Our Love Among Corona

New Year, Could It Be a New Boyfriend?

Christmas has passed and my soul mate has not yet arrived. I began to ask, where did the request in the letter I prepared on the plane go. Is the time too short or am I too hopeful. If not now, it's not good to wait. Like most women I know, who prefer to wait for a mate. People say that a soul mate is not going anywhere.

But it wasn't me. Waiting for an opportunity by itself to come is not my attitude. I always fight what I want. If I can do it, why choose to wait? I never waited for my dreams to come true, I was the one who created the miracle of my life.

My mentor said the opportunity was not to be waited for.

"If no opportunity comes, then create that opportunity". His words, of course, I remember them well. Including creating an opportunity to bring a soul mate into my lap.

"Something new is waiting for you in Estonia". The words he said when he took me off. Of course he had a reason to say this.

Something new he meant must be my soul mate. I started strategizing how to make it happen. If I know how to realize my other dreams then I should also know how to make this one happen.

Starting from making a list: coming to the bar, to party invitations, attending events published on the internet, Salsa classes, language classes, online dating apps. Wait, what? online dating? How can I use this application here, even in Indonesia even if I do not do it.

I must be very frustrated. But there is no harm in trying. It's also called a business, try it first. I must be crazy. What if someone knows me. Who will know you here. If anyone knows me, why. Come on, just wear it for a while, then remove it again after getting the person. My God, I really struggle even being convinced myself to open this app.

"Try using these apps. Seru tau's". Vavan once asked me. I was jealous at that time, why he wanted to spend time getting acquainted and walking with the women he met on the application. I didn't really see her walk the same way as other women besides Livi and Mauli.

"Gile you yes, why use apps soan?". My words back then, must have been unfair to him. He has the right to use any app and make friends with anyone.

"Hey just had to try something like this in order to have experience," he said there was a point at that time, but jealousy overpowered me.

I'm used to keeping this feeling in my heart, as if someone was my close friend, then he should only be close to me or play with our Clap gang. It was really my thinking at the time.

"Whatever, if I were you, ogah" I said again.

"Eh Livi is wearing it" Vavan's words widened my eyes.

"Oh yeah? Since when?" I don't even know about it.

"Udah long time. You are the one who missed. Just ask Mauli, maybe she wears it too" I know Vavan teases me. His words wanted to test my patience as it often closed itself to such a thing.

The point is, ever since apps like this started mushrooming, I haven't used them yet. Maybe Vavan & Livi will ask what happens if I know I'm wearing it now. Is that frustrating me. In reality, there is nothing wrong with starting something new. I'm just too proud to admit it.

I launched all my efforts a few days into the new year. Seriously doing a soul mate search mission. Finally, at the expense of all the ego I had and the pride of never having used this app in my previous life, that's where I was.

I used real names, some real photos and wrote that I was looking for a friend. Oh how smooth this search is. Many then matched me, dozens of them in just 3 days. Between fear and doubt, I chatted to some of those who managed to steal my attention.

Surely my fear is incredible to see the response of the humans there. "Hey there, where are you from. Want to have***with me?, oh sorry, I'm not looking for friends here. Friends with benefit ok, you in?. I have a big...you want to try?. What about meeting in my place?. How long you stay? Do you really need friends?. What about ONS?. Can you tell me your b...size? Can I come to your place?

Oh My God, I must be crazy to be treated to all this. It was almost all good looking that I thought suited me. But I was afraid to see this approach myself. They're very open. Every discussion is always to the point. It looks scary to me who is not very experienced.

I had my first meeting, went on a short date and failed. The second one ended with no news. I decided to do it only three times. If I fail too, then I will not continue down this path.

"Where's Vashla? any developments?" hanno asked while we were having dinner.

Hanno was the one who suggested I use this online dating app. I told him and Alin that I wanted to try to have a new girlfriend in the new year. Hanno said maybe the app helped to find someone in a short time.

Although Alin and Hanno were very worried about this condition, they both pushed me bravely but still maintained my safety. You should always send the HP number of the man you meet, the location and the photo if you can. I feel like I'm playing drama in my family. But they have a point. I have to be careful, especially my first experience using an online dating app.

"Not much progress. I failed twice. I will try the third time. If it still fails, I will take another path" I replied.

"No need to worry my dear, your soul mate will arrive. Maybe now is the time to have fun first" Alin tried to encourage me.

"Yes, or need not be forced into the new year. Enjoy slow conversations and meetings in safe places" Hanno's advice as always, slowly and carefully.

We finished dinner together and went on a movie night. This is the culture I love about this family. Eat, watch movies, and play games together. I want to have a family like this too. Manu was staying at his grandmother's place so it was just the three of us. The movie ends and it's time for bed.

I threw my body in my bed and sent Luky a message.

"I was frustrated to have a girlfriend, so I decided to use an online application. I've tried dating twice, failed. Hope the third one will succeed" Sent to Luky.

Again, the thought of this man filled my brain. It would be a lot easier to date her. But Luky has rejected me. He said he would not waste the friendship we had by playing with feelings. It will be difficult to return as before.

New Year, could it be a New Boyfriend? I asked the universe again. Help me, let me forget my pain before.