For Me And Him
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Virgo POV.
"You're the reason why I've survived to this day."
Deg ... It felt like my heart stopped when I heard Tamy's confession. I myself am confused, should I be happy or even sad with this confession.
Frankly, I didn't mean to make this day like this at all. But if Tamy keeps resisting, I can also get tired of holding on.
Not wanting to give up, just wanting to stop for a little while. I'm tired if I keep begging and being rejected by this girl I love.
"Virgo, believe it or not. You are the hope that comes when all the light in my world disappears. Because of you, I want to survive. Because of you, I want to fight this pain, because ever since I met you. I want my life to last longer than this" Tamy said, crying bitterly.
"I've lost my life expectancy since Dad said I had liver cancer. All my dreams and dreams just vanished."
Tamy let go of his embrace and walked in front of me. Looking at my face, with the twinkle of his glass-lined eyes.
"But while living my days with you. Slowly my dreams woke up again, and I wanted to make them come true. The concern about you keeps growing and makes me try to fight it all."
Tamy closed his eyelids, dripping a droplet of tears from his eyes. Tamy was silent for a moment, he let out a long sigh.
"But I can't afford Virgo, I can't anymore. Not because I want to give up, Virgo swore. It's really torturing me Virgo. This whole thing tortures me a lot."
Tamy covered his face with both hands and wept over the weight of his heart.
I hugged Tamy's body which continued to roll because of deep crying. I don't know how many tears you've shed all this time, Tamy?
But you're trying to hold it in yourself. I'm too bad for you to rely on.
"I beg Tamy, from now on stop saying things that will hurt both of us" I said softly.
I let go of Tamy's embrace and grabbed both of his cheeks. Removing tears that continue to flow and make his eyes become swollen.
"From this moment. Please believe me, I won't let you take it all by yourself. Believe it."
Tamy nodded his head. She smiled bitterly, while crying.
Why Tamy? why you should keep it all to yourself. If you had told me earlier. I will definitely carry all this burden with you.
***
I parked my motorbike in front of Tamy's fence. I pulled out my phone and called Tamy who was still in the house.
The sound of the gate swiping made my view distorted. Tamy stood on the doorstep with a gentle smile.
His hands were still tidying up the strands of his blond hair that were currently as short as mine.
"Where is your father?" Me softly.
"Not yet to go home" replied Tamy mentel.
"But you've permission, right?"
"Already," replied the spoiled Tamy.
I take off my jacket and put it up to Tamy. Her tiny body looks even thinner.
"Wait a minute, I have a gift for you."
"What?"
I rogo the back pocket of the jeans, and pulled out a light brown knit hat.
Tamy smiled and tidied up her hair. I put the hat on his head and gently stroked it.
"Good no?" Tamy asked, his hands tidying up the edges of the hat.
"Like a manequeen," I replied gently.
"Hem, the hell time?" Tamy turned my rearview motor and saw the reflection of his face.
I bowed my head and aligned it with Tamy's face.
"Tamy," call me soft.
Tamy looked straight at me, landing his lips on mine.
"G ... Virgo is naughty," he said straight away.
"Why? besides you're busy yourself anyway," I said sulking.
"All right, let's go."
"Don't want to."
"Eh, why?"
"Kiss again dong," I asked spoiled.
"G ... No," he refused directly.
"Why?"
"That's not good, Virgo."
"Who said?"
"Say Dad."
"Like Dad you're never young."
"Ih ... Virgo let's go" said Tamy began to get upset.
I let go of my smile and wrapped around Tamy's shoulder with both of my hands. I put my chin over Tamy's shoulder.
"Tamy," call me soft.
"Why?"
"Well yuk."
"Hem." Tamy glanced at me and divorced my embrace, "You healthy Virgo? we are still in High School" he said.
"But I'm afraid of losing you" I answered frankly.
Tamy smiled and pulled the tip of my nose.
I breathed and grabbed his head. How many times have you said you're okay. But I know, in fact you're not okay.
You're hiding a lot from me, Tamy. Including your pain.
"Virgo," call Tamy soft.
"Yes." Yeah."
"Let's go, '" he said softly.
"We don't have to go out, just sit in your house."
"Loh ... Why?"
"I'm lazy" I said lazily.
"Yes ... How the hell is that?" Ask a little disappointed.
"Where do you want to go?"
"I don't know, either, yasudah. Let's go in." Tamy opened the fence of his house.
I pushed my motorbike into Tamy's garage. Slowly I set foot into the back yard of Tamy's house.
Sit in the lounge chair of the garden behind Tamy's house and look out over the night sky. Enjoy the breeze that feels very cool through the chest.
"Yes, I'm not going out. Virgo here, Dad don't worry, I'm fine." I heard Tamy talking on his cell phone with a glass of juice in his hand.
Walk closer to me. Tamy handed the glass to me and switched off the phone.
"Who? Daddy?" Me softly.
"Yes, I said I can't go home. Must be surgery and there's a therapy schedule."
"Your dad's tumben is overtime?"
"Maybe many of his patients have already begun to enter a critical period. Just like me" said Tamy.
"Eh ... Aunt where?" I asked to distract Tamy.
"Auntie hasn't been around since I was in the hospital. Aunty only comes once every 3 days to clean the house."
"It is only fitting that your house is always empty" I replied gently.
"Dad said you don't go home before Dad comes home. Keep me here for a minute."
"Don't you for a second. All my life will also be taken care of," I said seductively.
Tamy smiled gently and bowed his face. He blushed in embarrassment and began to blush red.
A face she had not shown for a long time. Tamy, I always miss you, even when you're in front of me like this. I still miss you so much.
"What are you not afraid of if I bother? I'm a disease" said Tamy.
"You want to make a hassle, or have to take care of you who can only move the eyelids anyway. I'm willing," I replied quickly.
"Ah, now say you want. See if you're married. You're gonna change."
"Eh, where is it possible. I'm a loyal type and commitment is the same words. So I make sure I won't change."
"G ... I can't believe it. Men are so, before you get, even the moon is not as beautiful as you. If you can, why not just go there," said Tamy with a style of literacy.
"Ha ha ha, I will definitely tell you to go to the moon" I said with a slight laugh.
"No, you're honest, right" Tamy said as he pinched my arm.
I grabbed Tamy's hand and held him tight.
"But not a moon to get rid of you" I said softly.
"So for what?" Ketus tanyamya.
"I'll send you to the moon, to enjoy the beauty of our love."
"Hem, meaning?" Confused ask.
"To the moon, looking for honey to bear the fruit of our love."
"G ... What the hell Virgo," he said shyly.
Instantly Tamy's face turned reddish, his white cheeks looked extremely dazzling as he blushed this shyly.
I grabbed Tamy's cheek and looked at him fixedly. I swear by whatever Tamy is, I really hate the thought of losing you.
I wanted to change where you were, with me. Let me endure it all.
"Tamey."
"Hem."
"No matter how long you can hold on. As long as you are beside me. Even if you can only breathe for a second. I won't be willing to trade you for anyone else" I said softly.
Tamy smiled faintly, he grabbed next to my cheek with his fine fingers. Gently brush.
"If I die later, you don't cover yourself and your heart. You should be happy, Virgo. I'm sure you can be happier than you are right now" he said softly.
Honestly, Tamy, even though I'm so happy to keep staring at you. But this happiness keeps on being covered in wounds. I can even smile and cry at the same time.
Even I can cry my heart out in my laughter with you. Whatever it is, whatever it is you're offering right now. All will be great memories of our love story.
Tamy coughed, he closed his eyes. Trying to ease the pain.
"Tamy," call me soft.
"I'm fine." Tamy smiled widely, displaying his small teeth lined with faded red.
I grabbed her lower lip and wiped the rest of the blood from her cough. I pulled Tamy's head and kissed him slowly.
Allow me to feel it a little, Tamy. If I can't feel your pain, at least let me erase your pain.
Let me feel also, rancid the smell of blood that you often vomit from within your lips.
Because I want to know, I want to share it with you.
