For Me And Him

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POVs Rintamy.

Fold both feet and look blankly ahead. Several times he sighed, trying to hold back the tears that wanted to spill.

"Cry if you want to cry, Tamy," Virgo said as he sat next to me.

I turned my face and shook my head.

I won't cry anymore, at least in front of Virgo. Even though it hurts, I don't want Virgo to see me suffer.

"Virgos."

"Hem."

"After graduation, which university will you attend?"

"Not yet."

"Why don't you know yet? Don't you want to think about it from now on?"

Virgo sighed, his hand grabbed some small rocks and threw them into the lake.

"I'm still focused on you right now, Tamy. I didn't go to college for a year or two, no problem."

"Where can it be like that, you guys. You should go to college and get a good job, promise." I put my little finger in front of Virgo.

Virgo smiled and pulled my head, kissing the tip of my nose.

"Promise" he replied, with a smile.

"Em, Virgo ..., "my cry is spoiled. I pinched Virgo's chest, furious to see the act that has always been like this lately.

"Tamey."

"Yes." Yeah."

"What university do you choose yourself?" ask Virgo gently.

Breathe in and look forward again. Shaking your head, slowly.

"I don't think I'm gonna have much time left to do that, Virgo."

"Tamy, why are you so pessimistic?"

"It's not pessimistic, but I feel. That my life will not be long," I replied gently.

"Tamy!" snapped Virgo ketus.

"Virgo, if I go. How are you going to live this life?"

"Don't talk carelessly, you'll definitely get well" Virgo replied fiercely.

"Don't keep fooling yourself, Virgo. You or I know clearly how this will end. Our happiness is on the verge of separation, someday good memories will become painful wounds."

Kuraih fingers Virgo and kisses the back of his hand. Closing the eyelids with water running across the cheeks.

I don't know how much longer this will last. But I knew it would end in a hurtful way.

I hope, you will continue and continue to be happy Virgo. Stay strong through time without me by your side.

"Tamy, what if there's a liver donor for you?" ask Virgo gently.

I opened both eyelids, along with a puddle of water that spilled back.

I let go of the spoiled smile and lay my head on Virgo's shoulders. The most comfortable shoulder after the shoulder of the father.

"Maybe I'm going around the world. Enjoy all the food from every country."

Virgo smiled and dropped his head over my head.

"What's on your mind is just food? I'm so worried about you, but you're just worried about your stomach."

"In this world besides money, eating is the most fun thing" I replied happily.

Virgo pulls the tip of my nose firmly.

"Basic rubber belly, large stomach, bony body. Eat a lot but thin body. So if the piara satan is not mostly, so you do not get it, right?" virgo Ledek.

"Shy, Virgo. I'm just one demon's piara."

"Hem, which one?" ask Virgo confused.

"This one," I replied as I pulled both sides of Virgo's cheeks in a daze.

Virgo just smiled, letting me pull his cheek skin firmly.

"I love you, Tamy," said Virgo.

But I can hear it clearly.

Virgo grabbed next to my cheek and stroked it gently with a thumb.

"Don't go, Tamy. I beg you, hold on a little more" he asked softly.

Slowly the pinch of my finger on Virgo's cheek came off. With the pouring of water from the twinkle of the eye.

"I can't. I'm not strong even when I think of you leaving. I can't stand it, Tamy."

"But age is not in human hands, Virgo. I want to stay here too. But it is God who determines it."

"You'll find a heart donor that's right for you. If it doesn't exist, even I would give half my heart to you."

"Don't, I beg you not, Virgo," hold me gently.

"The risk is too heavy, heart transplantation can only be done on a dying person. Because, donors can lose their lives when doing a transplant. Don't be stupid!"

"Virgo awake! You're healthy, don't go crazy just because of a teenage girl like me. Please don't do that, Virgo. No, I don't want to." I took Virgo's shirt and buried my face in his chest.

"Don't be stupid! You are so young, you will forget about me. Time will heal wounds, Virgo. Later you will definitely forget about me," I said rahu.

"No wound heals just because it's forgotten, Tamy. Do you think time can wash away wounds with fading memories? It's not all that easy, Tamy."

For a moment I let go of all the tears that I had sustained. I don't allow anyone to donate it.

Because this risk is too dangerous, there is no guarantee I will return to how I was before even undergoing liver transplantation.

Cancer sufferers, although declared cured can still fall back. This is all too dangerous, how can I endanger you and your future?

How could I have let someone else do that to me, but with a life expectancy not much better than this.

I can go with all this, but I can't go with you either. Please stay alive Virgo, stand tall for this wound.

The wounds that will be your strength after I'm gone. Endure for this wound, the wound that was created from our good memories together.

"Tamy, you don't know how scared I am. You don't know how I'm afraid, even I can't sleep and eat quietly. I'm afraid to face tomorrow, I'm afraid to go to sleep and close my eyes. I'm afraid when I can open these eyes, but your eyes will be closed and gone."

"Virgo, we never know. Anything can happen, anyone can leave, anytime. The name of life will surely find death."

"But I don't want you to leave so soon. I don't want to, Tamy. There's still a lot of things we haven't met, a lot of things we still have to get through."

"Faster, it will be better. In order not to have too many memories that will be more painful for you to remember," I replied.

"Tamy, why are you talking like this? Why do you always want to go?" ask Virgo ketus.

"No matter what I say. The one who leaves will go, the one who returns will return."

Virgo grabbed my shoulder, trying to look at my increasingly pale face.

"Tamy, cheers. You can do it, spirit!" virgo said encouragingly.

Removing the remaining tears. Laughing while shaking your head.

"What the hell? I don't know, do you?" I asked while pushing his chest.

"Cock not clear?"

"So still arguing with me, now instead say I can. What are you really talking about?" askaku.

Virgo smiled and moved his finger. I raise one eyebrow, look at it with the corner of an eye.

"here."

"What?" I put my ears closer to her lips.

"I'm just telling you" Virgo grabbed a strand of my hair and exposed it behind the ear.

"I love you" he whispered softly in my ear.

I put my eyes off and bit my lower lip. Sometimes after the rain a rainbow comes.

Is it like this? After a fight, Virgo made my heart tremble again. Turn on a long-fading heart rhythm.

Crings ... Crings ....

I turned my head when I heard some bicycle bells behind me.

"You have arrived" said Virgo rising from his seat.

"You guys?" Take a look at Virgo.

"Let's stay here, and school's home early, too. I took them for a bike ride together."

I got up and removed the corner of the chin. Walk near the Virgo bike.

"Let's go up," orders Virgo gently.

I nodded and climbed up the back seat of the bike.

"Tamy, it looks like it'll be easier to ride a bike while you're sitting in the front bollard."

"Why is that?"

"Because there is a spirit that I embrace when I am tired of paddling," replied Virgo gently.

Kugulum smiled and moved to sit on the bicycle trunk. Glanced at Virgo who was driving a bike behind me.

"Ready?" ask Virgo.

"Ready!" answer them simultaneously.

"Lets go!"

Virgo starts to ride his bike while listening to his cues. Cycling with a few other friends.

Occasionally joking by bringing the bicycle tire closer to us. Or the ripples coming out of their mouths because we're the only pair here.

Singing with the sound of a bell that makes the noise of the city streets. Or the rarity of the laughter that comes off because of mutual temptations.

Warm, this atmosphere feels very warm. I really miss this atmosphere, where we can all joke around and say hello.

Enjoy a beautiful day without worrying about suffering.

I don't know when I'll be able to enjoy all this again. Do I still have time or not?

I don't know and I don't want to find out. Right now, this is enough.

There's you, there's a father and a Virgo. If I ask for a long life. Maybe God will say I'm greedy. Because I, want to have everything in the deck.

If it ends, I will be happy. Because at the end of the time I have left, I'm happy to have all of you.