Our Love Among Corona

About the Letter On the Plane

Today is the time. I promised myself and Luky that I would make the decision. Although it has been and still is faced with various considerations. There are big considerations when choosing Luky. As people often say that if you break up with a boyfriend, not being a friend anymore is okay. But if from friends, then dating and then breaking up is usually difficult to be friends again.

Heavy, considering the 3-year friendship that has been lived. Usually there is always one another as friends. If the feeling could be just this momentary, taking all the things that have been built up so far, it needs careful consideration. However, come to think of it, isn't everything always worth trying? If the reason I chose Luky for fear of our friendship being lost, it would be inappropriate. While I remember how I discussed it with my mentors, Alin and Livi. All the considerations I've been thinking about and doing point to Luky.

There's one more thing I want to do. The letter on the plane I wrote in the sky over Istanbul to Estonia. My letter to the universe about the soul mate I want. Let's read it again, I told myself.

I read line after line of sentences neatly arranged with my handwriting. Starting from the physical I want, white European men, grayish-green or blue eyeball color, brow lentik, height above 170 cm and so on. Continue to the hobby of reading, traveling, likes to discuss, open minded, willing to beat the ego a little for the common good especially facing cultural and religious differences, accept me as I am, love me fully and so on. The man who, if he walks, always holds my hand, hugs me and others. Men who like to wear T-Shirts and sneakers. No matter how many times I read, everything I write is in Luky. All right, obviously from all the lists I wrote in my letter, they're all in Luky. I know what I'm gonna do next.

"Hey, want to hang out at Tower TV today?" I asked Luky.

I thought it would be better to tell him there, that my heart chose him. However, I also want to make deals with him in order to protect the friendship that has been built.

"Good idea," he said quickly.

"Are we all having picnics?" Ask again.

"Picnic, sounds good. Hey maybe we can meet Elk".

"Elk?" I don't know what he meant.

"Yes, a Deer-like animal that lives in the forest. However, it is 4 to 5 times larger than Deer. They can weigh up to 700 kilos" Luky explained.

"Oh wow. Are they dangerous?".

"No, if you don't bother him. Just keep your distance and watch them. Maybe we can get lucky and meet them today" Luky looks so excited.

I don't know where he got this idea of Elk and believe that they are also in the Estonian jungle near here. He had met them several times before, which made him want to see them here as well. Luky has always loved adventure. For him the forest is a friend. Animals are such beautiful things. He admired animals and trees. Always have great curiosity when talking about them.

However, the plan to the forest is not to discuss trees and animals, I thought. Especially about Elk I haven't seen in my entire life. I've only ever seen Deer, that's all. But maybe not a bad idea, seeing Elk while declaring love. What an extraordinary plan.

"You want to make sure something doesn't, too?" Ask Luky again.

"Where are you sitting? more water, snow melts".

"You forgot? There is a Gazebo near the river. There is also a bridge. How about sitting on the bridge?".

"Well, I can forget, agree, bring food if so".

We walked over the bridge and took some pictures. Then stretch the cloth in the middle of the bridge. Rarely do people walk down this street. There is one more big bridge that many people pass but not with this wooden bridge. We sat down and toasted to a warm drink in the cold.

"You remember, I told you about the letter I wrote on the plane?" I accidentally opened it by testing his memory.

"Remember, that's a letter you wrote as your request to the universe, about the soul mate you asked for".

"Absolutely. Do you know what the letter is about?" ask again.

"Not much, only you ever said that you wrote about the European man you wanted. His physical, his behavior and so on".

"Oh you remember a lot. I opened the letter again. To see if the decision I made was the right one".

Luky is listening well. A glance of doubt in his eyes, as well as worry. Maybe he thought I wouldn't choose him. Or maybe he was thinking about something else. I took a breath and smiled at him.

"The man I wrote in that letter to the universe is you".

Luky showed a happy face and dismissed the doubts that had come. Now he looks more confident than ever. He was still waiting for me to finish my words.

"You are the dream I wrote, not Allan" I continued.

"You sure? Not choosing me because I'm your best friend, but it's true that I'm the man you want me to be?" tanyanya.

"Yes, I've done some careful consideration and I've asked myself many times for this. I chose you because you're what I want, not because we're best friends" I continued.

Luky hugged me so happily. He kissed my whole face and then stroked my head while still tightly hugging my body. I can see his eyes sparkling with happiness. It was as if he was running out of the words he wanted my eyes to say. Long ago, we both drowned in feelings of happiness. That close friendship has now gone to a higher reality.

"Thank you Vashla, But whatever your decision and choice is, I still choose you" Luky continued, letting go of his arms.

"meaning?" I don't understand, because now talking about my choice is not his choice.

"If you choose Allan instead of me, then I still choose you. Good as a friend as well as a woman I love," he explained.

I'm so moved to hear that. How could he say he still chose me as the woman he loved even though he was not the one I chose. If the reason still chose me as a friend, of course I understand because he wants to keep this friendship well.

I hugged her. This time, I'm the one who doesn't want to let go. Luky, the man I wrote in the letter on the plane. He also has a condition in the great consideration of the relationship that I must maintain when love and **** is not only a passion. It is also the three types of love that I experience and desire. Although materially, it does not have much. It is also the level of love that I have measured either together or not together. I always wanted to take care of him. Luky, is the universe's answer to the letter I wrote on the plane.