First Love "In April"

FEARS

The sunlight greeted me from behind the white curtains covering the glass windows in my room.

Feeling a bit of glare my hands spontaneously covered my eyes.

My thoughts immediately dawned on Raidil who I didn't know how he was last night.

"yahh.had not been answered" said I was disappointed with the hand holding the phone.

"when only trivial problems make him angry without listening to my explanation" said I wonder a little smile thinly.

"so sweet" added I still smile thinly and shake my head shadowing how Raidil's expression if I'm nearby by looking at his jealous face.

Tok...

"Rii.. Have you woken up yet?" my mother said from behind my door.

" already ma'am." I said while tidying up the blanket.

" jude, get ready, and we'll leave soon" said Mother who then passed away from me.

Finished with a blanket, I stood right in front of the glass window, I looked at the beach which was quite visible away from my eyes but did not change in the slightest to his senses.

"until I see you again sometime" said I smiled faintly.

" arrrhgghh.a quality vacation" I said as I stretched my hands.

I grabbed my phone still on the bed, and typed a short message for Raidil.

"I'm home today".

" don't forget to eat"

"love you"

" manti if I've sampe I'm telling you".

Then I walk to the bathroom, before I step, I took the time to stare at my phone screen hoping Raidil would reply to my message immediately until I finally took a breath trying to understand Raidil who might be busy and had not had time to see my message.

I did the same thing when I got out of the bathroom.

I throw my phone back on the bed and get ready.

Tok..

" Rii if it's done right down" said the mother behind the door that I haven't had time to say I'm back away.

After I was done with my business, I rushed down to everyone in the front yard.

" nih, hold Zira first yaa" said the mother who immediately gave zira to me.

" How's rii?" bang Farel.

" what?" I'm confused.

" your boyfriend" he said, which immediately made me understand the direction of the conversation.

" because of my brother, my message was not answered from last night" said I ketus.

"is he really angry?" bang farel.

" know ahh" I said.

" yee. You don't follow angry dong rii, right brother kidding".

" i'm sorry" he added, smiling at me.

" no" I said briefly.

" that can't be, as humans we're har-"

"yeah yes, no need to talk bang, not suitable" said I cut off the speech bang Farel.

"bang hold Zira first, Riri want to take the phone above" said I while handing Zira.

" don't stay long" he said.

I walked away from the Farel bang running small towards the room.

" almost forgot" I said, holding my phone.

" Em hasn't been answered yet" I said staring at the phone screen.

I walked down the stairs with a small bag of my clothes.

" Dear Zira, om ask for his helmet" woo bang Farel on the zira who continues to hold my bicycle helmet.

" why bang?" Ask me.

" this zira doesn't want to take off his helmet"

" where is it so strong again".

" it's new" said the mother who is still arranging the goods into the trunk.

***

Aunt Erna hugged me tightly as well as bang Farel.

" later if you've heard" said bang Farel with a hand that stroked my head.

" don't be angry again, I'm sorry" said bang Farel pinching my gnarled cheek.

" aww hurts" my ringis.

"you be careful" said aunt Erna staring softly at us.

" thank you er" said the mother while shaking the hand of aunt Erna.

" Yes together" they hugged each other warmly.

" It will be here again sometime" said aunt Erna who waved at us.

Dad drove the car out of the yard and rang the sound of a farewell horn to Aunt Erna in the arms of Mother who looked at Aunt Erna with a warm smile.

" how's rii? Played on the beach?" ask me with a gaze that focuses on the road.

" Thank God, thank you Dad" I said with a smile with zira who continued to invite me to play.

"Zira brother borrowed dong" sedu ku on Zira who still continues to play the bicycle helmet since he was at the house of aunt Erna.

" just aja rii, it will cry" said mother staring at me.

" But he keeps Riri's head down" said I gently with Zira who kept holding the helmet and trying to point it at me.

" you try to save her" said the mother.

I followed Mom's advice by letting Zira keep pestering me, I smiled every once in a while. Looking at my adorable little sister's behavior,

Click-click

The sound of a strap (rentention system) locking the helmet on my head.

" satisfied now?" I said as I pinched Zira's cheek which made her laugh.

Zira came back with her toy, while I leaned my head against the windshield of the car with the bicycle helmet still attached.

I reached for the phone in my little bag, staring at the screen hoping for a single message from Raidil

But nil, I took a breath I tried to think positively that Raidil was busy and did not have time to see his phone.

Raindrops began to fall on our way home.

Not feeling it has been almost 3 hours long trip that we missed, tired in my body a little felt, my eyes continue to look at everything that is seen outside the car window , My gaze turned to Zira who was getting sleepy beside me.

" drowsiness is beautiful" said I grabbed zira's head to lay it on my groin.

." the rain did not stop, the feeling was bright" said Father.

"the name is also weather well, where ever the rich feel" said mother with a faint laugh.

" This mother can" said Father who is still fokua on the road.

I stared out the window with my thoughts filled with my longing for Raidil.

Every now and then I smile considering the behavior of Raidil that comes to my mind.

" Well, we should not just pull over first, the rain is getting drier" said the mother who sounded a little worried.

" You can still see clearly kok ma'am" said Dad trying to calm mother's worries.

The car continues to go through the perbatasaan area,

My hands continued to gently caress Zira's hair that had just fallen into a deep sleep.

the trees on the roadside wet with rain can spoil my eyes which are very fond of the scenery.

Until finally the loud voices of Mom and Dad made my eyes clear and removed the smile on my lips.

"Yeahhhhh".

"God"

Bbruuuugkkkk... Bruuuggkkk... Bruuugkk

It was the last word heard in my ears from Mom and Dad.

The intense shock was painful.

I don't know what's going on, all I know right now is that I'm just holding Zira's hand tightly without looking and feeling anything but excruciating pain that I don't know where my body is.

The dark and splashing sounds of rain water were all I could hear and feel.

Everything blackened without me knowing what was going on.

"Mother's father, Riri's afraid".

" where are you guys?".

" Riri was afraid, why is it so dark here".

" Dad, Mom's quiet here too".

" Fearful Riri"

My sobs in the darkness made my feelings tremble even more in fear.