Our Love Among Corona

Corona's Tears & Traps

I can't believe that when Livi and Mauli left, I was really lonely. The news I don't want to hear next comes from Luky.

"Germany shuts down all access to Indonesia. Not only to far away Indonesia, even to countries near the border like Switzerland & Austria, Germany was unwilling to open its access" Luky explained what was going on there to me. It really hit my heart from the inside.

"Then what is our condition? How can you fly here? Is our marriage going to happen?" I said shrewdly to him.

"I'll keep looking for the info. May my government or your government immediately open its access" he said with great hope.

"I'm still worried, maybe this will last a long time".

"Vashla, we can do it. Stay strong okay? We will find the way" Luky tried to strengthen me.

I am saddened by this condition. Mauli and Livi are not on the side. Luky's far away. How I went through these gripping nights alone. What if I die because of Corona and nobody knows. I live on the 17th floor. There are no right and left neighbors at this time. Apartments have been empty since the pandemic. Maybe people go home. It may also be because many lost their jobs, people moved out of these apartments.

Even the corridor of my apartment looks scary at the moment. There are only two apartments filled in this row of mine and they are far away at the end even though we are on the same floor. Some of the others over there are far away. One floor, but impressed so far away with the boxes that become this wall. Ah, I didn't think that living in an apartment could be this scary. Why now this feeling should come. I blame Corona for trapping me in this condition. Not only did it trap me and Luky who were currently unable to meet, but it also trapped many others.

Luky and I call three to four times a day. We played Durak online for hours while video calling. It is fortunate that this Russian game is available on the Play Store which can be downloaded at any time. I often beat Luky and collect a lot of coins. Several times got invitations from Russian Foreign players, but I refused an invitation to play with them. Because the goal I downloaded this game is to play with Luky.

Long distance is not enough. I was scared when night came. Although Luky accompanied and waited until I fell asleep. The thing I fear most about sleeping alone is the nightmares that come. Trauma that has not healed often pulls me into that black hole. Like last night I saw dead people being killed by being shot, also tortured. I saw a man grab my body and want to rape me. I couldn't resist even when I woke up my sweat was pouring out.

I could only cry, through the day. Night has become a threat to my heart. Corona looks more ruthless with my current inner condition. Death news everywhere. Hundreds of thousands of people died from Corona. Italy, Germany, China and several other European countries still lead the Corona infection rate with a large number. Although Germany has a high case, but the death rate in this country is relatively low.

I get scared to open HP every day. Afraid to read the news. But also have no power to refuse me to stay updated with Corona news. I need more information to find a gap so that Luky can come to Indonesia. HPku rings. I noticed the name there, Tania. I miss this girl, I thought. Maybe at the same time we miss each other so our signal is connected.

"Hi Tan, it's really fitting that I remember you these few days" I said opening our conversation.

"Yes, so am I. I'm still at my parents' house. Since the pandemic I have come home and lived with them. But after a few weeks, I felt like going somewhere else. Can you go to your apartment?" unexpectedly, he came at the right time.

"Tan, do you want to move here? I've been on my own since Livi and Mauli left" without further ado, I'd like to take this opportunity to have a friend who will be by my side.

I can't stand being alone. This week my life is fucked up. I've never been alone since I decided to travel to the capital. For the first time, I had the experience of living and sleeping alone for one week, something that had never happened before. In the past, before living in an apartment, I chose to rent a house with my new friends in Jakarta. A special house with 4 rooms for women. More comfortable for me like that. If it hurts or there is nothing there is a housemate that helps.

Tania, the unique Chinese girl. He changed religions several times. First Protestant, then Catholic, then Buddhist. He wants to return to Catholicism. Interestingly he was open-minded. He always gave himself time to learn and process. Tania is my good support system. Having him as a friend and co-worker makes me happy.

He has a lot of skills, ranging from design, edit videos, and work on all the material of our program campaign in Indonesia, project management. Finally, I have friends, so I won't be too lonely again during this lockdown. My phone rang again. Livy! I screamed to myself. Happy he finally called.

"It looks like I'm going to stay quite a long time in the village. You're not pa-pa there?" tanyakanya.

"No pa-pa, the good news is Tania will stay with me while you guys are back".

"Oh thank goodness. I added Mauli first. He wants us to vidcall together, oh Vavan too" Livi then connects the phone with Mauli and Vavan.

My heart is flowering, as usual happy calling with them. Although now the situation is different. I just arrived in Indonesia, was so happy to spend time with them. But conditions are not possible, it is the three of them in his hometown at this time.

"Hey! Oye! You're not pa-pa yourself?" ask Mauli again. Repeating Livi's question.

"No, I just went to Livi, Tania will come and stay with me for a while" I replied.

"Greetings yes" said Vavan.

"Ye..quickly very. That was the one who was sidelined. There's no kangen-kangen what's the same me?" I pretended to be snooping.

"Kangenlah, but now there are people who are more kangen lo. What is the meaning of my miss" replied Vavan.

"I still need. Don't stop, even if I already have Luky" I'm greedy to want everything.

"So this is vidcall together, but who's retaliating against you two?" ask Mauli.

We laughed afterwards, and as usual discussed the endless Clap.