Dark Princess

I Love You

Jade Viewing Angle

"I love you..." I can't hold back those words anymore. Just come out of my mouth. He should know now. I can't wait another time to say it. The eyes were glued, then moved. Eyes glazed.

"I love you..." She whispered back to me and showered my face with a kiss until I laughed. In that short time, I felt an incredible peace of heart. The burden that I formed myself in the form of false guesses and all this time I kept in my heart, was loose and gone. I found that the relationship between two people must indeed be maintained by working together. All the presumptions I had saved could simply be lost because of the trust that with hard work he was trying to realize with loyalty. It takes an attitude of the heart that is willing to believe, welcome and reply with the same frequency. If you can, more than it gives. Maybe it was my turn to pour out all the love he wanted. I'm not going to waste this guy. A man I might never find in any part of the world again.

He fell asleep soon after. He's got jet-legs and looks tired. I spent an hour just enjoying her face, the most beautiful view of any beautiful place in the world. The face looks peaceful. He was the real angel who was sent to me and saved me. Promise and determination were spoken from my lips, never to let him suffer because of me again. I will fulfill all his requests. Married and ready if she wants to take me anywhere she wants. Even if she wanted our baby, I would fight to make that dream come true. Of all the people in my life right now, he is the place I can rely on the most to depend on, I will rely on him under any circumstances. I kissed her cheeks before I fell asleep.

It was past breakfast and lunch time, he was still sleeping. I've finished my daily routine including reading the unfinished book that she used to read to me. He didn't come today, probably because Earnest was here. So I just continue reading by myself. Maybe after this, I won't need anyone else to read me a book. A lot of other things, I'll do it myself. Earnest should be proud to have a reliable lover in every way. The time for silence in the dark and mute is over. It's time to shake off all those memories and start a new life.

After pondering for a long time, I wondered, am I going to call her mama? Mammy? Or is it the Korean way? But why does it feel so strange? Something was stuck in the corner of my heart. It's very hard to say that word. I tried to practice it myself still feels awkward, especially if I have to say the word in front of him. Relax Jade. There's still time. Keep training, you can. 

And what about her husband? He calls himself my papa. Should I call papa? But the same, it feels very strange. Is that how I became a brother with Gaia? Ah, even stranger. I can't identify what feeling I'm feeling. Various new emotions raged in my mind.

But I can't wait to finish everything that's going on. I can't be forever mute and not talk to them. And to talk to them, I have to have the call I'm supposed to. I need to talk to Earnest. He probably had an idea of how those things should be done. He could definitely teach me because calling papa or mama was a normal thing for him. I have to make peace with everyone so that I can move on with my life to the next phase. If I thought about getting married and having a baby, I should have lived well with everyone, right? Must. I thought I would never be able to part with Earnest again.

I looked at his face that was still sleeping. He hasn't even had breakfast and lunch. Naturally, he flew from a very far place after working on many things. Not to mention the jet lag she experienced from that trip. I steal kisses every once in a while, as soft as I can, so that she doesn't wake up to my touch. But I'm waiting, it's almost dinner. He shouldn't have missed that one. Dinner first then sleep again, I plan to suggest so. I touched her cheek with my index finger.

"Daddy.." Call me in a whisper.

"Wake up..." While walking her cheeks. But he didn't move at all. I kissed her cheek again.

"Let's get up first, have dinner, and then go back to sleep. You missed 2 meals today. Wasn't good. Come on daddy, get up.." She finally moved, snorted out a laugh and took me into her arms.

"Mmm. Wait a minute, about 5 minutes, stay like this dear. Can I hear that call again?" He muttered still with a sleeping voice.

"Daddy?" I'll call with as much as possible. He chuckles.

"Ah.. I feel very good now. The way you woke me up was the best. Again dong.." Whisper.

"Daddy.." I repeat in the same tone.

"Well so. Tau right? I've been missing that word for 470 days waiting for you. Come on, say it again, if it can be hundreds of times..." I giggled and stopped. Trying to get my body out of his arms. He ngawur.

"No need to ah. That's mostly..."

"Belvin. Wrong yourself, why forget yesterday-yesterday said that. I will not wake up. I can sleep till tomorrow, you know..." He threatens.

"Daddy.." I whined and pinched the part of his body I could reach with my hand. He laughed and kissed my hair.

"OK deh. I'm up now. But take a shower first... What's the menu for dinner?" Still hugging my body tightly.

"mmm... There is beef soup, grilled fish, vegetable soup and other side dishes. Daddi will have to eat healthy and delicious, so quickly return his energy. Or does daddy cake eat a certain dish? Let me report to the chef now, it can be prepared during the daddy shower..."

"I like everything you say, baby. But wait, who decides the menu?"

"I asked..."

"Who are you talking to?"

"Missy..." He hugged me tighter and kissed me.

"Good darling. When did you talk to Nanny?"

"Since this morning..." I answered while giggling. I am proud to receive compliments.

"Cool. What did nanny say? He must be surprised..."

"Little bit. Keep crying and hugging me... Say, glad I said."

"Good job baby... My heart's lover is cool. See right? We're all waiting for this moment. I suspect that Mama Kim must have heard this news by now. I haven't checked my phone yet, could be on the phone..."

"Should I call you mama?" I asked that question. He loosened his embrace and looked at my face, watching my face closely.