First Love "In April"
MATCHMAKING
Raidil smiled right in front of my face, while I was confused what to do?.
My mind went nowhere, it felt so abnormal for me to think straight.
I felt the air I was breathing getting thinner to the point that it felt so claustrophobic.
Raidil then moved away and confirmed his sitting position that was very close to me. While I was still breathing as much air as possible after Raidil moved away from my face.
"experiment" he said faintly in my ears.
" huh" the word came out spontaneously from my mouth.
" however I am a normal male Ri, a rich gini position when your parents are not around, we are just the two of us, quiet, lonely" Raidil explained.
"So the devil's nest "more.
I smiled at Raidil's words, I also understand the meaning of his words and am very grateful so far he has been able to hold it well, even though it is very difficult for him.
"so what does Caca say to you Ri?" back Raidil asked me.
" plis should not be covered" he added.
" he just said about your matchmaking" I said briefly.
I opened my eyes at Raidil who took a deep breath and leaned on the living room sofa with his hands around his neck.
"are you angry?" ask her softly.
"really?" back to me asking.
"emm... What if?" tannya
" yaudah" I said briefly with feelings that began to mix in my heart so it was very difficult for me to express the look on my face.
" it's true I'm in a match with Caca" said Raidil who began to aggravate my heart a little.
" even from small, but I don't want to" he explained.
"why?" ask me curious.
" yes, because I like you" he explained with a serious look.
"my betrothal to Caca occurred because of company problems and the cooperation of our parents, without being based on love, only limited to cooperation between family companies" he said.
I silently listened to all the explanations from Raidil, disappointed that there must be but not to Raidil but to his parents who made Caca and Raidil as his victims, even though the victims here are actually only Raidil, because Caca probably likes all of this too.
"Ri are you daydreaming again?"
"no" I said.
"How should I let you understand?" tanyakanya.
"I understand" I said with a slight smile on my lips.
" know what?" her asking made sure of me.
" already, don't talk about it" I said.
"why?"
" yes because I feel it is not the portion we make think to it, just walk first "my mouth.
" are you jealous?" tanyakanya.
"lying if I answer no, there must be but I know you like Me" I replied explaining to Raidil.
I read Raidil smiling at me.
"why?" ask Raidil who is still staring fixedly at me.
" just walk for a minute" he said.
" where?"
" yes the streets around here" he added.
" I change clothes first" I said standing up.
" no need, gini also you are beautiful" said Raidil still accompanied by a sweet smile engraved on his lips.
We walked together towards a ball field not far from my house, sitting together in a tavern near the field, both are staring at the field filled with children and adults who are playing football.
"I'm still thinking" said Raidil, still staring at the field.
" about what?" ask me.
" about my matchmaking with Caca, I'm still afraid you're misunderstanding" she said.
"i told you earlier, I don't think we deserve to think about what else you are in that position, I don't want to expect more from our relationship, I don't want to think of anything uncertain, I'm so grateful that I and you until now know each other's feelings, even without status. maybe today you still and only like me, but what about tomorrow, the day after tomorrow, 2 more years or 10 more years? can you be sure your feelings will stay the same?" say me.
"The heart can change, everything can change, me or you can change, no one knows how?
We are still in school, maybe even our parents think we are still children, it still feels very long to get to the thought of your matchmaking and Caca, we just walk first.
Raidil looked back at me.
"very chatty" he said while pinching my cheek with anxiety.
"aww "my ringis.
After that there was no more chatter about matchmaking and the others were there only we sat together enjoying a sad afternoon.
I hope time goes slowly, I don't want to grow up quickly, I don't want to feel the reality that might be bitter, I just want to enjoy every time I'm with Raidil, enjoying every beat of my heart that always beats fast only on Raidil.
Looking at the orange sky created from the sun that slowly disappeared westward, I stared fixedly at Raidil.My heart raced back as usual, my lips began to struggle with the heart, my heart began to struggle, want me to say "Raidil I really, really like you ".
but it only materialized in my heart, I still have a very hard time expressing that sentence.
Shortly after that Raidil began to notice my gaze on her.
"satisfied Ri" he said to me with a flirtatious smile.
"ih ge er" I said evasively by turning my eyes away.
"back yuk" he said
I stood up and walked right next to him.
" your parents haven't come home yet Ri" Raidil said as he watched the front yard of my house
" he em. kaya yes" I said.
"thank you Ri" Raidil entered the living room while tidying up his bag that was on the sofa.
"for what?" ask me.
" everything" said Raidil with a sad look.
"oh yeah, and sorry about that!" he added.
"so? which one?" my many.
"about the towel" he said turned his face with the earlobe that began to redden.
" I really didn't accidentally see...".
"stop" I said, cutting off Raidil.
"don't discuss it, it's not your fault anyway, I'm a careless one" I explained.
We went back for a moment trying to clear our minds.
" I'm going home Ri" he said.
"Ah okay" I replied awkwardly.
Raidil then walked out to his motorbike parked right in my yard.
" Ri, no matter what happens, I hope you can trust me" said Raidil, who was standing right in front of his bike, staring at me.
Hearing those words I just nodded affirming Raidil's words.
"sampe met at school tomorrow, and the spirit is also the test" he added.
"you too" with a smile I waved my hand looking at Raidil's back which started to drift away and disappear from my sight.
