Dark Princess

Wait around

Jade is alive. He lay in a coma for 2 weeks after recovering from a severe hypothermia condition. After waking up, he did not speak and his gaze was blank. There was not even an impression through his expression if he knew us or not. From Denise I knew that Jade was back in her 14-year-old state, just silent and staring blankly. But there was something different, sometimes he cried and laughed for no reason. Then silence, showing a flat face with no expression.

In this process, we can only wait. A lot of things Denise tried to get straight. The first thing was, she took on the role of mama, whom she had long since let go. She took over Jade's life with her husband's permission. Jade occupies a luxurious villa, where Denise and I met and talked about Jade for the first time. To be more precise, Jade was hidden there. Her whereabouts in the house were known only to Denise, her husband and I. Also doctors, psychiatrists and nurses who took turns came to check his condition. At that time I knew he had prepared the house if there was a chance Jade would come back to him. He was the person he was waiting for to occupy that house. But unexpectedly, the way Jade returned to her was exactly as she had thrown Jade away. In a state of unwillingness to live.

The doctors said that Jade was having a great shock. Such a state of affairs, will inevitably happen, sooner or later. It would be better if he were left alone in that palace and lived his life as it had been designed for him, without having to be derided by a new understanding that was completely foreign to him. Jade cannot accept herself in the new concept of values and norms. The fact that he lived in a different world, from a world he could finally remember that, left him perplexed. And that puts a lot of pressure on his mental state. Jade takes time to process both information and ultimately rests on reality and accepts herself.

Now I understand why it's easy for Jade to make a decision in her life. His innocent and naive behavior had a reason. Even though the decision had a bad influence on him. Because for Jade, the most important thing was, she could live life quietly without bothering. He tried to avoid himself from the tangled threads created in the midst of society, because he did not understand the pattern, and did not want to force himself to be at a high complexity that he did not like. When he gets into a relationship he doesn't like Gaia. Also when he met in a way I shouldn't.

I feel so devastated. At times like this, it would have been easy to live if all the rumors about Earnest Lee were true. A brash man and likes to get drunk and play women. By doing so, it might be helpful to forget about Jade. But not so the story. With Jade, half my soul died. My conscience says, the right thing for me to do is to be by his side and accompany him until we both discover Jade's true identity. Till when? None of us know. Even the doctors could not give an exact date, until when Jade would be in such a state. When he was 7 years old, it took him 2 years to process everything around him. Now then? I don't know. We can only wait.

I used to visit just to get a blank stare from him.

The car goes into the yard. My eyes were fixed on a room on the 2nd floor. The thin vitrase curtain still allows the naked eye to see what's inside the glass window. As usual, the shadow of Jade who was standing staring out the window was there. That pretty girl hasn't changed at all, she's still the most beautiful woman I met last year. I hoped that when I entered the room, he was still standing there, moving around the room and welcoming me. Hurry me down from the car, get into the house and climb the stairs that are not small. As soon as I opened the room door, she was already lying down and closing her eyes. I let out a breath. My hope is not fulfilled at all.

I approached the bed and fixed the blanket to cover her body. I kissed his head and sat down next to the bed. Just tell me about whatever happened that week to me, or just read a book.

I have confidence, that he is processing the events around him. From the story she wrote, she really paid attention to what Denise did to her, while fighting for them in the basement 14 years ago. Based on that story, I'm sure, he's processing all the information I've shared. I won't stop talking or reading books until she falls asleep. Then kisses leaving her after giving kisses on her forehead, on her cheeks and sometimes on her lips. Just reminding her of all the wonderful things we shared together. Let him know that I'm there, not gone, waiting.

Denise has a regular schedule to talk to her and call herself mom. She said she was sorry every day for leaving her baby alone in the castle of hell. For Jade to know that what happened back then was not her fault at all. It was the bad guy who designed all those crimes and made Jade do it without knowing if it was wrong or not. Words like 'I love you' are said routinely, at least once a day. Denise read the book to him, to form a new understanding of how life in this world should go. It was not at all like the life he had experienced in his childhood.

Min Jun Kim is a great man. I could see how they both ended up being in a match. As Denise's husband, she accepts Jade as her daughter and works together to form a new understanding of the family. He took the time regularly to visit Jade and introduce himself as a papa. From her attitude it seems that she loves Denise very much and helps her to pull Jade out of her dark world, helping Denise build the family structure that Jade is supposed to have in mind. He shows how a father should treat his daughter and teach her the proper way of life in the present world.