IN THE CAGE

74. DILEMMAS

...FAWN...

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Although we've been pretty close and getting along lately. I'm afraid I don't know enough of an Arcelio Hunter. I think I know everything about that guy because I've seen all the black sides of him, but..., I didn't expect to see a very different side of everything I've seen so far.

I mean, what kind of luck or black magic hit that guy to the point that he bought me a bouquet of roses?

"Are you drunk?" Ace my understanding is an unromantic guy. Not that I ever knew how to approach women. Merely, the aura that the man was emitting was very clear that he was 'Anti romantic!'.

"What's wrong?" Ace stood in front of me in confusion. He certainly did not understand that his attitude was very surprising. Weird dude.

"This rose..., for what?" Not that I don't appreciate the gift. But..., flowers? Wh why?

"I saw him on the street. Don't you like it?"

"I'd rather you buy me food." I clenched the red rose and inhaled its pungent aroma. My body shuddered for a moment. The smell is very stinging.

"I brought you that too..." Ace responded to me with a smile. "Felix is preparing it in the kitchen."

"Eh, seriously? What'sthat?"

"Beef bulgogi."

"Aaaaa, I haven't eaten bulgogi in a long time..." I was so happy, I put the rose on the bed and gave Ace a firm hug around the neck. "You are an angel!!!"

"Hn, you're that happy with the food, I don't know why I need to waste my time buying those roses."

"Eh," I loosened my arms from Ace and looked at him with a sneer. "It's your own fault."

"The seller says women are crazy about roses."

"So, were you fooled?"

"Looks."

I laugh. Of the many people on the face of this earth, Ace was fooled by the florist. "You should have used your money to buy me more food. I might marry you then."

"Can I take your words seriously?"

"No. Don't." Don't." I immediately shook my head. That son of a bitch, if he thinks I'm serious, he can give me a food-based home.

"You gotta stop making jokes, I can get heartbroken."

"Are you seriously marrying me?!" to be honest, I don't think Ace's feelings were as deep and serious as mine. I mean, maybe he just got carried away from me being used to seeing me here. He wouldn't love me to the stage that if Margot and I drowned in the lake he would save me first, would he?

"I'm serious." Ace told me I couldn't help but develop a smile.

Although I doubt Ace's sincerity, but listening to the words of romance that adjust your heart, spoken by the most respected man in the world. Even if it's a lie, please speak louder.

Does this feel loved?

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Felix came again for the umpteenth time today. Carrying a food trolley.

Something happened, after giving me the roses that night, the gifts from Ace kept coming. Heavy meals from different parts of the world landed in my room, accompanied by snacks such as bread, snacks and biscuits. Not only food, Ace also installed one television in our room. He also provided the game.

I asked her a few days ago, and she responded with an ambiguous casual manner. "Just want to spoil you" he said.

But I can't believe it. What kind of male Ace would shower his loved ones with a mountain of meaningless gifts? Does he want me to fat in here?

"You just need to enjoy the kindness of Ace's boss, Fawn. This is all for you." Felix spoke while putting a plate of carbonara paste on the table.

"I can be a pig here."

"I don't care." said Felix. "My business is done here, if you need extra food, just tell Ozan. He's standing guard outside."

"Mm, okay." I let out a breath. My life, why is it like this?

What's in Ace's brain, actually? How long have I been craving television in this room, but why is he giving it to me now? He also gave me abundant food..., does he think I would love him if he gave me a myriad of my favorite things?

No kidding!

I can really get carried away, DAMN it!!! Why does he make my heart so weak!!! I shouldn't have gotten late in my own game!!! I should have left here!!!

Oh, these gifts are like invisible chains holding me here. I.., I really love the attention he gives me I don't think it's okay to stay here forever.

AND THAT THOUGHT IS WRONG!!! No, Fawnia!!! Your brain must be broken! Am I a cheap girl who can be bribed with food?

Remember your mother, Fawn. Mothers...

Right, how's my mom doing?

I've been here three months. While I was stuck doing nothing, eating and drinking like a queen, sleeping whenever I wanted, my mom was out there all alone.

Mother may have gotten a letter from the Rashid family about my return - in other words, death. It is common in our work that when someone dies, a notice letter along with compensation money will be given to our family. The contents of my contract are written like that.

"Are you all right after hearing my dead news?" I wondered as I stared out the window.

My heart aches to think that my mother must be very sad.

Although my job as a bodyguard is more time-consuming, my relationship and mother still go well. We've been in touch every night overtime. He would question me, ask me to eat and drink regularly. Sometimes, he would send food as well. I miss my mother's cooking.

No, I miss my mom. I want to hear his voice, hold him and say I'm still alive here. Your son is very strong, mother. I survived even though the wild animals that trapped me were terrible. When she was tame, she was adorable. I cried a lot in the beginning, but I'm fine now. I hate it - but not as big as I used to be.

Mom, I want to tell you all about my experience here. This place that felt like a nightmare began to cling to me like a new warmth. I don't know if this place changed, or was it me?

I want to go home.

Either because of the thought of the mother coming suddenly-tears burst out and flooded my cheeks. Broadcasts crowded on television like a mute in my ears, my heart, my heart aches with longing for the person who has become my life friend. I miss looking at my face that is always tired because of his heart disease. I want to hold his hand.

How long do I have to be here?

I stared at the bracelet on my leg, and my heart stopped. My heart hurts so much to see that bracelet.

I think I've been living comfortably here but...., I forgot, how could I forget? My world is only about this rectangular-shaped room!

My world has stopped.

This cage is choking me.

Ace may be very happy now, I've been his ideal pet. I actually became the beast that he fed the early morning of the afternoon painstakingly.

Of love? Something like that must be just nonsense. I must have gotten carried away.

Right, I must be crazy.

Ahaha.

I feel so guilty, so, so guilty when my heart feels comfortable here. A place that has given me hurt and humiliation, how can I forget all its crimes?

What I have to do, I want to go home.

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