First Love "In April"

DREAMLIKE

The bell ringing of the first hour of the lesson was over and it was time to rest, as usual Lila and Ema were waiting at the door of the class,

"ayo Rii we're out" Della asked, holding my hand.

" I'm not coming, my head is dizzy" I replied listlessly.

" you're sick huh Ri" Della's hand while fingering my forehead.

" no, I'm just dizzy going to sleep for a while" I said as I shook Della's hand.

" do you want food?"ask Della.

" Don't" I replied briefly as I lay my head on top of my school bag and Della passed by leaving me in the classroom.

" the silence" I said slowly because in the classroom only stay I'm a.

I stared at Raidil's bench as I lay my head on the table, subconsciously sleeping in the quiet of the classroom, it was so quiet that it made me feel comfortable carrying my feelings that since this morning was not because of.

It felt like a long time ago I had a dream about Raidil standing beside me as he leaned over and lifted a little Hijab that covered my forehead with his index finger" You slept?" ask Raidil in my dream.

"you're beautiful Rii. smile often" she added as she blew the tip of my hijab and her forefinger walked towards my cheek.

I woke up from my dream and sat up straight with my heart pounding hard, my cheeks flushed with embarrassment as if the dream felt real.. I feel like it's very real.

I saw that in the classroom there were already some people who had come back from the break.

" Della hasn't come back yet?" ask me inwardly while looking at the classroom exit.

"you're okay, Rii" Raidil's voice asking and noticing made me a little jolted.

" Did he see?, but he did? it means he saw ..akhhh" I grimaced in my heart.

my hand spontaneously held both of my cheeks which started to turn red, I shook my head in response to her question.

"that dream" I said in my heart.

my heart was still pounding even harder because Raidil was still glancing at me in surprise.

I felt wronged, confused about what to do "why he was squirming so rich" I said in my heart.

" already dong Dil, I want his numbness" added in my heart once again.

***

I stood towards the exit leaving Raidil on his bench, After escaping from Raidil's sight from behind the wall near the classroom 'door, I thrust my body against the wall and slumped down crouching.

my heart hasn't even stopped beating so hard,

"I can't be rich" I covered my face with my palms.

" What are you doing there?" della asked while holding a bottle.

"let's go in" she added.

" just go ahead, I'm going to the library for a second" I said, rejecting Della's invitation to avoid Raidil in class.

"Well?" With a surprised face Della awaits my answer.

" I want to borrow a book, just wait in class" I replied as I passed leaving Della at the door of the class.

"already dong deg-deganya," I said while patting my chest.

Once I'm in the library, I stand in front of a tall bookshelf trying to eliminate my remaining heart palpitations, I write every book title with my index finger attached to every book I see.

sometimes I come here to find books I want to read, this place is also perfect for seeing Raidil while playing basketball on the court, that was when I didn't know she had a boyfriend '. "aihhh" I smashed my head into the bookshelf in front of me.

"Raidil again.. Raidil again." I said as I closed my eyes.

"you were yesterday, right?" the voice of someone I had heard from the side.

" ah kaka at that time" I said because I did not know his name.

" ahh Riri" said I welcome his hand.

" how is your shoulder?" Ask Brother Faiz.

"Oh Alhamdulillah it's okay brother" I replied briefly.

"What book do you want Rii?" he asked slowly while looking at the bookshelf in front.

" ah don't know, still confused" smiled thinly I replied.

" have you read this?" ask Mr. Faiz to give me a book in Mandarin.

"not yet" with a faint laugh I looked towards the book he was thrusting.

" try to read, this is exciting lo.." he added with a big smile.

"what is this book about?" ask me seriously.

" I don't know what this is about?" At once Faiz's reply made me laugh forgetting for a moment about my feelings for Raidil,

"You're 1st grade, right?" Ask Brother Faiz.

"Y sister." I answered briefly.

don't know why? I felt very familiar with Brother Faiz when I only knew him today.

After a long time in the library with Faiz's brother, I heard that the bell in class had rung.

"I go in first, brother" I said as I stood up from the library bench.

"yes, be careful" he said.

" be careful what?" ask me confused.

"be careful wrong to enter the class" he said with a sweet smile but not Raidil's samanis,

I laughed faintly and left Faiz's brother who was still sitting on the library bench.

"When do you know. but brother Faiz can be that friendly?" ask me in my heart in wonder.

Once I was in class Della suddenly embraced me "so long in the library, said she wanted a book, where's the book?" Della asked at once.

"haha" my laughter stiffened as I walked towards my bench.

" you why Rii?" della asked suspiciously

" why what is Del?" I sat down while sitting on my bench.

" I feel like there's something like that, you hide what the hell is Rii"? Della said as she looked at me inside.

I turned my gaze to the corner of every class pretending not to hear Della's words that made me confused myself.

And at least I can forget for a moment about my sadness, even if only for a moment because when I turn my face away from Della my gaze will still end on Raidil.

and once again I still can't forget my thoughts about Raidil,

even I feel like all my head is under control to think about it.

" hhh no no more" I said, closing my eyes shut.

" did I go back to the library?, but later I got angry with the guard "I wrestled with my mind in silence.

" you're a rich man possessed by Ri" said Della, hitting me on the shoulder.

"huh" I said glancing at Della.

" right.." said Della who made me even more confused.