Dark Princess

Ragu

I fixed his shoes on the shoe rack. He refused my arms as usual. Go straight into the room, put her suitcase and handbag in the closet area and then into the bathroom. He had to wash his face and hands, take off his jacket, just dare to hug and kiss me. I chuckled following him from behind.

He had just arrived from the airport, after 4 days of work at the head office in Singapore. While waiting for her to clean up, I served hot tea on the table. Then start opening the suitcase and the bag to clean. I separated all kinds of clothes that had to be sent to a special laundry for dry-clean and clothes that could be rinsed in a regular washing machine. Then put the other stuff in its place. I found a light green jewelry box. And I felt her hands wrapped around my waist, hugging me from behind.

“For You... Open..” His whisper. I smiled happily. Usually, always bring something home every time you travel. I opened it and found a beautiful diamond bracelet. But for me, whatever he gives, I'd be very happy to accept. The problem is, I'm confused about having to pick up those things. I'm not someone who likes to go anywhere. Be beautiful and expensive things neatly arranged as a display. Waiting wear. But the one who had never had the idea to go anywhere in order to wear those things.

"Don't like?" He whispered again. It was just a pleasantry. He knows I don't like to be bought with fancy things. But I won't pretend to please her. I closed the box. I turned around to face him and enjoyed his gaze which I had longed for. Every time I make out that way, I realize one thing, that I haven't even said the word: 'I love you'. Then I decided I had to say it that day. But somehow, opportunity after opportunity just passed. And my tongue is still muddy.

I enjoyed the view, he was so handsome. I cannot avoid, negative thoughts are often tucked away. Sometimes wondering if she ever had another woman when away from me? I spent a few moments investigating through her appearance, but she was still the same. He's in love. The look in his eyes could not lie, he was still the same man who set out to leave me 4 days ago. I tiptoed, grabbed her lips and kissed affectionately. His expression changed. It was as easy as making her happy.

"i like. Thank you..” He kissed my lips.

“But you know I don't need it, stop doing it..” He smiled broadly.

“I knew you'd say that. But I'm still going to bring beautiful things to this house. I'll even bring the whole world to you.” Said. That's ridiculous. I narrowed my eyes and looked at him pretending not to accept. He smiled at my expression. He knew that I would not easily believe his sweet words. But he still does.

“I want to know...” I tried to arrange the most polite sentence. He was waiting for my word.

"Did you meet a beautiful woman there, so you wouldn't be lonely?" I tried to ask carefully, but to no avail. I have to satisfy my curiosity. He's wide-eyed.

“Hei Jade, that question is a little far dear. You doubted me? Well, there's a lot of women there. Only you can make me feel like a perfect man. That's why I try to get home as soon as possible every time I travel. I just want you..."

"Really?"

“Mmm... Before you were here, I would spend a whole week each time visiting another branch, or even more. Because I don't think it's important to go home, whichever it is. No one was waiting for me there. You need to get ready. They noticed the change in me. They suspect that I have a boyfriend. As soon as your search for origin is complete, we will announce our relationship blatantly. And... Marry me..” Don't know when my business will be finished. But I felt something stuck in my chest every single question popped out of his mouth.

I broke away from her embrace and tried to organize my words. He caught something strange. Pulling my body back closer to her, framing my face with her hands and looking into my eyes in full search.

"What's Jade? Did anything happen while I was gone? Drey hasn't reported anything to me. It means everything is fine, right?”

"Mr.Lee...” I muttered, not consciously calling his name formally. He chuckles.

“Ya mrs.Lee..?” I smiled when I heard it. Then I reorganized my attitude.

"Can't you call me by call baby?” He's asking.

"Example?" I really don't know what to call him. Because he's much older, at least 10 years old. Should I call daddy? He does act like a sugar daddy if I look at the negative glasses. What the hell?! I am am tickling myself with the way I think. I laughed, the term made me feel a bit horrified.

"Why laugh?" She's curious. I bit my lip trying not to say what I was thinking.

“You must have thought of something strange, right?” I'm silent. He kissed my lips and sucked them gently for a few seconds. Then back to his curious expression.

“I was just thinking of calling you daddy. Because you're so attentive and caring for me, you also meet all my needs. But when I looked for the reason, I found the word sugar daddy. Isn't it funny? That's why I laugh.” He laughed, happy.

“I'm not sugar daddy Jade, stop that stupid thought. I was 34, still young. I'm still a bachelor anyway. But I'm happy with the call. Call me daddy.” He looked at me expectantly.

"really? Isn't that weird?” I'm ascertaining.

"Not at all. In my ears, it is the most affectionate call in the world. I'll call you mommy if we have a baby later after marriage.” He stopped and looked at me. I felt something strange when he said that.

“Mmm.. I mean, daddy mommy is the usual name called between husband and wife. What say?"

"good. But I like it when you call names, or honey, or honey. Don't mommy..” He chuckles, feeling ticklish. That sounds a little weird.

"alright. I'll do as requested. What was the time to call Mr. Lee?" He's back on the previous agenda. I looked into his eyes. For a moment I doubt. I hugged him. With my embrace, his hands wrapped around my body and rubbed my back gently. Provides a calming effect.

“Let's stop that search. I don't need to know who I am..” Ja. Because I'm scared. The more he tried to investigate, the more I was haunted by fear. I'm sorry I ever begged for his help in that search.

"Try the case, why?"

"I don't know. I feel very anxious. I'm afraid that we'll find something unexpected.” He kissed my head and hugged me tighter.

"Is it really okay to stop?"

“Mmm. Leave this city.” He still didn't stop rubbing my back.

"But I have to finish this, baby. So that later there will be no regrets. I promise, I'll take you away from here after finding the answer. Whatever the outcome will be, we'll go far..."

"Why not just stop?" I looked at him begging.

“Because you said you would only marry me if we were done with this.” He said seriously. Ah, yes, I remember saying that.

“What if something scary really happened that time? I'm not ready at all. Can't you just marry someone else? I've been happy just to be your girlfriend.” Isn't that a stupid statement? But for me, it's a safe way to play. I'm really not prepared for any bad facts. And whatever the facts are, I'm even more afraid that it will make him leave me. I better not know forever.

She kissed my forehead, I felt her soft and warm lips touch my skin for a long time. As if to drain all the power he had to calm me down.

“That's a stupid idea, baby. I want us to be together always. Why should I marry someone else?”

“What if we find something scary, like. I mean, will it make you leave me? I was too scared. I like it this way. It's better that I decide that you leave me, than that I wish to be with you forever but you'll still leave me. Can we do it that way?" He hugged me tighter.

“That was Jade's wrong thought. You are the most important thing to me. Remember that well. Under no circumstances will I leave you. Let's finish the search. I'll be here with you, no need to be afraid. That's decision. Okay?" I wrapped my hands hugging her body, I hugged her tightly. I wanted to tell her how scared I was to lose her.