Our Love Among Corona

I Just Need You Know

Picture perfect memories

Scattered all around the floor

Reaching for the phone cause

I can't fight it anymore

And I wonder if I ever cross your mind

For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one

I'm all alone and I need you now

Said I wouldn't call, but I lost all control

And I need you now

And I don't know how I can do without

Another shot of whisky

Can't stop looking at the door

Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before

And I wonder if I ever cross your mind

For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one

I'm a little drunk and I need you now

Said I wouldn't call, but I lost all control

And I need you now

And I don't know how I can do without

Guess I rather hurt than feel nothing at all

It's a quarter after one

I'm all alone and I need you now

And I said I would not call

But I'm a little drunk and I need you now

And I don't know how I can do without

Oh, baby, I need you now

The lyrics to Lady Antebellum's song continued to be repeated amid my tears that also shone. It hurts to hold a very big longing in my heart. Tight and want to tell her that I want to come back with you, is there still a way back?

Luky, I called his name over and over again. I felt my heart break into pieces, Not only had I just lost all company with my dearest friends, but my heart fully realized that I had made a terrible mistake in my life.

I did not sleep last night, crying and thinking while laying down on the floor of my room. Trying to solve one question at a time. Why can it be this bad. Pulling a common thread between the valleys of greed I once made. My regret spilled over, looking for a way back to fix all this. However, I also doubt, which path I should take first.

Should we start with Luky? Why would I block all communication access for him? Wh why? Could this be the first thread I need to straighten? Open access to information and communication with Luky to resolve our heart's affairs. Maybe it's better to be honest with her, that I love her and don't want our relationship to end like that. I want him and he is the one I have chosen as my best friend and also as the lover of my heart.

I started pressing the unblock button on all my accounts, even his father's account. I must have gone crazy, not even want to connect with his family when we broke up. I think it's time I apologized to the two fathers who were always nice to me, just because my relationship ended with Luky, I didn't want to communicate with them either. How immature this behavior is. While his biological father and stepfather always supported me all this time.

Shortly after I opened, all the messages came in. From Luky and his family, and I cried even more overcrowded when I received all this news. It was rash, full of anger and a heart now filled with great regret in my life. I've been unfair to myself, and to Luky.

Message from Luky, that he never sent me a message and asked to break up. Sherlyn did it and she lied to Luky and me. How foolish I am not to confirm anything to Luky. What is the difficulty of calling back after receiving a chat, calling his father or contacting other people closest to him.

I'm sorry, I'm sorry I did this. Believe in the one message in whatsapp chat that I never reworked, was it Luky who sent it. With tears streaming down my face, I immediately drew a call for her. My heart is impatient, it rumbles longing and I want to say my forgiveness and regret.

"Hello!" the voice across there.

"Mr Wilhem? How are you? I'm sorry for not contacting you or giving you any updates" I said quickly when I found out that the one who picked up Luky's phone was his father.

"I'm good, but Luky is not good" he said as if choked.

"What do you mean? what happened to him?" manya panic.

Mr Wilhem, who is Luky's stepfather, explained Luky's condition of being seriously ill after breaking up with me. He was treated at his home because their town was lockdown and the entire hospital was crowded with Covid-19 patients. It breaks my heart to know this. Mr Wilhem also explained that Sherlyn had sent me a message and it was not Luky who did it. They regretted my trusty attitude and left Luky out of it. How can I shut down all access for Luky without giving him a chance at all.

Now Luky is lying in his house, helplessly ill when I'm not even there supporting him on the phone. The wrong I, the rash me, now regretted all the anger that had poured out on him before. I spoke to Luky, between my cries and my disordered words. Luky asked me to stop crying with his weak voice that was even hard to hear clearly by me.

"I feel good about hearing your voice. Happy, you called me back. Now stop crying" she said.

"Cannot. I regret and take a rash stance" I said again.

"Is there anything else you did when we broke up?" he asked in a weak voice.

I told you what I did with Vavan. What happened to Genk Gepukku. Luky heard it without refuting a word until I finished my story. I was confused, and worried whether he would get angry, or if I told him at the wrong time.

"All has passed. Take a lesson and let's move on with our lives" he replied later.

"Our lives? so you forgive me and want to start our relationship again?" I asked to convince myself that this was what was going to happen.

"Yes, let's start our relationship again. Promise from now on to always be in communication and not be rash in making decisions!" it sounds serious.

"Yes. I promise!" my answer.

The rest of us spend hours with video calls. How much I miss this long distance romance. Thank God for the return of our relationship.