First Love "In April"
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I stood not far from Raidil who was waiting for me while leaning against the wall of the security guard post in front of the school gate.
My steps stopped but not with my heart, my hands were unceasingly sweating coldly from nervousness. "How can I meet him with this kind of feeling" I said in my heart.
I patted my chest with one hand clenched tightly trying to slow down at least a little bit of this beating.
Slowly but surely my steps finally arrived right in front of Raidil.
" uh Ri.." said the same nervous as me.
"finished?" back Raidil asked without me being able to answer.
Just to say "yes" my lips were locked tightly back, I really felt a tremendous nervousness.
In the end I was only able to breathe deeply.
"yuk I take you home" said her who tried as much as possible to look relaxed.
"no, I'm picked up by Dad" said I who clearly sounded nervous.
" your father picked you up here, I said you weren't finished and.." Raidil did not continue his words
"dan?" my timpal.
" and I volunteered to send you, rather than your father waiting a long time" he said.
" OMG" I said in a confused heart as to how I could deal with Raidil who had just given me a sweet kiss.
without me realizing it my cheeks began to turn red because they felt shame in the heart.
"Rii ayok" he said.
"ahh yes" said I who still sounded nervous.
Along the way there was only silence between us, occasionally Raidil issued small signals such as coughing and whistling so that there was no silence between us.
"Riii"
"Dil"
The words on behalf of the one we mentioned simultaneously made me feel nervous again.
"you go first" he said, holding his back to the steering wheel with one hand.
"no, you are" I said briefly by returning to pat my chest that still feels nervous because it still crossed the minds of smiles and warm lips Raidil who seemed to be a thick stamp on my cheeks at this time.
"consciously rii "said me inwardly while shaking my head.
"em.. I'm sorry about that?" said it.
"sorry?" Obviously I asked.
"kok sorry anyway? is he sorry?" ask me in my heart that makes me feel a little disappointed.
" don't ask for your consent" he said.
"oo-" is just that word coming out of my mouth.
"are you sorry?" I dare to ask.
Motor Raidil suddenly pulled over and stopped at the edge of the sidewalk.
"not that" he said as if trying to explain the apology he meant while trying to face me.
"that's not what I mean, not sorry to be sorry" he added, who appeared to be starting to panic.
"so?" my words began to chuckle at Raidil's confused behavior.
"sorry not to ask your permission first, play sosor only" he said slowly.
"Heat pineapple" I said without replying to Raidil's apology with a slight smile.
Raidil's motorbike again walked through the heat that afternoon.
"Rii" panggi Raidil.
"Hem?".
"what did you say?" ask me with eyes still focused on the road.
"later if you have nyampe house" I said.
Shortly after, we were standing right in front of the fence of my house.
While removing the helmet attached to my head Raidil smiled without me knowing what caused it.
"why?" ask me curious.
"Ahh no" he said with a smile.
"later yuk road" I said slowly while looking down embarrassed.
" huh what??" It was as if he did not hear the words I said with a mocking face.
"no" I said a little sigh.
"when did you hear that?" say me in my heart.
" haahaha. don't be so much that makim will be beautiful" said Raidil while gently pulling my nose.
"what the hell" I said briefly touching the nose that was pulled by Raidil's hand.
"okay, later I will pick you up here" he said with a big smile that can make me smile.
"I'm back" he said with a warm look.
"be careful" as I waved I looked at Raidil's back which started to drift away and disappear from my sight.
" okay Rii, we have to make everything certain tonight" I said to convince myself to give certainty to Raidil tonight, I really don't want to be selfish thinking only of my own feelings,
I don't want to feel regret for myself.
We walked in the park that we had been to, slowly but surely our steps went hand in hand with our eyes that both looked at the lights of the park that were brighter than the night sky.
"no tape?" asked Raidil while staring at me.
" you're cape?" back to me asking.
"how the hell, how even the nanya back" he said with a smile.
"yeah yuk" I clasped Raidil's hand with eyes looking for a nearby seat.
" where?" tanyanya.
"yes sit down" I smiled.
"okay here" I added.
"you why the hell? From earlier the rich spirit" asked Raidil astonished with a face as if showing the same happy taste with me.
"can't you?" ask me with a smile.
" no, I'm just curious" he said.
"do not be much curious" said I who was apparently misinterpreted by Raidil.
"why so much"Raidil looked at me with a very difficult gaze I interpreted.
"heyy... What do you think?" ask me who made our laughter split together.
"I guess" Raidil laughed with slightly flushed earlobes.
"good ya Rii" said Raidil with his eyes staring at the sky decorated with few stars but very bright.
"He em yes" with my eyes fixed on him.
"Raytil?".
"hem what?" His voice then turned his eyes to me.
"what are your goals?"the question just came out of my mouth.
"ideal? Emm what huh?" Raidil looked back at the sky with a serious look.
"danger!" suddenly said.
"What?" I was shocked to hear Raidil.
" richly I have no ideals" he said as if feeling frustrated.
Haha..
I laughed at Raidil's behavior trying to act funny.
"Rii, here" Raidil moved his position to lay down his body with his arms folded to his head as a pedestal on the well-preserved garden grass.
I slowly walked over and sat right next to him with my hands hugging both knees.
My heart started racing as I got closer to Raidil.
"not falling down Rii?" ask her.
"no" I said briefly.
"why?".
"I'm nervous again" I said honestly for the first time about what I was feeling right now.
It's like understanding Raidil isn't asking anymore.
feeling a moment of silence, I turned to glance at Raidil who was lying behind me to make sure he did not fall asleep.
"why?" the same question is repeated.
"Em it's okay "so I said with a thin smile that then I was most exposed from his gaze.
"Rii" Raidil woke up abruptly and held tightly to my arm.
"hmm" My heart involuntarily turned towards Raidil who was apparently so close to my face that it was inevitable that the hue of my face began to blush in front of the raidil.
the look in her eyes was fixed towards me, her usual sweet-looking smile changed with a gentle meaningful smile, her breaths also sounded very nervous at this moment.
"I love you" a very clear soft whisper was heard by me, then...
Cup..
A warm kiss landed on my lips, my eyes were wide in disbelief and my heart was racing so intensely feeling a sensation I had never felt before,
This is my first kiss.
My eyes closed just like enjoying the warmth that felt right on my lips, Raidil's hands cupped both of my cheeks which made his kiss even more profound.
The coldness of the night wind just passed by changing with the warmth that Raidil gave me.
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Uhuyy... Hayoo caught another smile ni yeeee, REMEMBER!! this kiss is not a kiss. Okeeeh😆 how are you Reader? may all amen be well.
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