IN THE CAGE

51. REVERT

...FAWN...

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I don't believe in supernatural things like ghosts, being possessed by subtle spirits or anything like that, I didn't believe in anything mystical until today. The day when I-I-I-gave myself to Ace with pleasure. No, more like I expected it. Fuck, shit! The demons from the bottom of hell have definitely possessed me, I am 100 percent sure. If not, then maybe I...

"Wellfurrgghh!!!" I groaned again, almost 100 times today. I hit my head against the bathroom wall, I don't know how many times. I felt a pain on my forehead, but it was nothing compared to the shame and disgust that crept all over my skin. 

I was like I was drowning in a cobweb, and the eight-legged beast was crawling all over my body - creating a jovial sensation that made me want to jump into the flames.

Oh, my God, I hate myself.

I hate the sight of me in the mirror with the bite marks and the pagutan on my skin. I-what's wrong with me?

"Civilized, I must be crazy!" I grimaced with my heart still pounding. Fear and panic filled my head. I was afraid of myself and panicked at the changes I felt in myself. This is not true, what I did last night is not true. I must-what did I eat until I went crazy?

"No! Nah! I don't like it at all!" I grabbed my hair in frustration when again, the image of Ace's lips sweeping across the surface of my skin came to the surface. It caused a hot sensation where his lips had once landed. I rubbed my body for a moment, hoping that the act would get rid of the feeling that tickled my skin right then and there.

Everything felt so clear in my mind, every touch she gave me, every breath that swept through my skin, the heat of her body temperature and how she created a side of me that I never knew existed..., i'm like...

"No! Nah! No!" I hit my head once more, loud enough for the sound of the impact to be clearly heard in my ears. The pain also.., my head buzzed for some time until finally the pain subsided. I went back and forth in the same room, condemning the same mistake.

"Fawn, are you okay?" From outside, I heard Vera's voice.

"Yes?" I approached the door, but refused to go out. I wanted to bury myself in the bathroom and forget that I ever lived on this earth.

"You better get out, Fawn. You've been there for two more hours."

"Do I have to go out?" I don't want to go out.

"Boss Margot will knock down the door if you keep locking yourself in there." Vera said it was as if knocking down a door that was firmly attached to the stone wall was not a difficult matter. They're really used to the madness their boss created, shit, I've contracted crazy.

"Vera, is there a quickest way to die?" I whispered in despair. No more excuses to live, I completely gave up on my sanity.

"I can break your neck if you want." Vera said half a laugh. "Don't talk nonsense, if you die, Ace's boss will slaughter us."

"Fuck, don't mention his name..." I shiver in horror again. My fingertips are ice cold.

"Come out, Fawn." Vera's voice softened. "You're not wrong at all. Boss Margot won't kill you. Well, even though I think you and Ace's boss are crazy enough to do that on his bed - but I certainly know, you can't turn down Ace's boss's request, right? I-i understand. I totally understand."

No Vera, the problem is you don't understand at all. I started that madness. ME! I'M OF EVERYONE! I'm not sane! God, I want to cry.

"Fawn?" Vera called out to me once more, and from her voice-I knew I could no longer hide in this box-shaped room.

Oh, how I wish the floor split in two and swallow me right now. But reality is more cruel than my imagination. Because, instead of disappearing from the face of this earth, I was forced to face the two brothers that I was currently avoiding the most.

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After I got out of the bathroom, Vera hugged me and assured me that the situation would be fine. He was even worried about my red forehead, but I brushed off his anxiety by saying it wasn't a problem. My only problem right now is facing Miss Margot and Ace! Just thinking about that situation alone had made my stomach twisted in pain. I was so anxious that the pounding on my chest was so hard.

"Come..." Vera was embracing me towards the exit, towards the sound of Miss Margot resounding large. I gulped for a moment.

"I CAN'T TOLERATE YOUR MADNESS AT ALL, ACE. THIS IS ENOUGH FOR ME TO SAVE FAWN FROM YOU. YOU SHAMELESS MAN, HOW DARE YOU DO SUCH A DISGUSTING THING ON MY BED!!!!"

"Don't overdo it, you can clean it up."

"Damn it, motherfucker! That's not the problem!!! Do you know your mistake?"

"Fawn, are you okay?" miss Margot grabbed me with a question that sounded like a snapshot. I shriveled in fear.

"She's so nice, can't you see it for yourself?" Ace answered as if defending me. That psychopath guy!

"Huuuh, I see you and Fawn have made up until you don't care and don't remember where you did it, you animals!" miss Margot pulled my arm violently. I gasped for his sudden pull, and gasped even more as the pull turned into a push. Miss Margot pushed me towards Ace violently.

"From today on, I'm returning Fawn to you!" miss Margot declared the decision out loud.

"What?" I really mind. Please, don't do that! I'm at home in your room, Miss Margot!!!

"I don't want to deal with the two of you anymore" Miss Margot chimed in on me while shaking my waist.

From his expression, he was already clearly very careless towards what happened last night. Doesn't mean I'm going to blame Miss Margot, she has a very good reason to get rid of me. Me-no, Ace and I have desecrated his room with unforgivable actions. He must have hated us to the bone.

"Vera, tell Felix to clean my room as clean as he can today. Replace all the paint, carpet and most importantly, burn my bed today."

"But boss?" Vera gulped at the command of her superiors which was very excessive. I was concerned and at the same time-stunned astonished.

"Just do what he asks" Ace grabbed my shoulder from behind and pulled me up to his chest. "He won't stop until you do what he wants."

"It's all your fault, Ace!" miss Margot pointed her index finger at Ace's face furiously. "I hope you reflect on your mistakes, if not.., next time your room will burn out."

"There won't be another time because Fawn will now be with me" Ace said, greeting my ears. As if it were intended for me. I'm goosebumps.

"I'm glad you came back to me" Ace whispered in my ear. Reminds me of what he did last night. When he inhaled my nape deeply. The hot trace of his breath was still there, like an invisible immortal fire. I was burning in the heat sensation.

While Vera was stuck in Miss Margot's crazy orders, I who was still stuck in Ace's embrace could only drag my steps forcefully as she led me back to her room. To where it all started. To the cage that's been my room for the past month.

I went into Ace's room with a step. An uncomfortable feeling enveloped me, and all the memories that came to my mind while treading in that room did not help me at all.

In this room, a lot of things had happened between me and Ace. All the torture he did, his actions that implied oppression, tantrums, calmness, sadness and even weakness, I remembered every single thing that had happened in this room like it had just been yesterday.

I remember-that I was a prisoner here, and Ace wasn't a good guy. He is a hostage taker who has used me as his entertainment. All the strange and strange feelings I feel now are a mistake. I shouldn't have reacted like this under his touch. I hate Ace so much, so much. It was a normal feeling for me to feel for the person who had taken me prisoner.

"Haaaah," my breath escaped heavily.

"Are you okay?" Ace grabbed me and I brushed his hand away for a moment.

"I'm-I'm good." I glanced at him before I threw away my face. The smell of the room was - a little different from when I left it, scented like tobacco and alcohol. I never smelled this scent in Ace's room before. No, rather, I never saw him smoking in the room.

"What happened to your forehead?" Ace still hasn't given up on talking to me. He sat across the sofa and looked at me with his thick eyebrows that were almost fused together.

"I-falling?"

"Yes?"

"Fall down" I said with more confidence. "I fell in the bathroom."

"Oh, that's surprising. Did your leg give up because of our activity last night?" A ignorant smile instantly bloomed on his face.

"Don't make me hit you!"

Shit, it's only been a few minutes here, I've been wanting to jump off the balcony. How can I survive here from now on without Ace teasing me about my actions, me? Damn, this situation is making me very depressed!

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