First Love "In April"
REALNESS
The screams in the classroom were suddenly silent when they heard Caca express her feelings, she said,
" how's Dil, what's your answer?" caca asked.
I heard all of Caca's words but did not dare my eyes look at them, "Caca is beautiful, Raidil is also ahkk" I said in my heart with annoyance.
" Sorry Ca. I can't, I also have a boyfriend anyway" replied Raidil who I heard without seeing him.
" Ahh it turns out that he already has a girlfriend, besides there is no way a rich man Raidil single, something impossible" I said back from the inside of my heart as I bowed my head to the table.
"Have a girlfriend? Who?" Caca asked in a surprised tone that Raidil did not answer.
" Well." My classmates simultaneously said that as a sign of concern for Caca's love.
Walking straight Caca towards his seat in the front row without looking back,
Dull sour look of his face that I see, I look back at Della who is also still with her face urgency.
"would I be like them if I started first" I just asked in my heart as I breathed with my shoulder leaning against the chair.
Raidil was already sitting on his bench, occasionally the tip of my eyes glanced in his direction.
" he already has Rii's girlfriend, it's over" my heart resuscitated me.
a little teary-eyed knowing the reality I just heard from Raidil. I returned the lyrics of Raidil who was opposite my bench, and accidentally I saw Raidil also occasionally staring at me, Raidil,
" pliss don't look at me, don't look back at me," my ringist in heart.
I tried to be okay after knowing the truth.
my cheeks began to feel hot, and in my eyes began to feel tears that were ready to come down my cheeks, but as hard as possible I tried to hold it.
***
The last bell clock has rung indicating that today is over at school, I step my foot towards the school gate and drift in daydreams.
"Rii... Riri" shouted someone from behind and still sounded far away.
even if I did not heed the call, because my mind was only focused on the fact that Raidil already had a lover.
"Brukk.." My shoulder was hit by someone from the opposite direction and all the books I held in my hand were scattered on the ground.
"eh sory, I was in a hurry to not see the road" he said, helping me tidy up my book that had fallen on the ground.
" Are you okay?" she asked quietly while watching me to make sure no one was hurt.
" Well, it's okay" I replied slowly because I realized I might be wrong because of daydreaming.
"Rii.. Why are you"? Ask Ema and Lila who ran then followed up also with Della.
" You were called out to not know Ri" said Lila who had called my name from a distance.
" know Riri" Della seemed to justify.
"Well anyway" with a faint smile I replied with still thinking about Raidil.
" I'm sorry again, yes, "and as someone who ran over me left me with my friends, he still turned to me every now and then as he walked away.
" who is Ri, really handsome" Lila said with a grinning smile.
" Don't know, maybe the upperclassman" said me while cleaning my books that fell down earlier.
" Huuu if you're that... Laa, everything is handsome, the monkey jumps are also said to be handsome" taunted Della with a laugh.
" Something hurts Ri" Ema asked worriedly.
We walked together to the place tongkrongan mba Ita while waiting for an invitation, I leaned on the side chair of the mba Ita stall facing the exit of the school alley, the feeling today makes me tired. in my head and mind was only full of Raidil, the pain I got from what I saw and heard in the class was able to make me fall immediately.
I took a deep breath and then I exhaled, "ahh" still thinking about the reality I know about Raidil.
" nih Rii, Avocado you" while offering a drink Avocado whipped mba Ita passed.
I drank my drink and I accidentally saw Raidil piggybacking on someone behind him.
" raidil's girlfriend?" Ask in my heart.
"yet this soon I should know who it is" I cried in my heart.
" can't be one-on-one that's it, Ahh she's beautiful, her rich isn't a generation" I grumbled to myself.
" Eh that's Raidil right, wihhh her girl is more beautiful than Caca, pantes aja if Caca is rejected" said Della further aggravate my heart that began to overblown .
" The Raidil chick's butterfly, Caca's cocoon, while I'm her leaf caterpillar" I said in my heart while holding back tears.
and I accidentally hit my two legs together because I was worried about myself.
Lila, Della and Ema simultaneously turned towards me in confusion" You why Rii?" ask Ema wonder.
" tau ah" I replied briefly as I sipped my drink back.
" Want to come the moon times" Lila replied, and they laughed mocking me for suddenly acting strangely.
If they knew what I'm feeling right now, it might just be a plumbing material,
like what Della experienced today.
I would be very embarrassed if that happened, mentally I was very weak to withstand the pressure of the three of them.
" anyaan Raidil also did the heck use directly bring the girl in front of me" said I inwardly irritatedly,
" why not tomorrow?, or the day after, but better not at all" I added in my heart.
"but that's also her right, right, who am I? you are" still grumbling in my heart,
And again accidentally my legs back stomping until making the table mna Ita join tejentak.
"Rii. are you sore?" ask Ema.
" what's out?" said Lila.
" want me to find a sanitary pad" Della added.
" aaaaa. y'all talk make me more sensitive to know" said I with teary eyes.
" cup.cup.yaudah here.. I just puffed up" said Lila as she patted my shoulder.
" plis deh La. do not need to be more and more nambukin" I said.
" but how come it's faster? usually you're the end" said Lila,
" hhh yeah, I should have just been You Ri" added Della.
"aaaa. y'all why be on PMS anyway" said I irritated.
" what are you doing besides PMS?" ask Ema wonder.
" know ahh" I answered briefly
" it really wants this PMS" added Lila.
