Papa's Little Daughter

Not Having Heart

"Where are we going?" shan asked as I packed his clothes from the closet into the suitcase.

"Chan.." call mama but I don't care at all. I continued my activities. If you can have to finish faster to quickly also lift his legs from here.

"Shan won't go."

Deg.

One word that was spoken from Shan's mouth instantly managed to make my body freeze.

"Shan won't leave here. Shan doesn't want to move to another hospital..."

Ba—how does he know??

I immediately threw a gaze at the mama who was not far from where Shan was standing.

Mama shook her head slowly.

Then... Who told the boy that it was true we were moving.

Shan suddenly rushed towards me. He hugged my feet very tightly.

"Please pa, just here. Shan likes to be treated here. It's nice here, there's Shan's schoolmates too. Later later if Shan brought to another hospital, Shan can not school dong."

I began to crouch down, equating my height with this little boy. One hand stroked her hair, and another hand held her shoulder.

"Shan can go to school later. There even better school, more children. Shan's gonna have more tea than here."

"NO!"

I immediately cringed.

"Shan wants here huaaaaa hiks hiks..." The little boy finally cried.

Huft...Then what about my decision to move if she insists on refusing like this hmmm? I swear I'm confused right now.

The afternoon passed, and now the day had changed. Shan was still in my arms, and it seemed like he was sleeping.

Shan couldn't stop crying because the insistent matter didn't want to move hospitals and I ended up holding her while I calmed her cries. Hours passed and now his body was suddenly heavy, this indicates that this boy overslept.

It's not good to sleep at this hour. The adzan magrib. But what can be done, he seems exhausted from crying. Yeah, I've just left him in this position.

"Eh, doctor."

I looked up, looking at my mother who was greeting a doctor. The doctor came into our room. And it looks like it's Shan's time to check up.

"Chandra Shan wants to be examined first."

Nahakan, right.

I threw Shan's body into the bed. The tiny body eventually landed on a very uncomfortable hospital bed. More comfortable mattress at home, I swear.

Seeing Shan fall asleep like that suddenly my heart was raging. I felt great pity for that boy.

Shan was still very small, but had to endure such pain. If only we could not just change. Just let your papa Shan take your pain. Papa willing, 100% very willing.

"Can I talk to you for a second, sir?" The doctor who had finished examining Shan then approached me. He asked me to talk to his room again.

I also obey him. This time without any emotion like this one afternoon.

"Sir, I've contacted a doctor from Singapore. And thank goodness the doctor was willing to treat Shan."

"Ja—so I brought Shan to Singapore that's how doc is?"

"No sir. The hospital will bring the special doctor here."

Ahh thankfully. Can't imagine what if I had to take Shan to Singapore. Not just Shan, mama too. I have to bring Shan's messenger to it as well. Where am I capable? Where else is the money for all that??

"Then doc? When did the doctor arrive?"

"2-3 days sir, the doctor is ready to treat Shan."

I'm not stopping to say thank you. My feelings are so relieved. I don't know where this miracle came from. Though this afternoon the doctor said that we still need to wait, but now the doctor our help is clear whereabouts.

Mercifully...

......***......

"Papa let's play princess-princess. Shan becomes Elsa papa Ariel's mermaid. Here's papa Shan's fingernails I'll be beautiful first."

Shan at 11pm more still not sleeping. Still busy playing without any signs of sleepiness.

What time is his sleep??

My phone on the table suddenly shook. Looks like there's an incoming call. I hurriedly picked it up, to lift it so as not to disturb the mother who was already asleep on the sofa.

"Oh my papa hasn't dried yet!" shan exclaimed but I didn't care about it.

"Yes hello?"

I'm uh dead. Oh from Wanda. Hah Wanda??? Wanda suddenly contacted me first after we lost contact for weeks.

I thought he had forgotten me and turned his heart to another man. But it didn't. He still remembers me.

HAPPY DONG.

My sense of pleasure increased when a message came in on my phone.

'Let's meet tomorrow. I'm very much with you.'—wanda.

...***...

The next day...

Hmm, the day has changed. It feels so fast. Ah maybe because I can't wait to meet Wanda, then the universe blesses her by giving time to change so quickly. Hahaha could.

After driving Shan to school I then headed to a park in the middle of the city. Wanda and I agreed to meet there.

Nahh, that's him being there!

"Sda!" I called him over and over again and he finally knew where I was.

Wanda came straight to me. And we're looking for a seat that's available there.

Enter the two of us on one of the marble benches provided in the garden. Bench facing toward the fountain pond with eye-cooling plants. Wahh really adds to the sadness of the intimacy of us both.

"Where have you been all this time Chan?"

One question that came from Wanda immediately made me look. I looked at the woman.

"Lahh not that I have told you Nda" I said and Wanda even frowned.

"You know what?"

This Wanda forgot or really didn't read my chat that time?

Okay-okay I'll explain again.

"Shan is sick Nda. He's got brain cancer."

"Huh? Brain cancer?"

"K-koku reaction like that? You really forgot, right? I told you to know."

We both kept quiet for a while. Diverting attention to other sights. I finally tried to open my mouth again.

"I can't go back to work like that. Do not know if you have to resign honorably or not. Shan can't be left either."

Silence, there was no response from Wanda.

"Emmm... And I think soon my expenses will be a lot. Treatment and care of Shan. My savings are completely exhausted. I'm confused about what else to sell for money, hehehe."

Wanda was silent and silent.

"Nda, um... If you can... Emmm is being awkward. If I could, I'd like to borrow some money from you?"

I'm a monologue myself. There was no response from Wanda. I know that Wanda heard everything I said, but she.... He speaks a thousand languages.

Until finally a vibration from inside my phone appeared. My phone is shaking, indicating someone is calling me right now.

And after I checked it out, the call was from his teacher Shan.

Well, my Shan why???

"Hello, good afternoon. What's wrong, ma'am? HAHH SHAN VOMIT!"

I immediately ran towards Shan's school. But just exploring a few meters suddenly Wanda held me back. He hugged me tightly from behind.

"Chan you still love me isn't the same?"

Huh uh??

I turned to look at Wanda. What does he mean, huh?

"Chan! Me or Shan?!" shout Wanda.

"You mean what?"

"Answer Chan! You choose me or your sick child???"

Deg.

I froze in place. How Wanda could say that in front of my face right.

"Chan... Your son's sick. Brain cancer pain. He will not heal, even if he recovers he will not be normal like other children. I don't want to have a disabled stepdaughter like her."

"WANDA ENOUGH!" My emotions have really peaked by now. I want to slap a woman's mouth without that heart right now. But I realized, I didn't want to dirty my hands just to touch it.

I turned around and left. Continue running to get to Shan's school soon.

"Shan baby, papa's coming..."

~tbc....