Our Love Among Corona

Peace With Allan's Memories

The day is no longer long before the other 3 places we will visit. We agreed to get everything done today, because there was not much time left before we returned to our respective countries. Next up is Restaurant Pancake in the Old Town. The place where I often eat my favorite pancakes. Unfortunately the memories with Allan are also a lot there.

"The message you used to eat" Luky said as we were looking through the menu.

"Pancake Strawberry" I said.

"Drink?"

"Cappuccino".

Luky called the waiter and then mentioned the menu we had ordered. While waiting for the order to come, he played my fingers. Some tables are full too. Some are with couples and families too.

"Honey, I love you" a soft greeting came out of Luky's mouth.

"I love you" I replied with a smile towards her.

"Know that I'm doing this for you. I want you to live your life without a grudge against your ex. Although I know, you are still angry at them. Even, I do, hold the same anger over what they did to you, especially Allan. However, I want us not to carry that anger in our daily lives" he said wisely.

"I get. I know why you did all this. I know it's not easy for me either. I agreed to this idea from the beginning. I also want to relieve myself of that prolonged pain" I replied.

"Danke mein Schatz" he kissed my hand.

"Ich liebe dich mein Schatz" I reply in his language.

Our order pancakes are coming. My eyes sparkled as usual to see my favorite food beautifully presented before my eyes. A stack of vanilla ice cream in the corner of the plate is slightly flowing touching the lips of the pancake is still warm. Bribes by mouth passed quickly. The pleasure of cappucino. In less than 30 minutes we've devoured everything.

"The next place is a tough place for your mentality. I'm with you, just want to let you know, you are safe".

"Thank you". I'm glad he's here with me through all this process.

After the pancake restaurant, we walked to a stop that was only about 200 meters away. There we boarded a trolli, an electric bus that uses wire over its bus to conduct electricity. This is one of the most commonly used transportation in the city. It only took me a few stops to get to a place so heavy for me. Faded brown apartment buildings line the side of the street. That's where we go next, Allan's apartment.

Help me, help me forgive him, forgive his memories, forgive this place. Help me forgive myself. I closed my memory sheet with him. Help me close it tightly in the deepest place.

Luky clasped my hand and then tasted the tears that fell on my cheek.

"You are a strong girl my love" We leave this place.

The trolley took us back to Oldtown. We were planning to spend our evening in the OldTown area. Next up is Freedom Square, near the yellow church. It was where I enjoyed the new year with Allan. As well as being the last place we visited on this journey of forgiving memories.

I repeated the same thing as in the previous places. Close your eyes, say sorry to me, to him and to our memories. After that we covered to a Cafe near the Yellow Church. We want to enjoy hot chocolate after moving around and being hit by the cold.

"Thank you" I said so sincerely among the hot brown smoke billowing from our glass.

"What you're doing is such a big thing in my life. Probably never done by any man I've ever known. I'm lucky to have a man like you" I said again.

"Remember, we're best friends. Long before we became a couple, we have given a great space to the affection of friendship between us. Right now we have a double role, as good friends and lovers. Supporting each other in various conditions" he clasped my hand again.

"I love you honey. I feel like I want to say this the whole time" he continued.

It's been almost this whole day that my hands have been held by him, as if he kept talking through his behavior that I was here, with you. Help you face this situation. It was hard, at the moment realizing that we were going to part temporarily. There's only a little time left. It's not just him, I want to do the same. Saying I love you as much as I want, and it sounds so melodious right now.

The night has gone down to eliminate the orange color in the Oldtown sky. We spent the rest of the chocolate in the glass. Waiting for it to darken completely and the lights in the Freedom Square area light up. Colorful lights on the poles towered in front of the monument Vabadussa, more precisely the monument commemorating the victory by Estonia after the war of the Soviet Union.

In the expanse of the Yellow Church, towering facing each other with monuments and bare trees in winter. The night in this area feels so beautiful. I myself have some interesting happenings in front of this Yellow Church. Once every time I was sad, I came here. Standing on the vast field overlooking the church and behind stands the magnificent monument. Behind the monument, the hill that planted the big flags of Estonia.

There are many stairs that can be climbed to the top of a small hill. There is an old restaurant there, which serves coffee and some European food. In addition, several wooden benches are provided there. A place where people relax to see the beauty of the city from above. To me, this city is beautiful. I used to make requests in this field. Standing facing the yellow church, closed my eyes and imagined the things I wanted to happen.

I am used to choosing a sacred place for me to make certain requests. Usually in the city or place I live, I choose the location of my law of attraction. That way, I always have something exciting to wait for. In this field, a place where people often gather for various festivals. Music concerts, independence celebrations, presidential speeches, even reminiscing about death are also held in this place.

This is one of the reasons I chose this place. Because of the variety of events with various experiences like and tears wounds. A rich place full of emotional turmoil and expectations. This place, has helped me several times make exclamation requests. Often, the request was achieved as I imagined. The location of the law of attraction, I think everyone might have a place like that. I am happy to remember this, as happy to remember the memory I have forgiven. About K, About Allan, peace in memory.