For Me And Him

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Virgo changed his sitting position, he took both of my cheeks and looked at my face with a twinkle of his own eyes.

"Tamy, Honey. It's a joke, right? you and Ryu purposely worked on me right?" Virgo asked with a layer of glass lining both of his eyeballs.

I let go of my bitter smile and sighed.

"Let's just a joke, Virgo. I'll be very happy. If this whole reality were just a joke, I wouldn't have hurt you." I release the water that wanted to come out.

I could no longer hold everything back, if this was the end. Then I will finish it well.

Virgo bowed his gaze and shook his head.

"I can't believe it, I can't believe it at all, Tamy."

"I don't believe it either, Virgo. With the status of Tamy who claimed to be the son of Doctor Leo, and also his attitude that shows that he is mediocre," said Kak Riyu softly.

"If you look at Tamy like that, who would believe that he has cancer. But after seeing Tamy twice vomit blood, I believe. That Tamy's just pretending to be strong." Sister Riyu grabbed the tip of my head and rubbed it gently.

Virgo slapped the hand of Sister Riyu who was stroking my head strongly. Virgo pulled my shoulder, clinging to his two.

"Tamy, but why are you hiding this from me? of all of us?" Ask Virgo gently.

I lifted my head and saw the shock of my friends. I hate being stared at like this by them.

I don't like it when I have to look miserable and look on with compassion. I'm not that weak, I'm not a weak girl.

"I swear I can't believe it, Tamy. Your father is a cancer specialist, where maybe his own son, he has no way to cure."

"Father is just a Doctor, Virgo. I'm not God, I want my father to be a professor. This destiny is still written by the Almighty," I said bitterly.

I hold back the tears I want to shed. I don't want to be seen suffering in front of them.

I pulled out both of my legs, buried my face inside.

Father ... Father ... Please come. I don't want to be here anymore. I don't want to be seen suffering like this.

I broke my cry here, trying to hide my true feelings.

Virgo lifted my head and wiped away the tear from my cheek. Smiled wryly with a puddle of water that enveloped his eyeballs.

"Is this why you decided on me, Tamy?" Ask Virgo gently.

"What is it for this reason that you want to leave me? I don't accept. I can't accept that this is the reason."

"Virgo, believe me this is the best for both of us" I said with trembling lips as it held back the cries.

I drop my tears back, I take a breath that feels very sipped in the chest. Trying to inhale oxygen that was increasingly heavy and wheezing my breathing.

"Virgos." I grabbed Virgo's cheek with my slightly shaking hand.

"If I don't let you go now." I took a heavy breath and tried to hold back my tears.

"Then we too will be separated by death, yes" I said gently, closing my eyes and bowing my head.

I let go of the cry that could not be held again.

I beg Virgo, don't hold me to stay by your side. My mistake was to accept you. With my circumstances like this, I should not give you wonderful hope about our love for you.

Virgo shook his head, his eyes kept looking at me with that layer of glass. Virgo just kept quiet, didn't say a word.

"Sir Riyu, please call Dad. I want to go home," I asked gently.

"No need for Tamy, I called your father. Because your situation worsened, the school called your father, now your father is in the waiting room," said Mr. Andi who came to me.

I looked at Virgo once more, slowly I got up and walked away limp. Breaking up Pak Andi who stood 3 meters adrift in front.

"I help ya," said Sister Riyu who pulled my hand to her papa.

"I can Brother, I'm still strong" I said by releasing the handrails of sister Riyu.

I met Dad who was sitting in the waiting chair of the school. I immediately hugged Dad's big body and buried my face in his field.

"Sorry Dad" I said.

"It's okay, honey. It's over, it's all right," said Dad to calm me down.

"Let's go to the hospital first, let me check on you, yeah," said Father gently.

I nodded and walked towards the school parking lot.

"Tamy," call Virgo after my footsteps.

I hugged Dad and hid my face in Dad's chest. I don't want Virgo to see me like this, I don't want Virgo to come near me anymore.

I don't need sympathy, let alone the pity of others. What if I'm sick? why should everyone feel sorry for me, just because I have this disease.

"Sorry, Virgo. But Tamy needs to rest, talk next time, yes" said the gentle father.

Dad put me in the car, ready to go back to the hospital.

I looked at the face of Virgo standing next to our car. I'm sorry Virgo, but our meeting may end here.

Back the water from my eyes dripped, I never expected, it should end up being painful like this.

"Are you sure you don't want to see Virgo first?"

I shook my head and changed my sitting position facing forward.

"When will Kheimo do all three?" Me softly.

"If you get worse like this, I'll delay it a little longer."

"Do I have to stay?"

"If you want, let's stay for a while, yeah," persuaded Father gently.

"It's up to you, but I want a room that no one can find. I don't want anyone to see me Dad."

"Alright," replied the gentle father.

"I don't want to go to school anymore, I set it up for home schooling just yeah," I said back.

"Yes, honey."

"I don't want to see anyone at home either. So Dad, let's move on."

My father looked away at me when he heard me. This is the second time I asked to move because my illness was known by my friends.

But I know, Dad would have wanted to ask me something else. I'm sure I'd like to talk about Virgo this time.

"As you wish, baby," replied Daddy relented.

I breathed heavily and looked out the window. In the end, all of these stories will be the same.

I will only be seen with pity, when everyone knows that I am sick and suffering.

I don't like to be treated differently, I don't like to beg for mercy. I'm fine, and I'll always be fine.

I'm suffering, but I'll try to be okay. For the sake of Father, who has suffered much, for having to see his own son.

Suffering from the disease he was in. Not karma, I'm sure it's not Dad's karma. Because Father's work is a virtue, which is probably all of Dad's karma.

There's nothing wrong with Dad's job, and I don't want Dad to keep blaming himself for me.

This is all fate. And if this is all going to end, then I will still be grateful. Because Dad and Virgo, it's the most beautiful destiny I've ever had.