Dollar Girl

Chapter 38 Peace With Heart

"It is not easy to decide, especially the heart problems that have been waiting for a long time. Nor do I give up but sometimes feel tired, like chasing the moon on earth.Where I go he will follow but too far for me to hold unless I can go into space. You are not a mistake, only I have decided to be honest with my heart. So now, with a smile I let go of the opportunity to reach you, hopefully when we meet again our smile does not change even though the possibility of my heart has changed."

Excerpted from Ratna Mangalih's personal archive.

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Proudly Ratna showed the value she got to Ardi, it was not in vain he contemplated himself in the room for a few days just to make a poem. Without noticing the pair of eyes were staring at him since earlier, ever since he started standing in front of the classroom.

The gaze of those eyes belonged to Amus, looking at him with mixed feelings recalling all the things they had passed together. The poem that Ratna read seemed to reprimand her inability to express feelings, the poem also reminds her of Yati's words to start approaching Ratna as a man if she really wants a relationship that is more than just a friend.

As a man he realized too cowardly, if this continues there is a possibility Ratna will give her heart to others. From now on, he was determined to fight even more so that Ratna realized his feelings.

Ratna still rambles to boast of her value without caring even though Ardi is no longer interested in it, there are other things that attract her attention.

Such a carefree smile and laughter sounded, his status could have been dating another girl but his heart remained for Ratna. The poem read by Ratna earlier made him realize that if he had to try more to conquer Ratna's innocence.

They have been close enough as a man and a woman since working together, several times they are in an awkward situation and quite romantic but did not make Ratna aware of Ardi's feelings.

He did not intend to rush because in the eyes of Ardi Ratna is not a figure that can be invited to date, even so he will not be silent.

Ratna herself has now made peace with her heart, the feeling of joy that is secretly in her pendam to Amus will remain there but without the effort of approach.

Given that he has entered the final phase of SMP life struggle that is actually just starting, he must focus on learning first to face the national exam later.

He has decided to put aside the problem of love, his main goal is now to prepare for entry into High School.

In the following days Ratna surprised her gang friends by spending time resting in the library, she also rarely gathered and even refused a food party for the sake of learning.

Sapardi was very happy to see the perseverance of Ratna but not with his three friends, they felt lost because there was no longer a child who used to enliven the atmosphere.

That afternoon, Amus who was confused looking for an excuse to talk to Ratna was quite surprised to see Ratna out of the house when the sky was so cloudy. He waited until Ratna walked forward and at the same time Amus went out making it look as if they had accidentally met.

"Where are you going?" ask Amus.

"I'm going to the bookstore, my English dictionary is ugly and incomplete so I'm going to buy a new one"

"It's late in the afternoon, why didn't you leave?" hardik Amus's.

"I just remembered, I'm gone!" ratna answered, which then passed.

His eyes then found another more interesting book, in the end he instead spent time there just to look around the book. When he decided to go home the rain had already fallen, he who did not bring an umbrella was forced to stand outside while waiting to subside.

"What are you doing?" ask someone to him.

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A few minutes passed after Ratna's departure rain fell rapidly, the wind blew strong to make the windows of the house Amus moving closed open. His heart began to worry when he remembered Ratna leaving without an umbrella, he could already think Ratna must be stuck in a bookstore waiting for the rain to stop.

The feeling of worry that makes him move away while carrying an umbrella, on a twilight day it will be quite vulnerable for a girl if it is outside the house, especially in this weather.

Along the way he tried to think of a logical reason for Ratna not to be suspicious because it was not the way to be frank, but he had not yet come from far away he could see Ratna standing outside the store in the company of Ardi.

They seemed to be joking without realizing his presence there, with lethargic steps Amus decided to go home because there was no point he continued the journey.

"What's wrong?" ardi asked as Ratna suddenly saw an empty road.

"No, it's just that someone was watching me"

"You're kidding! in the rain like this there's nobody else but us here, maybe it's just your feelings"

"Yes.maybe" replied Ratna quietly.

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Although he was not soaking wet but after arriving at the house Amus still took a bath, while drying his hair with a towel turned on the radio to change the mood that is not good.

"Hello FM friends are back again with Fiki here with the cool air from the rain that flushes the city and its surroundings, what is the story today? FM Friends can tell at 089xxxxxxxxx via SMS or phone.

Usually the rain always brings a melow atmosphere, suddenly remembered the former or the LDR-an can pour your longing here. We continue to read the SMS that has been entered there is Mita in the room, hello Mita! 'Brother Fiki I want to tell you a little about my best friend, he's a jolly person and is in love but can't express his feelings. Suddenly he said he was going to bury his feelings and focus on something else, I want to say hello to my best friend, hopefully he hears me and pray for him, hopefully at the end he can express his feelings. Want to request also Jamrud rainbow in your eyes that I present to him, thank you brother Fiki.

Wow... interesting story yes, it states that feeling is not easy and it takes mental readiness as well. Then for you there Fiki presents, Jamrud."

Music began to play over the radio in Amus' room, a song that was quite representative of his current state. But one thing that attracted more attention was the name of the sender of the SMS, there is a possibility that person is a classmate of the secretary.

If that's true, he's quite wondering who Mita's best friend is. Is that him? if true, then it is quite surprising why Mita knows his heart when he never told about his feelings to anyone. There was precisely during this time Amus tried to cover it from everyone.