First Love "In April"

MOVE AWAY

The atmosphere around me began to feel lonely, all that was left were my three best friends who were still staring with bitter and incredulous gazes.

"Udah dong crynya" said I to Lila who had earlier sniffled sobbing trus crying.

"It wants it, but it can't" he said.

"Rii.. Are you using a wheelchair? Ap-" said Ema cut off with eyes staring at me.

" No, I'm just not used to using my feet yet" said I who understood the direction of Ema's question.

"Ahh. thank you" said Della relieved.

"How are you?" ask me briefly.

" Please don't ask us while you know the answer" Della said.

" How can we be okay in circumstances that every day worry about you Rii, do not know your news and development" added Ema.

"I'm fine" I said, trying to calm them down a little.

"I'm grateful to see you guys for just a minute" I added.

"Awhile?" Lila looked at me questioningly.

"Besok Riri will return to Semarang, continue treatment and therapy there" said bang Farel explained.

" Aaaaaaaaarrrhhhhh" Lila grew hysterical when she heard Farel's explanation.

" Udah dong" I said trying to calm Lila with a hand that swept her tears.

" But you will come back here again Rii" asked Ema.

"God willing, doain I quickly recover completely" I said.

We had a close conversation like one year ago when I was in school with them, a lot of what they told me about everything that happened while I was away, so did I who also told all the stories about myself and the calamity that befell my family.

"Rii" Ema looked at me fixedly while tightly grasping my hand.

"Hmm?" I looked back at Ema.

"Rayden!".

"Ahh yes.. Then I want to ask, how is it? I haven't even told him yet, because my phone just broke, I tried using aunt Erna's phone, but I didn't go in" I said with eyes that sparkled expectantly waiting for their answer.

A few moments of silence they looked at me as if in confusion.

"Why?" I began to wonder at the attitude they showed.

" Ri's school transfer Raidil" said Della doubtfully.

"Moved??" I was shocked when I heard Della.

" Yes moved, even he may not know about the situation you are now Rii" said Della.

"He left before he could hear from your aunt who came here to tell the school" he added.

"Moving.. Where'd he move to?" ask me curious about the clear liquid that accumulates in my eye pelup.

" Jogja, at that time he was looking for you to the house and asked us where you were" said Della explained.

" And we really don't know about the circumstances and the news of you Rii because your aunt came about 3 weeks after the new teaching" added Della who finally made the clear liquid in my eye patch just fell.

"He looks like he's very frustrated" said Ema, who made me feel tight in the chest.

"Rii?" bang Farel made sure my man.

" Riri is okay" said my lying lips with a heart that cried first than my eyes.

"Are we going home?" ask bang Farel.

"Aa don't go home first, it's only a minute" Rengek lila.

"Can go home" added bang Farel.

"Yes, will we play tonight?" Remark Ema spirit.

And I answered with a nod of affirmation of Ema's wishes.

" I'll pick you up later" he added, staring at Della and Lila who nodded in understanding.

"Rii yok" asked bang Farel.

" Be careful, and wait for us later" said Ema.

Farel slowly pushed my wheelchair back towards the parked car not far from the mba Ita stall.

"Rii?" said Della.

"Hmm?"

Della ran small towards me on the tail of Lila and Ema, hugging tightly as if not letting me go to be given by them.

"You guys?" said I was cut off.

"Quickly healed Rii" said Ema who tightened her embrace

"Surely ma" I said briefly and slowly loosened their embrace until it came off

"Bey" my hands waved at them as I was already in the car.

" Are you?" said bang Farel who started the car engine and left the front alley of the school.

" ii... You're sure it's okay" asked Bang Farel who occasionally stared at me.

" How can Riri be okay?" say me with tears that keep flowing.

***

My heart felt torn and sore when I found out Raidil my loved ones, my first love just left without knowing how and what I was like.

Aaaarrrrgghh

"Why does it hurt here bang" I said with tears and a sobbing sound filled the car room that was driven by bang Farel.

"Aaaahhh... What else is this" I added with a chest-clapping hand that felt very tight.

" hurt.."

"It hurts so much!" I continued to moan at my pain and despair as I accepted the fact that I had not only lost my family but also someone who encouraged me to go this far.

"Aarrhh.. Raidil" said I'd like to make bang Farel pull over the car to stop.

"Crying as much as possible" said bang Farel trying to make me calm with his arms.

" Huhuhu for what Riri healed bang if everything was lost and left Riri"

" Dad, Mother, Zira even now Raidil"

"Sick bang.. riri is not strong" said I lirih.

"Yes... Brother knows, must be sick" said bang Farel who then tightened his embrace on me.

" Cry until you're satisfied, take all the pain out now" he added.

I kept shedding tears and hiccups until I felt tired.

"Well crying?" bang Farel looked at me who was so tired.

" Riri is dizzy" I said staring at the side of the road from inside the car's glass window.

" Yaudah.we go home" said Bang Farel.

Along the way I continued to hate the current state I was in, the tears kept flowing without me being able to wipe it out, my sadness became more and more obvious due to the pain of loss at the same time.

Too much time and time I missed.

Too few memories I can remember

hows it? What am I supposed to do?

And a lot of questions ran through my mind.

Even just thinking about it has made me feel enough pain that is getting sicker.

"Haha"

I took off my heavy breath which made a tightness in my chest.

"Raydill? I miss"

"What should I do?" I said while closing my eyes with Erat.