I Accept My Destiny

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Tonight the khanza did not rest at all, he continued to hold his son's hand and read yasin, atthar and other families accompanied the khanza who did not want to leave his son for a second

He read surah yasin while occasionally wiping his tears, khanza tears as if he could not stop even though many had comforted him

The next day at 06.00 wib khanza and atthar and others prepared to bathe the body of his son, after bathing they would take him to TPU (Public Burial Place) which is not far from the boarding school

This time atthar as his father who carried his tiny baby to his final resting, khanza and atthar still crying, they really feel the sadness that was very deep after what awaited them only a short stop

After arriving at the public cemetery atthar returned to prosecute his son, this was the second time he accused his son in his final resting place, the voice of the adhan atthar very sad as if he had not let go of his first son, the voice of the adhan atthar was very sad, likewise, the khanza when he saw the baby inserted into the burrow suddenly arrived the body of the khanza limp and almost fainted but he was supported by the mother and ummi who always was beside the khanza, but he was supported by the mother and ummi who always stayed beside the khanza, khanza survived until the funeral was over

After praying and the Surah pilgrim returned home, the khanza was drowning and eaten by his tiny son, he rubbed his son's tombstone which he named 'Abdullah'

The cry of the khanza no longer resounded, his tears never stopped flowing, he was devastated and not sincere with the provisions of God, he lamented the departure of his son

"Why so soon ninggalin umma naaakk hiks" khanza cried over his son's funeral while hugging his son's tombstone.

"Umma so expecting you dear hiks.hiks umma has been waiting for you for a long time but why do you go again hiks.hiks" continued khanza.

Atthar immediately hugged his wife, he was very sick to see his wife like that, he also felt very lost his son, but he had to be strong for his wife

"It is a pity, must not wail like that, sincerely dear, accept what God has destined" said Atthar to appease his wife

"But why maaaasss hiks..hiks.why God is like us, God has given us hope by giving a child hix.hiks" replied khanza while sobbing

"Istigfar dear, should not say like that, do not blame him, we do not know God's plan ahead" atthar again calmed his wife

"Khanza dear, yes, let's go home" the mother took while rubbing her child's shoulder

"Istigfar dear, God does not give you a test if you are not able to, believe in God, will there be a rainbow after the storm" he said

"Astagfirullah.hiks hiks forgive umma nak if umma like this hyks.hiks, surely you are sad ya see umma like this hyks..hiks" khanza still rubbed the baby tombstone, he refused to leave his son's funeral

"Let's love, right said ummi son, believe in the same God, God will replace it more than this dear" mother tried to help khanza to wake up and slowly khanza nodded and also woke up

Khanza was led by his mother and husband, they returned home, all the way just quiet limp, when he arrived at the house atthar asked his wife to eat a little because it was from yesterday khanza did not eat

Khanza still refused under the pretext of wanting to rest, atthar did not want to force and pressure his wife, he let his wife rest and calm down

Until the afternoon khanza did not come out of his room, atthar and mother and ummi worried to see khanza locked himself, atthar took the initiative to see his wife

"Honey.uda donk rest, eat yuk, mas worry lo deck" said atthar slowly entering the room.

Khanza did not answer her husband's greeting, atthar approached his wife and saw her sleeping wife holding a cellphone containing a photo of their child

"Hheehhhhh.." atthar sighed, he knew it was very hard for his wife

He took the phone from his wife's hand, but he felt something unusual, the khanza's hand was very hot, atthar turned to hold his wife's forehead, and sure enough his wife had a fever

"Dek...sadang.wake up baby. eat first yuk you fever dear, please dear do not be like this, mas very worried" said atthar woke his wife.

Atthar patted khanza's arm slowly but never woke up, he also patted his wife slowly, but khanza also did not wake up

"Darling please don't be like this, wake up first yuk, we take medicine, dek...khanza" atthar hardened his voice and heard a moaning sound from his wife

"Wake up baby, please you have not eaten from yesterday dear and now you are feverish" said Atthar keep buildinglan his wife

"Khanza is not hungry mas, khanza will eat it, khanza heads dizzy" said weak khanza

"Pick up the drug yes, but before that eat first a little yes deck, please" atthar pleaded

Khanza nodded in agreement and it made Atthar happy, he wanted to go out to fetch food for his wife, but the khanza called him back

"Mas.." call khanza.

"What else do you want, baby?" Atthar turned back to his wife

"Payud*ra khanza is very sick mas" complained khanza

"Subhanallah hurt why baby?" Atthat was back to his wife

Atthar holds and feels his wife's payud*ra and sure enough the payud*ra khanza is very hard like a rock and very hot, atthar immediately comes out to call ummi and mother

"Wait a minute baby" said Atthar and passed away

Khanza was shivering more, payud*ranga was very sick, he shed tears to endure the pain

Before long ummi and mother and atthar returned to the khanza room, atthar brought a plate of rice for his wife

"Why son?" Ask the mother and mother holding the head of her son who is hot

"We are doctors yuk nak yuk, payud*ra you are swollen because of the g inside son, if left will get sicker" said ummi and mother confirmed what was said ummi

"Let's love we go to the hospital, if g can walk mas gendong ya" said atthar her husband and khanza nodded

Atthar held his wife to go to the doctor, atthar was very sorry to see his wife, he felt tremendous pain, gave birth to a torn uterus, lost the anticipated baby and now back sick because of the unplugged breast

Atthar promised in his heart, he would always accompany his wife and always love his wife under any circumstances, he would always be by his wife's side as his breath blew

"Allah gives healing to my wife, O God, do not let her be sick alone, God continue with her and continue to be by her side, because only You can heal the pain that he suffered, O God, do not leave him, Rabb" said Atthar in the heart

Indeed, deep down in his heart he feared his wife as before who always asked God and even tend to blame God because God has not granted his prayers

Atthar had to go the extra mile in guiding his wife, he was afraid that his wife would not accept God's plan, but hopefully not, may khanza have learned more

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