Papa's Little Daughter

Birthday Anniversary

Pink balloons filled the ceiling. With the ribbon dangling meandering is very beautiful. Typical birthday decorations are lined up aesthetically in every corner of the room. The hospital room has been transformed into a very nice one. It is identical to pink and elsa. Shan's favorite.

"Wake up baby...." Chandra gently rubbed the pale face. Slowly both my eyes opened.

"The surprise...." Chandra whispers with gentleness.

Chandra could see those tiny lips summing up her smile. Shan smiled, though very weak.

"Happy birthday, my dear Shan...." Chandra's kiss pinned on his favorite daughter's forehead.

A dress-up like elsa came from the door. That's Rosa, Shan's mother is now cosplayed into Shan's favorite character.

Rosa came with a birthday cake in her hand. Cake that has a miniature elsa there.

Chandra helps Shan to sit down. Chandra holds the body that is already unable to support his own body.

A little table of Goddesses brought it, then put it on the bed where Shan was. The table was a place for Shan's cake. Now Shan can enjoy the cake. A very nice cake and it certainly tastes good. But before that, all three of his family sang birthday songs for him.

"Happy birthday we said... Happy long life we pray for... Congratulations, healthy sentosa... Happy long life, and happy..."

The song and the applause that was only for Shan made the little boy slowly shed tears. Chandra wiped away the clear twirls that had soaked her daughter's cheeks that she had not realized that her own tears had also dripped.

The feeling of blue haru completely crawled every single heart that inhabited the room. But they cannot show their cries. Today is Shan's special day, there should be no hint of sadness. Can't!

The singing is over. Chandra tells Shan to blow the number 4 candle in front of him.

"Blow the candle dear."

Shan weakly raised his head to look at the papa. I don't know what's on his mind right now. But the smile that did not fade in the slightest from her little lips signaled that Shan was very happy at this moment. Shan seemed to be grateful.

Chandra's eyes were glazed over. Puddles of tears instantly filled his eyes. The hearts of parents who are not satisfied. Chandra hugged Shania. With a quick movement Chandra turned his head in the other direction, in a direction Shan could not reach because tears eventually fell as well.

Rosa could only rub that wide back. Calms Chandra who tries not to make a sobbing sound even though her tears are falling.

It hurts so much to cry without making a sound. Chandra's tongue is really up.

The savior is coming. The Yolla family came from the doorway as a diversion of topics.

"Happy birthday, Shan!" yolla exclaimed cheerfully. The two children immediately blurred into Shan's bed. Two large gifts were in Ken's hands. Who is this gift for? Of course for Shan.

"The candle has not been blown, let's blow Shan" Salsa said.

Chandra who had wiped away her tears then raised the small body slightly forward. Towards the cake. And on the 3rd count Shan blew it.

Yet...

The fire did not go out.

People are trying to count again.1, 2, and... 3

Until finally it went out. With the help of Chandra. Chandra was the one who blew it because Shan was already incapable.

Rosa could not hide her feelings. The look on Rosa's face implied a deep sadness. Until finally the Goddess who realized it immediately diverted attention.

"Let's Shan eat a cake or open a gift first?" The goddess lifts a medium-sized box wrapped in polkadot pattern wrapping paper. It's a Goddess' gift to Shan.

Chandra asked Shan. "Where do you want, baby?"

Jemari Shan pointed towards the cake.

"Oh Shan wants to eat cake. Okay, take the knife with the same plate first."

Before the cake is cut. Yolla called out, "Your kits don't forget to make a photo? What's the picture yet??"

"Oiya belom photo" said Chandra.

Almost forgotten photo session. Yolla then tells Ken to go back to the car park, to pick up a tripod.

The whole family docked, taking their respective positions. And at the count of three pictures were finally recorded.

A complete family photo at a very special moment.

"Directly send it to wa ku ya sak." pinta Chandra and immediately agreed by Yolla.

Shan looked towards the cake continuously. Several times Rosa found the little boy gulping her saliva. Looks like Shan really wants to taste his birthday cake. He was very impatient.

But in Rosa's mind it raged. Rosa recalled the doctor's remark that Shan should not eat sweet foods. Rosa recalled that Shan could no longer eat. Only through the hose can Shan eat.

"Well, Shan the cake? Shan likes?" Chandra took a piece of cake and put it on a plate. One Chandra thrust into Shan's mouth.

"Dark..."

Rosa stared softly, waiting for the next reaction to occur.

Can Shan eat? Can Shan eat the cake?

Rosa's heart was so sliced.

But when he saw the mouthful of the cake it actually went into Shan's mouth. Rosa was instantly calm.

Shan managed to enjoy his birthday cake.

...***...

Rosa's POV

Shania's birthday went really well. Shan was very pleased with the surprise we gave. The smile she put on made us all happy.

Shania must be cured. Shania must be healthy. Mama wants to be with Shania for longer...

Now that the day has changed, the family sister Yolla said goodbye to retreat. Brother Yolla greeted me and hugged me.

"Thank you, brother, it's coming. Thanks for the gift. Shania was very happy." I said and got a smile reply by the very beautiful woman.

"Either. Immediately break Sa. You don't get tired" he said before he left the room. Mama Dewi today also joined sister Yolla home.

Now it leaves only the three of us. Me, Chandra, and my daughter.

I closed the door slowly without making a sound. Shania was sleeping in her papa's arms. Shania seemed exhausted from the event. His father was too. Chandra hasn't slept all night, decorating Shania's birthday room.

I was alone now, opening my eyes. There's nothing I'm doing. I just cleaned my makeup and scratched my braided hair like Elsa.

As I was getting late in my self-cleaning activities I suddenly saw a delirious Shania.

Shania let out small noises, like a sobbing with the child's eyes still sleeping.

I rushed to him. When I approached, there was already a lot of sweat that washed his entire face. Slowly, I touched it.

Chilly.

Shania was sweating coldly.

"Shanias? What was? Why you, baby?" tanyaku. I don't want to wake Chandra, nor disturb Shania's sleep. But after seeing Shania like this, I immediately shook the bodies of the two people I love very much.

Chandra opened her eyes and immediately panicked. "Hey Shan why??" strangle him with a consciousness that has not yet fully accumulated.

Chandra tried to get up from her position and then grabbed the small body. "Hey wake up baby, are you dreaming? Let's get up Shan. Heiii...."

Shania is not awake. Without thinking I immediately ran out of the room. Seeking the help of a doctor.

I went back with some doctors. The doctors quickly checked on Shania's condition. About ten minutes later, Shania finally regained consciousness. The little boy finally opened his eyes.

Breath of Shania. Shania was like a nightmare, but to me it wasn't a nightmare. It was more than a nightmare.

"Shan why doc? My daughter why?" ask Chandra who still has Shania.

Chandra's question was not answered by the doctor. I don't know, the doctors thought for a long time.

"Doc?" I finally made a sound.

"We will monitor Shan's condition further" said the doctor. Then several other medics entered the room. But they were not alone, they brought some very familiar medical devices into my vision.

The doctor asks Chandra for permission to put Shania back in bed.

Chandra is so resigned. Cooperatively Chandra complies with every doctor's request.

Shania's patient's clothes were opened, the doctor then paired tools that I did not know her name to all over Shania's body. Now on Shania's chest are attached to a lot of colorful wires. The cable is connected to the monitor. There we can see how the rhythm of Shania's heartbeat.

The doctor said Shania's oxygen saturation was also at a low level. Shania's chest up and down, Shania asphyxiated. Shania has to wear an oxygen mask.

Does it have to be like this? Does my daughter have to wear all of this set of medical equipment?

Oh my God, one feeding tube that goes into Shania's nose alone has made Shania very uncomfortable. Why do we have to install all kinds of tools again God?

I really can't bear...

"For the future if there is anything immediately call me yes. Or you can press the emergency button" said the doctor who then passed leaving the room.

I can't hold back my tears. I went to the bathroom and cried there. It really isn't strong. Shania just celebrated her birthday. Just now Shania was happy but why did her condition drop like this.

Lord... Why are you playing my daughter like this? Lord... Why do you not have pity on Shania? Wh why??

Why else would you make me sad? Especially Chandra.... Chandra's feelings must be very chaotic right now.

Minutes pass. I feel a little calm now. I slowly opened the bathroom door and walked out.

I found Chandra holding that little hand. Chandra looked down, looking at the sleeping girl before him.

Chandra's eyes finally met mine. The guy looked at me. Tired and puffy look. It looks like asking anyone for help.

Oh, my God, I can't. My heart screamed very hard.

I slowly approached him. I crouched near him. My hand held his hand. In my hand are Chandra's hand and our little princess.

For a long time we have survived like this. Wrestling with thoughts and screams in each other's hearts. There was no sound at all, only a loud noise produced from the zigzagged monitor beside Shania's bed.

And Chandra finally made a sound. "Rosa, I'm afraid..."

I looked up to look at Chandra's face. I could see for myself how her look was filled with worry.

Both eyes were desperate.

"Chandra, no..." I nodded weakly. My grip is getting tighter I do.

Chandra can't resign. Our path is long. I'm pretty sure Shania's hope is still there.

But Chandra's words instantly shattered all my convictions.

"Too Shan go, I'm sincere..."

~tbc...