Papa's Little Daughter

Longing

"Dear Shan let's get up... School." The real me is also still very anxious to sleep this trying to pat Shan's back to wake up immediately.

Yesterday asked to be built in the morning.

I looked towards the wall clock. Although still kriyip-kriyip my eyes, but I can see the clock plastered there. Five o'clock more. Right what I said, it's still morning.

Yes, just go to sleep.

An hour passed and I finally decided to wake up.

I looked at Shan at a glance, again he was still very sound asleep.

"Okay, I went to the bathroom first Shan." I said then waltzed off to the bathroom.

I do morning activities that are usually done in the bathroom. When I finished I went out.

"Is God still not awake??" I started to shake my waist.

"Shan's already 7 and a half. How late??"

I walked up to him. "This kid asked to be dragged straight to the bathroom like that."

I sat on the edge of the bed and revealed a blanket that was very comfortable wrapping around his body.

"Hey Shann! Count by 3!"

The next moment I was immediately stuck.

I was shocked when my hand touched her body. Hot, very hot.

"Shan! Shan's! Build Shan!" I shook her body, but she didn't respond to me at all.

Her pale lips managed to make me scream now.

"Shan you whyaa?? Wake up!!"

The panic grew as my mother came from the door. The middle-aged woman was hysterical just like me.

"Chandra Shan why? What the hell's going on? Shan why??"

"Mama's noisy! Cepet call a doctor!"

...***...

The sound of the heart rate monitor monitor sounded so deafening to the ears. I wanted so badly to go avoid it but this tiny hand I could not bear to let go alone.

"Shan wake up please..."

Things really turned chaotic. Dr. Hans doesn't even know what really happened to Shan, why the boy suddenly lost consciousness.

And all that can be done now is to move Shan to the ICU.

It hurts my heart to see Shan fitted with various medical devices. Why should Shan? Why not just me, God...

The door slowly opened, displaying the mama from there. Mom started coming in and touching my shoulder.

"Chandra here change mama, you have breakfast first. My mom is ready."

I'm shaking. I'm not hungry, I just want to be with Shan right now.

My mother came out after seeing my rejection. I know, mama didn't actually force me out of fear that if I was forced I would get angry later.

Nowadays emotions should be avoided. Everything should be solved with a cool head. Demi Shan's...

"Shan woke up yuk, he said he wanted school baby?"

Again, there is no response. Both of his eyelids seemed reluctant to open to see this languishing papa.

"What do you really want Shan?"

Both my eyes were hot instantly. I wanted to cry now, but suddenly someone came through the door again.

And it turns out it was my brother.

Brother Yolla immediately hugged me from behind. He's trying to strengthen me.

"Shan will soon wake up, we'll just wait for the deck.." he said.

I just nodded at him for a glance. Unknowingly, my tears had broken. Just this time I was displaying my cry in front of my brother.

I'm really weak when it comes to Shan.

I'm so scared of losing Shan.

...***...

Author's POV

"One I love papa..."

"Two two also love uti..."

"Three dear Salsa, brother Jimmy..."

"One, two, three baby everything!"

"Shan's... Shan..."

"Gee!" Shan tried to turn his head. Look around for the source of the voice that called out his name so many times.

His little legs finally moved. He who was sitting on a park bench is now starting to step. Still looking for someone to call him.

Shan is in the park, but not the hospital park.

Another park, a very large park. It is even very beautiful with flowers and plants that are very foreign to Shan. Which Shan had never seen before.

"Shan's... Shan..."

His voice is getting clearer. Very close, but Shan still did not see his figure.

"Who is it?? Huh hello? Is there anyone??"

Shan arrived near a large tree with a very shady branch. There are lots of colorful birds. Shan can find any color bird there.

"Huh right? Then who?" Shan did not feel right, but he got an answer from the birds.

"How can Shan nemuin anter who called Shan earlier? Can you?"

The birds began to fly, driving Shan towards a direction. Shan then cheerfully chased his way bird, until he finally reached a hill.

Shan did not even feel the slightest fatigue after reaching the top of that hill. No sweat, the sun is bright but it feels very warm not at all.

The birds disappeared in an instant. Like smoke that leaves no trace.

"Lohh where? Shan is abandoned? Hey bird." Shan circled around, looking for the whereabouts of birds there might still be some left.

Honestly, he was also confused by this situation. Where he actually is. Why is everything like a land created in Shan's delusion when he draws.

"Father!" Shan started calling his papa. But after that...

"There's no papa no papa. Papa is often angry. Get Shan here alone" he said.

The little boy then ran over the hill. Enjoying both of his bare feet treading the very green and fresh grass.

"Shan..."

Shan frowned in a direction. Someone seemed to be walking towards him. Someone Shan misses so much for not meeting in a long time.

"GOD-KUNG!!!" Shan immediately ran over, smashing his body at the person.

"Shan's... My granddaughter, baby." The typical laughter that Shan had not heard for a very long time now he finally heard back.

"Kung, Shan kangen kung-kung."

Shan did not let go of his embrace. He tightened it even more as if he did not want to stretch in the slightest.

"Kung-kung also miss Shan."

"Kung came home yuk kung. Papa, uti, the same others must be happy if kung-kung comes home."

"Can't Shan, kung-kung can't go home. Kung-kung's place is here."

Shan raised his head. He stared fixedly at his kung-kung nanar.

"You know Shan wants to be here too. Same with kung-kung."

Just the warm smile that Shan had gotten. Either that's the approval answer or Shan doesn't know. The next second Shan could not see anything. His surroundings turned dark, like someone had turned off the lights. Shan shrieked and tried to run trying to get out of this dark situation.

Author's POV End

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"Shan?? Shan???!" I was surprised to see Shan's body suddenly tremble. He seemed to want to move.

"Doctor! Doctor!!! Doctor!!!" I immediately shouted to the doctor. The emergency button on the bed was unceasingly pressed repeatedly.

Dr. Hans came along with other emergency medics.

"Sir help you out first" said one of the medics.

I wanted to hang in there to accompany Shan but Dr. Hans immediately shook me out.

"Let them work, Chandra" said Dr. Hans.

I ended up waiting outside covered in an unreasonable feeling. Very anxious. I can't see any progress from the outside. I can't see my son!

Mama, sister Yolla tried to calm me down, but I remained unsettled. I'd like to go back inside to follow Dr. Hans.

I haven't been able to get in yet, Ken confronted me. Ken is here too.

"Chandra don't be rash, please just wait. Shan won't do anything. Trust me."

Ken know where? Ken said it all because he didn't feel in my position. Her son is all healthy, unlike my Shan.

"Soide Ken."

"Murray!" Ken pushed my body so hard that my back finally hit the wall behind.

"Lo really, really fights!" I pulled the collar of the shirt he was wearing. I really want to punch him right now.

"Tonjok aja tonjok if you want!" He was very challenging me. I then let go of my grip violently. Ah I don't want to fight here.

I brushed Ken away from me and broke through the door he had been facing.

I went into the ICU to see Shan.

"Sir Chandra, Shan is conscious..."

Instantly I can breathe a sigh of relief.

I immediately ran over to Shan who was on the bed. And hugged him tightly.

"Lad..." Shan called me softly. Although his speech is not clear because it is blocked by oxygen masks, but papa can hear it dear.

"Yes Shan papa's here, papa's not going anywhere anymore."

I climbed on the bed, then held her. Doctor Hans looked at me without a sound. I don't know if he's gonna let me or not like this, I don't know. But my desire to hold this child cannot be avoided. I haven't held her since morning. It was just this morning, but it felt like a year.

"Shan's hungry?" I remember very well he from the morning his stomach had not filled anything.

The doctors even suggested that a feeding tube be fitted directly into Shan's stomach, but I refused. I'm pretty sure that Shan will soon wake up, so that's not necessary.

"Papa bribe ya baby. What is Shan going to eat?"

"Boiled eggs."

"Okay, bentar ya papa wa used to uti. Ask for help making boiled eggs." I pulled out my phone and started texting my mom.

"Pa... Shan met kung-kung."

The deg!

~tbc...