Dark Princess

Anger Gaia

Jade Viewing Angle

I think it's that simple. Once I believed that I could count on Earnest to live in this difficult world, I decided to accept her proposal to be her boyfriend. About marriage? Recent affairs. The important thing is that I can survive today. The turmoil caused by Gaia can I hit immediately. There is no point in lingering in helplessness for longer. Earnest didn't seem to care about the reason behind my resignation in accepting him. Trust me, I'm not a bad guy who just wants to use him. There was no intention of harming him at all.

Earnest is very promising. I'm pretty sure he can help me. And he must know how to trace back to 14 years ago and find my origins. That's the most important thing. The help I so desperately need, which I will never be able to get from Gaia. Because I can't be that open to her. Our relationship was never about the heart.

I finally went further. Out of nowhere that courage came - perhaps Earnest who gave me a sense of security - I became someone who could do anything for my life. It wasn't the Jade from yesterday. The depressed and curled up in his fear. And trying to create a small world where he feels safe and not displaced or hurt. I enjoyed the expression on his face, I was using it, but he seemed proud to be someone who could be of use to me. I hugged him tighter. Letting go hope in his chest, that I will have the house for a very long time. I decided, she was my home.

The next PR, I have to prepare my heart and mentality to receive any news behind the events of my banishment. Finding my origin could be a good thing or a bad thing. Perhaps, I was walking into a dark abyss, there might be a hell-like painful story waiting for me there. But it's okay, I have Earnest. He promised to be there for me always. Whether he keeps his word or not, a recent affair. My only choice was to hang my life on him.

We left Singapore on Sunday for Seoul. His house is in one of the luxury apartment complexes in Gangnam district. After circulating my gaze to assess the entire appearance of the house, I decided that I should indeed stay there. Why would he pay that kind of money just to leave the house empty? While I proudly occupy my studio-type apartment which is very small in size because I feel like I have desperately paid a sum of money that I think is nothing with the price of the house.

She plans to meet Gaia on Monday morning to talk about our relationship with her. He called Gaian to make an appointment. But I don't think that's the way. The one with the relationship is Gaia and me, why would a third party do something that I should do. I don't understand Earnest's way of thinking, but the decision wasn't right. Maybe he had his own reasons, but I think that attitude is a bit excessive and I don't want Gaia to get a bad impression of me. I want us to still have a good view of each other despite no longer being together - having a dark-relationship. After all, I feel mature enough to do something right for myself.

Monday morning, I spent a long time talking to Gaia. I don't know where the great courage I had last night ran. As soon as she saw Gaia's face during the morning briefing, it all collapsed. I'm back to the cowardly Jade. I guess that she must be very angry listening to my story. He could have done senseless things to hurt me for not being able to stem his anger. But what is it? My worth isn't that significant, is it? Moreover, she will marry soon with her future husband. My value doesn't mean much to him. Besides, if that's the case, I have Earnest. What am I supposed to be afraid of?

I started typing resignation letters and printing. While tidying it up and stuffing it into the envelope I was unceasingly strengthening myself. I have decided to take the right action. I shouldn't have hidden behind Earnest's back and created a war between the two friends. I want, in addition to my relationship with Gaia to remain good, their relationship remains eternal, as friends. By being sportsman face to face with Gaia, I hope their relationship remains good.

With a pounding heart, I walked into Gaia's office room, holding the envelope in my hand. As soon as I faced her desk, I put the envelope on her desk, politely. I'm still kelu. I didn't find the right words to say. I decide, I'll just answer the questions. He looked at the envelope with uppercase letters written on it 'resignment letter'. He frowned, looking at my face with an angry expression. I'm sighing. Even to resign I have to accept that expression. But I have a right to it. As fast as lightning I formed a defense mechanism, preparing to answer any question he would raise, even if it was a mockery.

"Jade what the hell is this?"

"As you can see, boss. I resigned. I plan to fulfill my old dream. Let's go back to our own lives. You will soon have a family and I have to move on with my life.” She's stunned. Maybe I never thought I could talk that bold. Looking at his expression, a conjecture came to my mind. Does he intend to keep me as a lover even though he is married? If I did, I would be very angry.

“Are you sulking Jade? Because I'm getting married? Look, nothing's gonna change between us. We will stay who we were before. Nothing has changed. Why do unimportant things like this? Besides, you're gonna need this job. You need money. Stay here, as before.” My guess is correct. I'm blowing my breath. Grunting laughter. I've been selling my life that cheap all this time. And he intends to do that forever. Till when?

“I have decided to stop ms.Kim. I hope you live well as a wife. If we continue this way, it is a great betrayal for your family.” His eyes glared sharply, his anger burning. I was pouring gasoline on the fire. I forget that she is Gaia who has everything and no one can dictate what to do with her life. She seemed to be in disbelief with the statement I gave her. He got up from his seat and approached me who was standing facing his desk.

“Jade, don't try to teach me. I know what I have to do with my life. No need for advice from anyone including you. I've gotten enough from the elders in my family and it's really annoying. You better shut up!”

He lifted my chin with his index finger, so that my face would be erect. Ever since I entered the room, my head was down in fear. I had expected what would happen, when anger took over his senses, he would turn into a monster. I'm sure she knows that the scared girl under her armpit is fighting fear but still, my body is shaking. If so, there was no stopping, whatever the story was, he would continue until his anger was satisfied.