pray in my heart. Dear God, may You give me the miracle that Shania's cancer cells have disappeared completely. Servant beg God...

A doctor from Chandra's room immediately invited me to fetch water. We will pray and pray together.

Shania also asked to pray.

Chandra helps Shania wash her face, hands and feet with water. Chandra leads Shania to ablution.

Chandra patiently clothed the mukena Shania. Setting the face of the face of Shania because it is too big for the face of Shania who now takes care of.

"It's so beautiful this little papa princess." said Chandra when she finished preparing Shania.

Chandra took up a position as priest. Me and Shania as her mother.

"Allohuakbar..."

Takbir Chandra said as an opening until finally greeting he pinned as a closing.

Chandra didn't turn around right away and stick out her hand for me to get some salim. Chandra decided to pray first.

The two big, veined hands began to look up. I could see from behind him how his sturdy shoulder was shaking.

The sound of sayup-sayup stuffing is heard. My heart immediately raged. My defense collapsed to see Chandra praying to tears.

I could only stare at Chandra. Until finally when the two hands had guaranteed his prayers and rubbed his face full of sweat and tears, Chandra finally wanted to turn around to welcome me.

I saluted my husband. He kissed her hand and hugged her.

Chandra seemed to be acting like nothing had happened a few seconds ago. She hid the rest of her cries with a very thoughtful smile.

Chandra turned back up and headed for the bed. Her soft hands slowly rubbed on Shania's head.

"What a pity you are Shan."

Shania reached out her hand, hugging the body of her papa who was beside her. The father and son dissolved in warmth embracing each other.

I immediately tidied up my face and other prayer equipment as Shania waved at me. Shania also told me to join her.

"Shania, it's not just papa who loves you. But mama also son." I said while holding it no less tightly. Chandra and I shower Shania with loving kisses. We both really didn't want to let go of our embrace.

We want to hug forever like this.

Until finally the three of us fell asleep in a hugging position. I don't remember the last word I said or what Chandra said. We have really fallen asleep.

The sound of the dawn adhan. As if it had become my alarm, I reflexively woke up from my sleep. My position is still hugging Shania.

The morning prayer was over, the room turned silent and silent. I stared at the small figure still in my arms. Instantly my heartbeat seemed to be racing very fast.

Shanias...

My hands were raised trembling, trying to touch the tiny face slowly.

My tongue was instantly very dumb, unable to say a word.

I shook my head quickly. No, no, it's just a dream, right? Please wake me up!

And when my hand touched it back to make sure. My tears were dripping right then and there.

"Innalillahi wainnailaihi rojiun." I said as I sobbed.

Chandra who heard me woke up. I couldn't bear to see it, seeing how he instantly lifted Shania's body to be held very tightly.

"Shan's? Shan no! Wake up baby wake up! You can't not go! Shania!" chandra cried with tears.

"Rosa call the doctor! My Shan has not left! Call the doctor! Please..."

I couldn't bear it when Chandra whimpered and pleaded. I quickly pressed the emergency button on the side of the bed.

The doctors came too. But what they say...

"The time of death of the patient 04.35."

"No!" shout Chandra. Chandra refused.

"No way, you guys are just talking. Doc please... This is my son can still be helped, right? Please do something. Doctor please doctor! My boy... Please son!"

Chandra was really devastated and did not accept the reality that happened.

"Shan, not like this! Build Shan! Wake up!"

"Papa don't want to! Papa still wants you to hiks..."

"Shan..."

Chandra continued to shake the lifeless body. Chandra lied when he said he would be sincere about Shania's departure.

Chandra was very hurt. Very, very hurt...

I hugged that tall body. Chandra rebelled weakly, but I tried to strengthen my grip despite the hardships.

With a very sliced heart I said, "Let's give our daughter a lift. Let her go, she's not sick anymore..."

Good bye, Shania...

Papa's little daughter, Chandra's darling forever.

Mom and Dad will always miss you...

Thank you for teaching me everything. Everything...

Sorry if we have so much wrong with you, son, we're so sorry. If time could be turned back, we wouldn't do that to you.

Now you are calm in the bosom of God. God will always take care of you, love you, love you, love you more than we give.

Goodbye dear...

God willing, we will be sincere...

~END