First Love "In April"

STEAL

After a long moment of silence I thought about what I should say, I tried to courageously answer and looked at Raidil directly.

" you know how I feel, and vice versa, but for me if you have to immediately establish a relationship whose name is dating I'm not ready" said I seriously look into Raidil's eyes.

Raidil fell silent and was still trying to listen to what I wanted to say.

"I'm not ready if I have to be your limiter in everything, I'm not ready to feel excessive jealousy, and I'm afraid it's all because it's out of my control" I continued.

"I'm afraid I'll only hurt you" I added as I looked towards Raidil.

I was nervous that the outside could say all that, I'm afraid my honesty this made Raidil feel pain earlier.

I silently turned my face towards the highway, preparing to hear what Raidil was going to say.

Raidil rested his back on the chair and exhaled with relief.

" maybe this is what makes me love you more Rii" he said as he looked up at the night sky.

" yaudah.we just walk first, we know each other even without attachment" he said with a tone of voice that seemed relieved.

I also felt the same relief as her, I was afraid that Raidil would be hurt for what I said.

"but.." he said, staring at me.

"what?" ask me confused.

" even though we are not bound by courtship status" said Raidil hanging.

"hmmm" I looked confused.

" I won't let you get taken or have someone else" she said, bringing her face closer to mine so I could feel her breathing,

my hands spontaneously grasped the chest where my heart was beating unstable.

My eyes unblinkingly looked at Raidil's gentle gaze and my feelings grew even more mixed as the distance between our lips was also very close, maybe with just one move he'll be able to steal my first kiss, but I hope Raidil doesn't do that to me.

I kept my head away to avoid my thoughts that started traveling everywhere, Raidil just returned smiling as if he knew what I was thinking.

" I won't be weird Kok Rii" he said while confirming his sitting position that was more inclined to approach me.

"other than me, who are you close to?" ask him relax.

" emm there is no "my speech is short while justifying my sitting position.

" Faiz at the time?" ask her a little.

" what is ?" I told him confused.

" That time nawarin you come with him home" he explained.

" I'm not that close to Faiz" I explained.

" but why is that? jealous right?" add me while smiling at Raidil.

" what the hell, yes not dong" replied his self-defense.

" alah.gaku, at that time you never nanya gini also continue to mess around" the more I mocked him.

" no Rii.. I'm just nanya aja" she said with the ear leaves slightly reddened by blushing embarrassed.

I laughed off seeing Raidil's behavior trying to cover up his jealousy on Faiz's brother.

" it's so pretty" said Raidil who suddenly made me stop my laughter.

"go home" I said as I held my cheek that began to heat up.

" yes, yes... Later also I bring people's children" he said by always accompanied by a sweet smile.

***

Today's date ended with me coming home to her,

"come in first" said I told Raidil to come in and then he walked right behind me.

" Assalamualaikum om" Raidil greeted Father who was sitting on the front bench of the house while reading his book.

"Waalaikumsalam" said Father who moved his glance from the book towards us who had just come.

" i'm sorry about Raidil taking the road Riri later" said Raidil politely.

" thank you for being returned intact" said Father with a smile glancing at me.

" Dad."." said me in a slightly anxious tone.

" have you eaten?" ask Raidil.

" it's already om" said Raidil.

" Thank God if you have, it happens that inside there is nothing" said Dad with a plunge while laughing,

I was silent at Dad's old joke, while Raidil smiled at what Dad said,

" i want permission to go home" said Raidil.

" h yes. be careful" said Dad.

I drove Raidil back to the front of the gate where Raidil's motorbike was parked.

" thank you Dil" I said.

" I should have said that" he said.

" and sorry about Dad "more.

"why? Your father is cool, rich I would prefer to your father than you Rii" he said with a smile at me,

" i'll call you later Rii, I'll go home first, see you tomorrow at school" she added, winking her left eye at me.

Raidil passed by leaving my house, and my eyes as usual would be fixed on him until he was completely out of sight.

" had seen it, less all day" said Dad again mocked me.

" what the heck yah. ngeledek Riri mulu" I said,

and Dad just smiled at my voice.

" where have Ri been all day" Dad asked me.

" just sit in the park, eat it out sit in the Square" I said honestly.

" it's time to just go there" Dad's getting more and more attached to me.

" Emang Riri has to go where the hell well" said I was anxious to Dad.

Dad just laughed off because he was satisfied with my torment.

" already ah ..Riri came in Well" I said as I passed leaving Dad who was still busy reading books in the outside chair.

Arriving at the door of the room I saw Mom was busy cleaning the dining table,

I threw my bag on the bed from my front door, and I walked towards the dining table where Mom was standing.

"Where's zira ma'am?" ask me while helping my mother clean up the leftovers of the dishes and glasses after eating.

" just went to sleep, you've eaten yet Ri" asked the mother.

" it's mom" I explained.

"let me take a bath" said the mother, telling me to leave.

" Here is Riri aja who is holy ma'am, I'm just resting" I said as I grabbed some plates in Mom's hand.

" you're Ri" smiled thinly Mother sent towards me.

" Your father is still outside?" ask Mother.

" yes ma'am, read a book" I said.

" yaudah, I'm going ahead and I want to nyamperin Daddy".

" Yes ma'am".

Mother left me, and I quickly finished the Work I was doing.

I went back to thinking about Raidil, and by myself I was confused by what I told Raidil.

" your base Rii, courting even answer that" said the demon in my heart.

It was as if I wanted to regret all my decisions.

"what the hell do you want Ri?" sanku.

I'm just trying not to be greedy, maybe with this decision I can get to know Raidil as he is, and can better focus him even without strings attached.