Mother Connect

episode 74

Revan tries to calm down, Shinta calms Syifa down.

"All this has to be done, I'm tired like this Mulu" Shinta murmured inwardly.

"After coming home from eating ice cream, I have to finish all this" Revan murmured inwardly, in fact Shinta and Revan were afraid of losing each other yet so prestige as to reveal. Arriving at the ice cream atmosphere so quiet, only Syifa enjoyed ice cream so happily. Even the ice cream belonging to Shinta and Revan who finish Syifa with great zeal.

After finishing eating ice cream, Revan invited his wife and son to go home. Arriving at home Shinta first drove Syifa to the room to rest while Revan entered their room first

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In the room, Revan waits for Shinta to finish everything. He can't keep lying to himself, and Revan doesn't want to lose Shinta like he lost Caca. Shinta went into the room and first cleaned her body in the bathroom. After cleaning, Shinta only wears a kimono towel while drying her long hair using a small towel.

"Here I help dry your hair" Shinta approached Revan, sat down and turned her back on Revan. Revan picks up the towel expert and helps Shinta dry her hair.

"Why is your hair so long"

"Because it's not short, it's long!" There was still a little debate between them, Revan put aside all of Shinta's hair and kissed the nape of Shinta's neck making the woman goosebumps amused. Shinta just kept quiet and closed her eyes, lately Shinta and Revan always fight and they can not deny they miss each other touch touch. Although they never express their feelings for each other but they are afraid of losing each other and feel jealous if one of them is close to others especially among them. Revan hugs Shinta from behind and touches the part of Shinta's body he wants to touch.

*And there is a ritual that is usually done husband and wife.

Shinta falls asleep as needed Revan, Revan kisses Shinta's head tenderly and occasionally he covers Shinta's lips.

"Do you love me?" Shinta asked so innocently, Revan only chuckled at Shinta's question, Shinta who saw her husband's reaction instead became sad

"What do you expect, you fool! your marriage is only because Syifa is nothing more" Shinta berated herself. He felt so sad

"I shouldn't have expected this much" he muttered back in his heart, Revan raised his chin and gently stroked Shinta's lips

"More than you think" Revan whispered in Shinta's ear.

"You mean"

"Basic stupid! Do you think I'd touch you if I didn't love you?"

"You should be able to feel" Revan held Shinta's hand and placed the woman's hand on her chest. Shinta develops her smile and hugs Revan again. He was so happy to hear Revan's statement. There is calm within him.

"Van" Shinta looked up and saw her handsome husband's face

"Do you still love Caca?" The question made Revan open his eyes and look at Shinta with such a serious look.

"Why?" Revan asked in a dislike tone.

"I'm just asking, you just have to answer!" Shinta moved her mouth.

"Why are you asking like that? Or maybe you're still in love with your ex?" Revan asked Shinta that question again. Shinta sat down and covered her innocent body with a thick blanket up to her neck. Revan also sat down and looked into Shinta's eyes.this time the atmosphere was tense. Shinta let out a rough breath and looked Revan in the eye deeply

"Van, I've been on good terms with Rayhan even with a short time.10 years is not a minute van, so many moments we've been through, he said, moreover, he left me because of severe pain" Shinta's tears had already dripped he adjusted his breathing slowly. So crowded it feels to remember the times, especially now Rayhan's dying condition lying in the hospital. Revan just clenched his hand holding back the pain that Shinta said.

"Right, I still love Rayhan. But just so you know van, after marrying you I've killed all my love for Rayhan, he's just my mass while you and Syifa are my future and happiness" Shinta held Revan's hand

"I can't afford to lose you and Syifa. You're my life now, and I'm so afraid that Syifa's birth mother's presence will make you switch again to her and leave me"

"I know you're still in love with Caca Van, you can't escape him" Shinta wiped her tears, though her chest felt tight, but Shinta had to let out all her grief.

"I'm jealous to see you laughing with her, I'm jealous to see Syifa close to her"

"I know, I'm selfish Van. But I can't lie to my heart, I'm so scared and I'm not ready to lose you and Syifa" Revan hugged Shinta and kissed Shinta's head.

"I love you too! I also can't see you care more about Rayhan than I do, you're always fierce with me but look so gentle with Rayhan"

"I love you very much Ta, do not break my heart by seeing your closeness with Rayhan"

"Honestly, I don't have any feelings for Caca anymore, I just appreciate Caca as a mother who has given birth to my child and her sacrifice all this time for me and Syifa"

"I can't bear to see Caca suffer alone for years for me and Syifa, and I hate that she knows him from her real daughter, I feel so bad Ta" Revan tightened his embrace

"But that doesn't mean I want to go back with her, like you said. He is only me and you are my future. Please trust me! I love you so much and I can't possibly leave you" Revan tried to explain everything to Shinta.

"And you must also understand Ta, however Caca is the biological mother of Syifa. We can't miss them, I know you're sick to see their closeness but we also have to let Syifa know more about who her real mother is. Caca is not a bad person who will call Syifa from you, from me and from all of us, she just wants to be closer to her son. All this time she had suffered from being away from Syifa and I did not want to be selfish anymore" Shinta also understood with the explanation from her husband.

"I don't know what's going to happen in the future, but I want us to both face all this and continue to strengthen each other instead of leaving each other, I can't afford to lose you" Pinta Revan.

"I can't afford to lose you and Syifa. Sorry if I was selfish Van" Revan nodded and returned Shinta's hug.