Papa's Little Daughter

I'm the Wrong One, Shan.

"Dear Shan, let's eat first, son. This uti has made omelet loh. Look this is really good, doesn't Shan want to hmm?"

Shan did not budge at all. Her lips were tightly clenched and her hands were... Going nowhere, his eyes looked empty. He didn't even look at his head in the slightest. The wall is a few meters ahead there, like being a better object when viewed from where Shan is on this bed, rather than seeing the figure of the Goddess.

The goddess was worried. The middle-aged woman had no idea what to do now if Shan went on a hunger strike like this. The goddess really did not know why Shan was suddenly like this. The goddess came from the market earlier Shan's state was already mute like this. The little boy could not be questioned at all. And the Goddess became very confused.

"Shan, would you like to replace the eggs? Okay, baby..." The goddess is now a monologue.

"Shan.." call her again.

"Hey, baby if you don't eat her stomach, how sick, Shan?" said the Goddess and again got no response from the boy.

Shan is now starting to change his position. He who was sitting is now lying down, facing in the opposite direction facing the wall. He turned his back on his grandmother, ignored her.

"Yes if Shan wants to sleep first please Shan, uti mayin. But back on deck, because it was late afternoon. You should shower later too..."

After saying that the Goddess came out of Shan's room. Perhaps this was best so that Shan's mood would immediately improve if given space to himself.

While waiting for Shan to sleep, the Goddess prepared hot water for her grandson.

"More!" Suddenly Salsa called out to him from the direction of the stairs.

"What's the matter, baby?"

"Must take a shower on me yuk."

"Ouch... Where's your mom going Sal?"

"Mama again busy ti, live medsos sales so can not be disturbed. Let's take a shower on me. Cepet. I was even scolded at this hour by the bells of the bath."

The goddess is confused. Should bathe Shan first or Salsa. Especially now that it's time for Chandra's hour to get home from work. If Salsa is not bathed immediately then Yola will be angry, as well as Chandra, the man will also be angry with Shan. Plus Shan's mood right now isn't good either. Ahh Chandra will get even more angry if he sees her.

"That's water for me, isn't it?" salsa asked while pointing towards the pot that was still perched on the stove.

The goddess finally nodded at him.

Bathing Salsa apparently requires more effort. Salsa asked to wear shampoo, rubbed his back, and also soak. The boy's wish took a long time. Then the time for Shan's turn to shower later how?

The goddess finally decided to call Shan alone, taking him to take a bath together with Salsa now. Yeah, if he wants to...

"Eh Shan's..." The goddess was a little surprised to find Shan had been on the bottom floor. The little boy was at the dinner table, sitting sweetly on one of the chairs while looking at the plate of rice and eggs that the Goddess had offered just a moment ago.

"Oh Shan wants to eat, baby? Yes, I can son. Shan ate it himself, what's the bribe?" ask Goddess.

Shan did not immediately nod or refuse. His body language was hesitant to say what. The kid who just took it was like that.

"Shan asked in both—"

"UTIII!"

"Oh yes, Salsa!" The goddess passed back towards the bathroom due to Salsa's call. On the other hand, even though Shan wanted to be fed by him.

"Shan, baby!" the Goddess from the bathroom.

Shan nodded slowly, although he could not be seen by the Goddess because they were blocked by the wall.

The sound of water splashing and the chatter of the Goddess with Salsa sounded boisterous there. Shan patiently waited, holding his own tummy which was rumbling with hunger. Until unknowingly, the figure of a tall person who was in the doorway shifted his gaze.

That guy has come... Her papa.

Shan choked for a few seconds, then finally chose to run away from the place. He ignored Chandra who had come home from the office.

"Eh Shan!" call the Goddess, who has simultaneously exited the bathroom door. The goddess could not stop the nimble steps of the boy who had climbed the stairs.

"Loh Shan said he wanted to eat ti???" salsa chirps that instantly make Chandra focus on a plate of food on the dining table.

Dewi sontak. "Emm Anu Chan, gini—emm.. Shan was mo—"

"Let me alone" said Chandra, without waiting for the words of the Goddess to be resolved, the man immediately grabbed a plate of food and sauntered away following the whereabouts of his daughter.

"Don..."

Chandra's steps came to a halt briefly because of the Goddess' call.

"Please don't be rude." the Goddess's message.

...***...

Chandra's POV

I stepped towards the door of my bedroom with a plate of food in hand. Omelette, Shan must have liked it a lot.

When I set foot in the house earlier, when Shan looked at me it felt like.... Really painful. My feelings were shattered, because of the gaze Shan gave me.

Yes, it was my fault from the beginning. I hit him, scolded him. I couldn't control my emotions and I ended up letting Shan down again.

Oh my God Shan... Papa is truly khilaf. Papa wants to make peace with you, baby.

Chequek.

My footsteps finally reached where I was headed. I opened my door slowly. The first time I entered, I found Shan had curled up on the bed. Complete with teddy and his favorite pink blanket.

"Shan, papa knows you're not sleeping." I said then put the food on the edge of the bed, near him. I sat in the available space.

I stroked Shan's head slowly. I couldn't see his face because he was facing the wall.

"Honey eat first yuk..."

Shan instead pulled his blanket up, covering his entire face.

"Shan.." call me lirih. "Papa's sorry..."

I slowly saw the blanket shake. There was also a sound from back there.

"Papa wasn't supposed to be like Shan. Papa apologized. Papa was completely wrong. Please forgive papa, Shan..."

"Papa lied!"

Instantly I was stuck in place.

Shan started to open the blanket. He finally wanted to show his face. With a sigh he looked at me still with a look full of disappointment.

"Papa lied" he said again.

I tried to hug her, but she refused.

"Papa always repeat, even though papa has asked maap. Papa was always angry with Shan, he beat Shan when Shan was not wrong. That's... It all hurts pa."

"Shan..."

"Papa lied when papa said sorry!" jeremy Shan.

My feelings don't feel good now. I'm really very sorry. I cursed myself a hundred times. I really failed at being a papa. I failed to be a good example for Shan.

"Papa, Shan's tired...."

I shook my head quickly and immediately grabbed the small body. I finally shed tears that very second.

"Shan, what should papa do now? Papa must what to make amends papa. Shan, papa is very sorry Shan.." I said with all my strength to keep my voice from sounding crying.

"Papa, Shan wants to keep going but Shan is afraid that papa keeps getting angry with Shan, hit Shan. Do you really not love Shan?"

"Dear, papa loves Shan very much. My dear dad Shan. Please Shan don't talk like that."

"But papa confused Shan."

"Papa's sorry Shan..." I'm getting my grip on. I felt my tears flowing down my hair Shan.

My heart is really raging right now. The words Shan made managed to slap me to a crumble.

That'sallthatis.

I'm a loser man. Shan is very unlucky to get a papa like me. Shan must have been very disappointed with his fate.

Shan's cry slowly subsided. He wanted to get his face out of my arms. I immediately wiped my tears, before my face was seen in Shan's vision.

"Papa.." call him still with the remains of tears there.

"Yes, Shan." I could only remove the circle, staring at it intensely. Again, his eyes managed to make my heart again.

I stroked her hair slowly, revealing her bangs that had extended behind the earlobe. Until suddenly...

"This is why Shan?" ask me after seeing there is a reddish mark on the right cheek bar. And it looks a little swollen. Wasn't... It's not because of the crying effect. I'm pretty sure.

I began to look more closely. And the next second I glared.

"You got slapped?!"

Shan lowered his head low. The two eyes that had been staring at me, were now no longer visible, covered by bangs dangling down.

"Who slapped you Shan? Wh who? WHO?!!!"

I shook his body many times, forcing him to tell me who did it.

Which heart of a papa does not hurt if he sees his daughter's cheek there is a palm there?

I'm not just going to stay like this....

Brakkkkk!

I kicked through Yola's bedroom door. Yola was immediately startled, she immediately turned off her live broadcast on the phone, then walked up to me.

"Lo what the hell is Chan?! Don't see what I'm doing again—"

"ENOUGH YOL!" my sentakku. I pulled Shan's arm so the boy could get closer. Shan's hair I revealed and I showed him what he did to Shan.

"Well, who slapped Shan?!"

Yola didn't answer right away, she looked at me with an angry look as well.

"ME LO!"

"Goodoo Chan!"

So it's true he did it!

I let go of my grip on Shan's arm, then rushed to look for Salsa's whereabouts. That Yola boy... I have to avenge Yola for her son too! I don't accept it!

"Chan what are you looking for?!"

"Chan get out of my room!"

"My chan said get out!!!!!"

"Where do you hide the son of a bitch lo—"

Plakkkkk

My face was drawn for a moment. Yola slapped me very hard, making my right cheek now hot.

"Lad..."

Yola slapped me right in front of Shan. Yeah, Shan's still there.

My jaw instantly hardened.

"How dare you say Salsa I like that." said Yola with a trembling tone. But it didn't dampen my emotions one bit. I grabbed her sleeve straight away, pushing her back against the wall.

I don't care if she's a girl. I don't care if he's even my brother. I really don't care about anything. If he hurts Shan, then I will destroy him right now.

My hands are clenched tightly. I took a swing in the air and....

Hap

Ken came out of nowhere. He came and immediately held my hand that was about to hit Yola's face.

Ken threw my hand violently. "Lo should be looking for an opponent like Chan" he said, smiling at his ugly face.

I immediately boarded the apoplexy and immediately punched him mercilessly. Ken retorted, he attacked back at me not losing. Yola screamed and asked us to stop, but we refused....

Yola screams, the sound of mama's screams did not succeed in stopping my jotos with Ken. Ken fell on the floor. He was covered in blood and exhausted. I clutched the collar of his clothes again, pulling his body back up because I wasn't satisfied beating him.

Until finally I chose to end this fight one-sidedly when I felt a pair of small hands hugging tightly next to my feet. "Papa please stop, Shan's afraid..."

...***...

"Where are we going?" asked Shan who I was wearing the jacket.

I couldn't answer her straight away, I could only stare at her, hinting her that we'd both be fine. Papa promised, Shan.

Mama looks busy with a cell phone stuck to her cheek. I don't know if he's probably calling papa right now. Even though papa was on chartered, he certainly did not hear mom's phone.

I started to raise Shan up on my sling. I put two suitcases in my car a while ago. One for my clothes, and the other for Shan's.

"Mama, please, Shan's toys are packed tomorrow, yes, let me take them when I get home from work."

Mama immediately cried, I further submerged Shan's head towards the recess of my neck. Shan can't see his grandmother crying like this.

"Please don't go. This can be done well Chan, please mama..."

I can't, it's too far. From the beginning it was wrong. It is wrong to have two people with different views in one house. And it's better now that Shan and I are gone. Me and Shan alone gave in and chose to end everything.

So that our psychics both stay healthy.

I felt Shan's body lurching in my sling. Looks like this kid has fallen asleep. Understandably, it's almost ten in the evening. I immediately headed for the car and put my little daughter's body into the seat next to the steering wheel. Mama was still following me, complete with her tears.

"Chandra please think carefully. Please don't go, miss mama son. Please..."

I hugged my mom very tightly. Calming his cries that might not be able to calm down immediately seemed. But I don't have any more time, I have to finish this breakup. Moreover, I have not found a place for the next destination, even though the night will be getting late.

I salimmed and kissed the back of my hand for a while then got in the car and started the journey. My mom still seems to be crying out there.

I'm sorry ma.... If only all this had not happened. If only Yola had not hit a child who he said before would also be considered his own son, surely this incident would not have happened.

But what turned out? Yola lied. He apparently did not keep his word.

My respect was completely lost on that human...

"Where are we really going?" Shan suddenly woke up and asked me.

"Shan used to want to not say he wanted to live alone with papa in the apartment?"

"A-pa apartment?"

"Dear, we'll stay in the apartment. That nice multi-storey building. Just the two of us Shan."

I thought Shan would cheer happily after hearing my words, but he didn't. He just fell silent, looking at me with a stare.... Ahh, it's hard to explain.

I stroked her cheekbars with one hand. Shan's cheek, the cheek where Yola slapped her. Again my heart breaks. Very disappointed in myself. Moreover, I had thought Shan was the one who lied to me, even I hit him. The fact is that this is where Shan is hurt.

I'm really stupid papa Shan. I'm so sorry, honey.

"Shan papa apologizes for doubting you. Papa should have believed in you from the beginning..."

~tbc...