For Me And Him

45

Kuremat both hands, sitting down with a deep down. Actually I don't understand, why would Tamy stop here?

At the end of his long wait.

If I had known this sooner. If Tamy had been honest with me, if only, and continued to reason.

Now I really wish it existed. I regret why I never felt so sensitive.

I was very close to Leo, but I trusted the little con man more. He kept flirting with me until this was the end.

I greet the water that wants to cross on the cheek with the back of the hand. I don't want to cry, I won't cry.

Because I believe, Tamy will survive and be fine.

Yeah, Tamy's gonna be fine.

The sound of the door opening, I immediately got up when I saw Leo coming out of the treatment room.

"Om, how?" much worry.

Leo was silent, he looked at me blankly.

"Om, how?" I screamed a little.

"I hate to say this, but-" Om Leo hung up his sentence, he looked at me in a deep and firm manner.

"But what, Om?" I'm just impatient.

"It's time we strengthen our hearts, Virgo. Maybe, Tamy won't last much longer."

Like there's lightning striking into the recesses of the heart. For a moment my breath stopped, stifled by the chest sting that squeezed the soul.

I catch my breath by hunting hard and shaking my head.

"No!" ketus.

"Don't be like this, Om. Don't give up, Tamy can give up, but we can't!"

"So how should we?" ask Leo, lirih.

"Let's get the operating table ready. We're doing a heart transplant right now."

"Virgo, it's free."

"What's free? We haven't tried, we don't know how? So we can't give up, Om. Come on, let's go to Tamy's operation," I asked in a panic.

Om Leo pulled my shoulder, grabbed my shoulder and gently patted my shoulder.

"Calm down, kid. I also want Tamy to be healed. But who are we? You should know."

I hug the body of the field om Leo and break the cry there. I'm not as strong as you, Om. I'm not as tough as your son.

I feel fear and I don't want to lose. Help me, help me save Tamy's life.

"We can only plan, Virgo. But it is God who decides the end. I, too, cannot lose my son. But who can stop death? As a Doctor, my heart was broken when my patient died of his illness. As a father, can you feel it? I'm even more sorry than you, Virgo."

I put my face on Leo's shoulder. More and more breaking the burden that is increasingly heavy when thinking about losing Tamy.

"We're helpless, we can't do anything. Tamy gave up, not because he didn't love us. He's too tired, Virgo. He has suffered a lot" said Leo Parau.

Just like me, Leo also could not bear the weight of his tears. For some reason, it hurts so much when you have to deal with all this.

Why God? Why should it be like this in the end?

No matter how hard I survive and find my way, there will still be nothing I can do.

Because in the end, what is entrusted will definitely return to its Master.

***

I slowly walked, pulled up the chair and sat down next to Tamy. I took his fingers and linked them with my fingers.

I looked at his face deeply and deeply. As hard as I can survive, I still can't afford to lose.

Losing her cheerful smile, her jokes and also her laughter. His anger and all his resentment. Tamy, all this time I've been holding everything back just so I can stay with you, honey.

No matter what mistakes you make, no matter how much you treat me. Or you who are indifferent when you are jealous.

I bear it, I hold it. Because I've been conscious all this time, I'm capable of withholding whatever it is. But I can't bear to lose you.

I kissed the back of Tamy's hand while shedding tears. Throw down all the burdens I could not bear.

"Tamy, can't you hold on, honey?" I shed a cry, slowly the sobs became increasingly tight.

Dissolved into the wonderful memories we once created together. Turning back one by one the past events are so special.

Remembering the story fragment that I wanted to erase, but the stronger it was stuck in memory.

Remembering every laugh that was able to melt the atmosphere. Feel the warmth in each hand that is tightly interlocked.

"Tamy, wake up," I said softly.

Slowly Tamy moved his eyeballs, a drop of water flashed the first time he opened his eyes.

"Tamy," call me directly.

Tamy glanced at me, his hand raised and wanted to open the oxygen he was using.

"Tamy, no. You need to keep breathing."

His eyes again gave off a clear liquid, feeling his weak hand return my hand.

"When do you want?" tanyanya.

"When is what?" askaku.

"Until when are you going to keep forcing me to breathe? Virgo, set me free. I beg you," he turned back.

"Darling, be patient. I'm sure you'll be cured."

"Virgo, release. I beg you," the flow is getting weaker.

I got up and put my head next to Tamy's head, clutching it tightly.

"I beg you, Tamy. I love you so much. You are the love that makes me cry when I laugh. Don't let me, I keep crying." Kuelus heads Tamy and gently kisses his forehead.

Tamy closed his eyes, dripping water back from both eyes.

"Virgo, where's dad?" weak tanyanya.

"I don't know," I replied gently.

"Can you call dad? I want to hug you, "he asked.

I nodded and pressed the button on the bed. Back on this girl's forehead, once in a while the back of my hand blotted out her cheeks, covering her tears that kept on shedding from my eyes.

"Virgo, pull the curtain."

"What?"

"Open the window, I want to see it."

"See what?" I turned my eyes towards the window.

"Open," he ordered.

I walked to the front of the window and pulled the light blue curtain. Letting the rays of infinity enter the sidelines of Tamy's room.

The girl's head tilted, looking out the window. At first glance, I saw her lips smiling, but her eyes still did not stop letting out that clear liquid.

"What do you want to see, Tamy?" I walked back to him.

"Orang," he replied weakly.

"Orang?"

"That last orange at the end of twilight."

Take a look at the sky. See the almost blackened cloud with orange color decoration in the corner there.

I nodded and pressed back on Tamy's room bell.

"Hurry up, what if the throne ends?" command's back.

I sighed and gently kissed Tamy's forehead.

"Wait, I'll call your father."

Tamy nodded his head, I could still see his smile from behind the oxygen he was using.

I ran, tracing the corridor to Leo's room. Knocking on Leo's door with a fast hunt.

"Om" called me as I opened the door.

But Leo was not in his room, the bust of a passing nurse. Ask about Leo's whereabouts.

"Virgo, are you looking for me?"

"Om, Tamy wants to meet Om, he says he wants to see twilight together."

"Tamy's conscious?"

"Yes." Yeah."

Om Leo smiled with relief and ran towards Tamy's room. I followed Leo's steps, following the girl who was waiting for us.

My steps stopped when I entered Tamy's room, for a moment I fell silent. Tamy's been asleep without oxygen.

Leo put that oxygen back on. Take the first action to restore Tamy's breath.

Again, I was fooled by him. Tamy deliberately wanted me to leave so he could unlock the oxygen he was using.

Tamy is deliberately looking for a reason so that he can be alone. He purposely made me leave so he could also leave.

Wh why? Why are you doing this to me, Tamy?

Why are you so cruel? Even to the end you still kept lying to me. Until the end, you still kept everything hidden from me.

Even to the end, you want to keep everything with you.

At the last moment of your breath you want us to leave you alone.

Why are you so subtle about this? Why are you so smart to play me?

A nurse dragged me out, I saw Tamy through the glass door. Leo's still trying to save Tamy, I saw him.

Om Leo even cried bitterly as he tried to restore his son's heartbeat. Every now and then his tears trickled, trying his hardest to bring back the breath that had stopped.

Until some time trying, Leo began to lose faith. He put down his tools and hugged his daughter's body.

Kodobrak doors in Tamy's hospital and ran to his bed. Seeing clearly, feeling his pulse that was no longer felt.

"Tamy, wake up, son. Sorry Dad, Honey. I'm sorry I didn't have time to accompany you to see the last twilight," said om Leo as he kissed the sleeping girl.

"I'm sorry, even until your last breath blows. I still left you alone. I failed to take care of you and drove you home, honey." Om Leo increasingly flattened his arms, his body began to tremble as his cries tightened.

"Dad, please forgive all failures, Father. Apologize to your mama over there, son. I'm sorry Dad as a man can't take care of you two. Sorry .. sorry Tamyku, my little girl, my little angel. Sorry this useless father."

I was just speechless, breathing in a breath that had stopped because I saw Tamy not moving anymore.

What am I supposed to do? God, say. Tell me what to do?

"Om," call me bitter.

I held back the tears that wanted to break, my lips started to shake. I can't ask Leo that question.

"Of." I swallowed the saliva which was very bitter. As hard as I held it, my tears continued to fall without a sound.

Om Leo let go of his embrace and pulled me out of Tamy's room. Put me in the front stainles chair of Tamy's room.

For a moment we both kept quiet, still trying to accept this reality. I can't believe it's just a dream, right. Say, Om. It's just a dream.

"Om" called me with trembling lips.

"Tamy .. he's gone for all of us, Virgo."

I let go of the cry, letting the sobbing sound clear in someone else's ear. How could I not believe this.

"Strong, Virgo. We have to be strong" Leo said.

"Say this is just a dream, Om. Please tell me this is just a dream!" yell loudly.

Om Leo shook his head, stroking my shoulders gently.

"It's not a dream, Virgo. Tamy ... has indeed left," replied Om Leo while holding back his cries.

I know we're both hurt. But I can't accept it, it's not the truth. No, this must be wrong.

"No!" I got up and shook my head.

"No! It's not real, Om. I'm sure when I woke up Tamy was right next to me. Sure, there's."

"Virgo, I know it's hard for you, but--"

"No! Tamy is fine. I'm sure Tamy's just kidding, he likes to cheat. He must be laughing inside right now, Om. Tamy must be mocking us right now."

Leo rubbed his face, pulling my hand in.

Om Leo put my hand on Tamy's chest, looking at me with a puddle of water that kept spilling.

"Feel, feel it! Is Tamy's heartbeat still there? Is Tamy's heart still beating, Virgo?" ask Leo bitterly.

I pulled my hand from Tamy's chest, and I saw Tamy's face turning pale.

Slowly my legs were squeezing, resting under Tamy's bed and crying deeply.

How come? This is impossible. Please, this is just a dream. Please wake me up from all this.

"It's impossible, Tamy was still able to run this afternoon. Tamy is still playing in the park. This is impossible."

"Strong, Virgo. Don't be like that, Tamy would be sad if you were like this."

"Leave it. If he's sad, let's go back. Come back here. Come back to my side, Tamy. Come back!"

"Virgo, please calm down. You come out first, I want to remove the medical devices that are still left in the body, Tamy."

Wipe the tears with the back of your hand and wake up. Hugging Tamy's body stretched out on the bed.

"No, Om. No, don't let go. What if Tamy can't breathe? Om, don't do it."

"Virgo awake!" shout Om Leo loudly.

Om Leo grabbed my shoulder and dragged my body out of the hospital room.

"I know it's hard for you, it's hard for me. But Tamy's gone, we have to be sincere with his departure."

I hugged Leo's body and cried deeply, this time really deep.

For a while, we kept going in each other's cries. Losing Tamy, why do I have to be this sick?

"Go to my room first, I will take care of Tamy's body to take home. We're going home together."

With a shunt step, I walked down the corridor of this hospital. Not knowing what to do, it felt like my world was completely dark.

Just staggering without a destination. Leo says we're going home together, where are we going?

Go home, or go back to God?

I don't know, I don't think I can hear anything anymore. My eyes were still open but my eyes were dead.

My ears are still there, but his voice just disappears. All along this road just looks empty and empty.

There's nothing I can see, nothing I can hear. My steps kept moving forward, but it felt like my soul was left with Tamy there.

Until both steps stopped, limp and fell. I don't know what's going on, everything in sight turns into one.

Darkened.