Dark Princess

Exhausting Waiting

We home. We were almost at midnight heading to the airport. Without getting any results. As immigrants in a country of people, of course we have to be polite according to the limits of the norm. We sat for a very long time in a cafe near the lobby of the apartment building, but the faces we knew were nowhere to be seen. We are just like the guards we sent out to guard there all this time. We couldn't get into his house by knocking. The building has a strong security system. Everyone who enters must use a card in order to pass through every door and gate. While we don't know anyone there. And it was impossible to use any accurate means to get in. What if we get caught? So the length of the business.

In other words. We have to be patient, not until when.

...

470 Days have passed. Did I count that detail? Ja. I don't know what the point is, but I always mark the calendar on the phone. It was as if I was waiting for something to happen in the near future. Although I don't know exactly when. I have to admit, sometimes I feel very tired. Wanting to get angry and blame something or someone, but not knowing who - sometimes Drey and his army become targeted - and. I felt the pain of waiting. It's heavy and I'm shuffling. Moreover, there is still no decision from the doter, how much longer we have to wait. It feels so much better to accept a very long statement than not?10 years? Doesn't matter. At least we knew we needed to be ready for that long. All we can do is believe and continue to do the things we are doing. But until when?

Today is just one day out of many exhausting days.

I left for Japan for 3 days to monitor the new products that will be launching soon. But the problem occurs, a project long designed for a summer festival becomes stuck just because of misinformation. All fashion companies will definitely launch their products before the festival starts. Because usually the customers will shop for that need in advance. When other brands have started to launch their products, Earnest Fashion is still in the stage of waiting for approval to produce some designs. Some of them are precisely the design that will be the mainstay. My emotions are starting to peak. In a cold and tense state, I tried my best to deal with everything in those 3 days. One thing is for sure, I can't help but attend as usual to visit Jade. Friday afternoon is a set schedule, and it always has to be. There was not the slightest intention to arrive late or not even come on that day. I even took the time to buy some new books from the local bookstore to read when visiting later.

No matter how hard I tried to straighten out the matter as quickly as possible, I still missed the plane. Inevitably I changed flights to the afternoon, leaving at 6 pm from Narita airport. At least I'll still meet him that day even though it's late at night. Although he may have been sound and unaware of my arrival. But no, at least I have to deposit my body odor and my voice in that room, and my kiss on his head, or whatever it is. But honestly, I have trouble managing my emotions. That's why the day became super exhausting, because I graph the emotions that go up and down very high. I even cried on the plane, reminiscing about all the things that had happened. Maybe hormonal, I don't know, I'm trying to console myself.

I arrived at the villa at 10 o'clock. As I expected, he slept on his back. It means he's really asleep. All this time he's just gonna give me his back. I looked at that beautiful face deeply to take off my miss. I kissed her forehead. I saw a trail of tears on his face and his eyes were puffy. The nannies who were guarding there said that she had not stopped crying since the afternoon, she had not even eaten dinner. Until Denise came to calm him down. I did receive a missed call from Denise after landing at the airport and on my way home. But only realized after almost arriving, I did not check the phone at all and did not bother to ask why.

“Jade... It is a tiring day dear. But I have to apologize for being late. I heard from Nanny that you've been crying incessantly since this afternoon. Is it because I'm late? I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry. I just got back from Tokyo, from the airport straight here. I've been trying to get things done so that the flight schedule is overtaken and I got here on time, but I can't. The business there must be immediately selelsai. When I'm really done, I can just leave that place. And I turned the flight into the afternoon, at least I can still see you sleeping. I'm emotionally tired. This was the first time for an employee of Earnest fashion to witness how ruthless an Earnest and I spoke in such a high tone, even snapping. I'm so tired, baby. Even on the plane, I cried because I couldn't help feeling this. Can you help me? Just by smiling at me. Or maybe say a few words. Or whatever it is, to calm my arid soul? Miss you. I tried so hard to remember all the moments we had together because otherwise, I almost forgot everything. The way you smile, laugh, look in your eyes when you say love, when you're angry or teasing me. Help me... I'm feeling very tired, baby... "

I shed tears, occasionally pressing both my eyes with my fingers. I tried not to make a sound so as not to wake her up. I slowly felt the blanket move and her hands wrapped around my waist from the side. I tried to feel it, did Jade really do this? He leaned his head against my back and stroked my back repeatedly. I stopped crying, trying to convince myself that this was real.

"Jade ...?" I turned my body towards him. Under the dimness of the sleeping lights, I could still see her glowing eyes, she said something there. I could feel all the good emotions within me gathering in my eyes. I put his face in my hand.

"Jade ..." He took his hand from my waist and wiped my cheek. His eyes are longing. In the blink of an eye, I thought that I should use this moment to pull him out of his world.

"Jade, I miss you ..." He was silent, just through his eyes, saying the same thing as me.

“Say something dear..” I beg. But she kept quiet and started crying. I took it into my arms and gently rubbed its back.

“It's okay Jade, no problem. You don't have to say anything. It's okay dear..” It's a big advance, I shouldn't have asked for more. At least he moved, responded to me and said something even in silence. That's more than enough. All the emotional storms I had that day subsided, decayed, gone nowhere. I held her in my sleep.