For Me And Him

37

Tamy knocked on one of the doors of the hospital room, he popped his head out from behind the door.

"Tante," call him spoiled.

"Eh Tamy, come on in. Why are you standing at the door?" a reply from a woman in the room.

"Someone wants to look at Auntie" he replied.

"Who?" The woman asked.

Tamy turned his head, looking at my face that was standing behind him. Spit up a spoiled smile. It grinned wide to persuade me to go in there.

Kuelus shoots Tamy's head and walks to the doorway.

The woman in there was fixated, like she couldn't believe it was me.

"Virgo, let's go in!" soft command.

Without saying a word, I followed his orders. Sitting side by side with a teenage boy, Ryu.

"What are you doing here? You want to eat some bread?" he asked while giving me a packet of bread.

I shook my head, just looking at the face of the woman sitting on the bed of the hospital.

"Fruit?" bargain back.

I'm back to shaking.

"Do you want a drink?" ask back.

"I want to, Auntie," break up Tamy straight away.

The girl took the mineral gelasan on the table and thrust it at me.

If not for following the girl's wishes. I don't want to be in a room with this woman.

The girl's wiggly finger pulled at my waist skin, frowning slightly as I looked towards her.

Tamy raised one eyebrow in the eye, giving the code for me to say hello to the woman.

Sighing a little, I let go of Tamy's finger.

"Tante, how's it going?" manya lazy.

"Alright, thank God it is still very good," he replied enthusiastically.

"Oh, good."

The atmosphere was stiff again, there was nothing that made me comfortable here.

"Eh, sister Riyu wants a drink? Virgo what do you want to drink? Let me buy it to the cafeteria." Tamy got up and looked at us in turn.

I know, this girl is trying to melt the atmosphere.

"Then I buy first yes," continued Tamy without waiting for our answer.

I saw the little girl's back disappear from behind the bedroom door. My gaze looked back at the woman sitting on the patient's bed.

For a moment, the atmosphere just walked quietly. There were no topics of conversation and no one opened their voices.

Five minutes, ten minutes. Tamy hasn't come back yet, it looks like this girl has indeed left me alone.

"Excuse me, I'm back first" I said as I stood up.

"Virgo, wait!" hold the woman fast.

I saw the woman's face with the corner of the eye. Seeing him cynically without speaking.

"Aunty wants to talk to me for a second, will you?" weak tanyanya.

"Say!"

"Auntie's actually saying sorry, sorry for forcing her into your family."

"Slowly."

The woman bowed her head, while the look on her face turned sad. Enliven compassion in the heart.

"Tante knows it's too late. It's been six years, and Auntie's still got your mother's face in hers."

I turned my face towards Riyu, the man got up and pulled a chair next to his mother.

Then he left, out of the room.

"Auntie is guilty of you, of your mother and of God, Virgo. Maybe because of that, Aunt found karma so painful like this," explained the woman back.

"Virgo, your father is just a khilaf. He misses you so much, go home and see him. He'll be so happy to see you again."

"I am no longer home after you took my home. I also had no father after he buried my mother. So, don't be tired of persuading me."

"Virgos."

I turned my face towards the woman, she fell silent as she lowered her face.

I don't know, maybe he's too scared to look me in the eye.

"Tante," call me, bitter.

"Yes." Yeah."

"Tell me how my mom can go. Maybe I'll consider forgiving you."

All this time I've been wondering, how did my mom get away? How can you marry again?

This wound I had stored for a long time, and the longer this curiosity deepened.

"Virgo, that, sorry--"

"Tell me. If Auntie doesn't want to tell you a story, I don't have time to listen to your apologies here" I break up straight away.

The woman came back crying, slowly the sound of her sobbing began to sound bigger and bigger. Crying is deep.

I buried for a few moments, noiseless and not moving from where I was standing.

"All right, I'm leaving," I broke up, walking towards the door.

"Your mother killed herself!" shouted at me.

My steps stopped, the handrails on the door knocks just came off when I heard his words.

I turned my body and looked at the woman's face inside.

"Don't brag!" ketus.

"Tante dares to swear on Riyu, Aunt is telling the truth."

"That's impossible" I argued weakly.

"That's right, Virgo."

My breath seemed to stop, my mind was empty for a moment. Did my mother really go this way?

All this time I've always imagined her smile that always looks beautiful. I miss the one who always wakes me up by splashing water on my face.

How come? This is all impossible. My mother is not that weak woman?

"Your mother, died from not being able to stand the pain, Virgo."

"My mom couldn't have done that, did Auntie think I believed it? It's bullshit!" I shouted in disbelief.

"But Auntie doesn't lie, Virgo. Your mother ... Your mother did go that way?"

"Why? Why would he leave in such a way? My mother is not a desperate person!"

The woman clasped her hands together, shedding all her tears.

"That, sorry. I'm sorry Virgo, your mother is disappointed in me and your father."

"Why? What exactly did you do until my mother killed you like that?" manya.

"Your mother, disappointed. Disappointed with both of us?"

"Loved?" ask me to close my eyes.

"Happened to see her husband cheating on her with his best friend? Huh yeah?" I am raising my voice.

The woman was downcast, she was crying so hard that her thin body trembled strongly.

Slowly he nodded his head. I have a bitter smile on my face. How come? My father was a bajing*an like that?

"There are too many sins that you have committed. You'd better realize that the world has its own way of punishing cunning people like you."

I turned my body and walked back to the door.

"Virgo wait!" terminated back.

I turned a little face towards her, looking at her cynically with the corner of an eye.

"Tante knows this is wrong, Auntie knows this is the law of karma. Therefore, Auntie wants to make up for it."

"Ransom?" I turned my body and smiled at him.

"How is it? You want to bring back my dead mother? Want to take care of me like you take care of your son? Forget it, there is no way to make amends in the past. Everything has happened and you can only enjoy the results of your hard work at this time."

"There's a way" he said.

I shook my head and returned with a bitter smile. Approaching the woman's bed.

"Tante, don't Auntie think I'm a little boy like I was six years ago. I will not be easily fooled by you, like my father who was fooled by your tears" I said.

"But Auntie really wants to make it up to you, Virgo."

"Yes, redeemed? In what way?" tanyaku.

"Heart grafting," she replied gently.

"Huh? Meanin?" many confused.

"Isn't Tamy your boyfriend? Ryu says you love him very much. He has liver cancer, right? You can match the organs to Aunt's heart, and her heart."

I smiled wryly and shook my head.

"Do you think I am intelligent? Giving a woman like you heart to a woman as good as you, Tamy? Forget it, I won't approve."

"But are you sure Tamy has plenty of time to wait for the other donors? Virgo, Tamy doesn't have enough time to wait for that either."

For a moment I was silent, what this woman said might be true.

But Tamyku, she is a very good woman even though sometimes stubborn. How could this woman's heart that I gave her.

"Virgo, think back. Does Tamy have a chance to wait?"