First Love "In April"
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My cry broke with a still-restrained voice, my Raidil letter hugged tightly with a right hand squeezing hair.
The longing in my heart gave me a deep pain, the letter I read made my longing clump so great that finally the sound of bated crying turned into a soft voice filled with sedu sedan.
Aaarrrgghhh
Only a groan I was able to get out of my sobs.
With his hands still hugging the letter sheet that began to look shabby because I was squeezed in the chest.
"Rii... why?" ask aunt Erna who woke up from my crying.
Without answering I just kept crying in front of the rising morning sunlight.
"Rii... What was? once again aunt Erna asked me with a squatting position right in front of me.
"Tante, can Riri borrow a cell phone?" I said with tears still wetting my cheeks.
Aunt Erna ran over while clutching the phone in her hand.
" This is dear" she said, wiping my tears gently.
I dialed all the cell phone numbers on the back sheet of Raidil's letter.
My hands shook as I placed the phone right in my ears, my heart pounding with a stifled voice.
I was waiting for my phone call to come in.
Tut. tut's.
Disappointment approached me when I heard that tone.
I dialed the same number again with the same result.
Tears flowed again without a sound I'm still trying to dial that phone number.
Until I finally gave up.
Huhuhuhuhu
My cry broke again, with my hand still holding the phone,
" ii... Maybe the phone is dead, later we try again yes" entertain aunt Erna.
"What if the name will stay like this" I said by staring at aunt erna who looked confused.
"Try on, you have plenty of time baby" added aunt Erna who I'm trying to digest.
I rubbed my tears hard and tried to breathe deeply with a hand that supported my forehead.
"Udah Rii, don't cry anymore" I said in my heart.
"But, aunty take water first" said aunt Erna who then walked out.
"Aunty?" Call me to make aunt Erna's step stop and turn towards me.
" Semarang jogja far away?" ask me seriously.
" Dear don't be weird, jogja is broad" said aunt erna who made me speechless and thought.
"Tante stay first yaa" said aunt Erna who left me.
The rising morning sun and piercing the skin did not make me move from the side of the glass window.
My eyes looked at the sky that was starting to fill with white clouds and tried to think straight again.
My eyes shifted again to the Raidil box, where I saw a small pink package behind the little Raidil notes I had read.
When I touched it, it was part of the cople necklace that he had bought with me in a mall.
" Basic, it could be said to make an old man's gift" said my little one with tears that seemed to never end remembering the memories of the necklace in my current grasp.
***
7 months later.
"Hello, rii so no?" lila shouted from behind my phone.
" Yes so" I said while slightly distancing my phone from the ear.
" Okay, otw yaa" he said, which then disconnected.
" Bang says aunt, riri jalan sama temen-tenemen yaa" said I to bang farel who was sitting casually in the living room.
" Drugs" he said.
" Ehh yeah forgot "my mouth while running back to the room.
" Sibang titip martabak dong" said bang Farel.
" What's salty sweet? Ask me.
" Everywhere martabak ya asin rii, if sweet yaa bright moon dong" said bang farel reminded me of mother.
" Yes yes" I said with a slight smile.
" Aunty's still a long time coming home?".
" Kanya" sahut bang farel brief.
I waited for a black car to park right in front of my house
Thitt. thittt.
"Lift ya bang" I said as I reached for the fist of bang farel.
" He em" he said with eyes focused on his laptop.
I ran into Ema's car, the door was open.
" Uuuu is so beautiful" said Della.
" Smuck yaa" I said.
" Dih. di puji even in kira mocking" he said.
" Let's go" said Lila spirit, making us a little chuckle amused.
Dddrr... Drrr..
"Whose phone is that?" lila said while looking for sumbee sound vibrating mobile phone that we heard.
"Ehemm. must be Bebeb Faiz" led Della to Ema who has been dating Faiz's sister since half a year ago,
I was quite shocked when I first found out about their relationship, but on the other hand I was also very supportive of their relationship, given the attitude of Brother Faiz who was also very good.
"Haha singles" chirps Ema replied to Della and Lila.
" Songong kamret" said Della gomas.
" Why aren't you guys looking?" my many.
" Who wants to be like those who are rich?" said Ema glanced lazily.
"What are we doing?" ask Lila plain.
"One is fierce, one is a plot" added Ema laughing with satisfaction.
"Ihh Ema" whining lila made us laugh satisfied in the car.
Today we decided to take a little mind-freshing walk before struggling with the end-of-school exam that was as stressful as making it to my three friends due to the extra hours,
Of course I am the same, even though I homeschool now I still feel what they feel.
"My legs are pegel" lila complained.
"Ye eah new also a few meters la" said Della.
" What a meter, but this serious pegel" Lila again complained.
" Jaudah we eat first yuk, all rest." said Ema .
"Agree" lila said.
"Kan. the reason doang pegel, say aja hungry" added Della.
" Hehe, but the pegel is also really good" said Lila
I smiled faintly at the small debate between them.
"Exercise the rich gini" said Della.
" Not a sport, but JJS" said Lila.
"Where is the sir his faith?" lila asked with eyes looking for the whereabouts of the Ema driver's pack of faith.
"We just walk, deket" said Ema.
" Hahah thanksgiving" ledek Della loud.
" Aaaaa Ema, it's pegel" she said.
" Beauty!" Ema smiled broadly at Lila's temperament, as well as mine.
We walked on the sidewalk to a dining area not far from the city park.
" Uh.. I don't eat anything" I said.
" Lhoh why?" ask Ema to look at me.
" I'm full, you eat"
"Later catch up to me in the opposite garden" I added.
"Jaudah yes" said Ema understood.
" Don't go anywhere, wait for it" added Lila.
" Yes, yes" I said, leaving them to go to the park, the garden full of my memories with Raidil.
I stepped around the corner of the park just like when I was with Raidil, occasionally I smiled remembering the sweetness of the moment, holding hands and running small.
Now my feet are right standing in front of a chair that is often where Me and Raidil unwind after circling the park.
A thin smile was pinned on my lips not when some flashback about Raidil filled my thought space.
Sitting in a row with a cell phone in hand, almost every day I never miss to give a short message or a call to the number Raidil left behind his letter sheet first.
Tuttt's..
The voice is like a friend in my ears, almost every day will always be like that,.
Heeemmm
I lay my body on the grass of the garden, and again the warm memory of Raidil reappeared.
I smiled broadly with my left arm closing my eyes as I imagined how Raidil used to give me a warm kiss on my lips.
"The miss" I said in my heart almost every day.
Never for a second did I forget the beginning I liked it.
And every little memory I've ever had with him has been a force for me to continue to hold on to the same feelings until now.
I looked at the afternoon sky filled with white clouds that began to inflate while still lying on the lawn of the garden.
"Raidil, are you still the same?" ask me in my heart with a sad look full of hope.
Until this moment, I still choose to love you and close my heart to you.
Thank you for being the first person present to give and teach what love and longing mean.
I believe destiny will bring us back together in any way, so until then, I will continue to learn how to be patient.
If it is true that time is betrayed, I will not be angry or blame you, because time does not stay in one day.
He will continue to walk forward without turning around, even with you and your love that can change at any time.
If that happens, I will stick to the choice I love you in silence until in the end I am tired and want to stop.
I'd like it if your love is no longer the same.
But let Me endure a little longer until time and destiny bring us together, until I truly see that I am no longer in the shadow of your eyes.
I always hope that every day you are there always happy, live well and do not regret what has happened,
If time lets me go back, I'd like to say hello to you first in April that time to just say "hi.. I'm Riria alena, you?".
Thank you for my beautiful first love as beautiful as Arunika morning, Raidil.
THE END
