Dark Princess

After Love?

Jade Viewing Angle

I saw a rapid change in his face. Not a good thing. I don't know what he's thinking. I immediately passed from his sight, ran to the bathroom and locked the door from the inside.

If I follow my heart, I want it. I crave that touch again. I feel unfair, first of all he just focused on what he wanted. Almost the whole game, I felt pain. I also want to feel happy as people tell me when making love.

But calm down, I know the limits and don't expect more. I would not dare to dream of having it. We'll just do it one more time to exchange that pain for something more beautiful, then enough. Besides, I don't know how to act as someone's. I was too afraid to accept all the negative risks I would accept if I did. What if he leaves me after I make it my world? It's gonna hurt a lot. I was just a mistress to Gaia, we had a relationship without commitment, but my world seemed to collapse when she was about to get married. So, I only wanted that once. And enough. For the peace of my life.

I looked at myself in the mirror. I take off my clothes one by one. I spent a few moments performing the ritual, examining my body in detail and arousing gratitude. At least I was born perfect. Although not more than a shell. Perfect shell, but empty. Let's make good use of Jade. Having Earnest to sleep once twice is enough. Don't fantasize too high as if you could have it. Don'tdon't. I convinced myself many times. Then I continued to clean my body.

I was so immersed in enjoying the luxury of the bathroom facilities, ranging from toothbrushes, toothpaste, soap, shampoo and luxurious interior. I've never even enjoyed that luxury in a hotel or anywhere else. The side of me that I said I let enjoy the atmosphere freely.

Suddenly his hands wrapped around my waist. I was shocked and immediately turned around. He's right there! Is this what a man usually does? I tried to follow his movements. His hand framed my face, stroking my cheek gently.

"I love you Jade..." Not to mention that I finished my efforts to calm my heartbeat, he showered me with those words. I'm stunned. Is it that easy to say love? But what is the end line of love? I don't get it. But his eyes are sincere.

"Is that the opening line for a man when starting something like this?" I'm really curious. Not to insinuate. I hope he takes the question as I mean it. He seems to understand.

"No. I really love you..."

"What about all the women before me? You said they easily fell into your arms?"

"None of them ever fell into my arms. You're the first..." That's unsurprising. A Earnest Lee? Can he be trusted? But again, this question came to my mind again: why? Where will the end be? We should have been consistent just for fun.

"Let's be first and last for each other... Can you?" He asked again. What about Gaia? But can I mention that name in times like these? I decided not to. I don't want to ruin the mood. I returned his embrace.

"What should we do next?" He did not answer the question, and immediately kissed my lips. I replied, kissing is easy, I've trained a lot with Gaia. I just need to keep up with the game. Then he stopped and observed my expression. Hey, I'm enjoying it, let's go on, why stop? Should I say that? But no, too brave. I wait for the next move.

"Let's do it right. Not here." He concluded. Oh so. I'm obeying. I finished my bath and put on the bathrobe. He helped dry my hair. Then we sat on the sofa, I took a seat beside him. He had prepared champagne and grapes on the table.

"Champagne?"

"Can. I'll just come along." He smiled and poured champagne into the glass then we enjoyed it. I chewed some grapes.

"Is that how men do it? I mean, there's a break in between?" He chuckles. Suddenly kissed my cheek. No, it wasn't a kiss. He breathed there for a few seconds.

"I want to enjoy every second with you. I want you to know, I want you sincerely. Not just for that..."

"Oh so. But it's not gonna work. Let's do this if by chance we meet..."

"Why is that?"

"You know why."

"I don't know." He answered firmly. Whatever. I keep chewing the wine. It tastes sweet, crunchy bitten and seedless. He really has all the premium stuff in that house.

"I'll finish all this wine..." I looked at him to make sure that the information I was conveying was well received. She laughs.

"Kok laughed?"

"It's okay. You're hilarious. Should I add more? Like wine?"

"No need. This is enough. Not specifically like it. I kept on chewing because it tasted good. I love everything that's expensive and delicious."

"Does that mean you like me?" I almost choked, not expecting the question to come.

"Maybe?" He smiled very wide. I love the facial expression he shows. He made sure I knew that my opinion was important to him.

"Be my girlfriend."

"No way."

"Wife?"

"Yes, it's not. Especially that."

"So what is dong?"

"That's enough." I leaned against her and kissed her haphazardly, hitting her neck. He moved and framed my face.

"Rare you sure you don't want to be my girlfriend? What if I'm with someone else?"

"It's okay. Be that."

"And we can still meet like this?"

"If that's what you want, I can."

"You have to change your mind like this Jade. That's incorrect. In terms of love, it's okay to have each other between people who love each other."

"So, you really want to have me?"

"Yes. I told you."

"Then let's do it now. I will decide later after feeling it, whether it will make me happy or not." His eyes sparkle with love.

"Related. You promised to replace the pain that was before. You have to be pat. Let's fair. I want to know what it's like."

"I like that you can be this honest with me." His face was total.

"Can you?"

"Can. Especially when you're with me. I want you to be able to freely express your race and express all of your thoughts. I'm glad I got to know you..."

Next is his work. He kept his promise, made me feel happy, treated with special. I could do that with him for the rest of my life. I lay hugging his arm.

"Are you okay?" He whispered.

"Mmmm..."

"Did I pass?"

"Graduate."

"The drill?"

"About 97%?"

"What about the other 3?"

"Maybe after one more round?" He looked at me in disbelief.

"I'm going crazy Jade. Why are you so honest?" I chuckle.

"How do you become your girlfriend? Do I have to love you too?"

"It would be perfect if you did. Who wouldn't want to? Loved by the one you love..."

"Tell me how to love."

"I'll teach you slowly..."

"Keep, when are you going to leave me? After a year? Two years? Or more? So that I can prepare the heart first..." He snorted laughing.

"I don't plan to leave you, forever."

"Is it valid? I mean, do men usually keep their promises?"

"Earnest Lee always kept his word."

"Then, what are we going to do after all these years?"

"Married me."

"Maybe?"

"Why not?"

"What about your career? I mean fans? And your family?"

"In the end, I have to go back to my own life. I can't live forever for them and feel lonely. Don't you?"

"agree. You have to live for yourself. And, what else after that?"

“I want our baby..” Whisper. I'm speechless.

That one's impossible. I don't know how to describe how I feel, but I never wanted a baby. Not only that, but not even getting married. But getting married is much better than living alone and there is nowhere to lean. But have kids? I can't imagine a man like me having a child. Will they be taken care of by someone who has no identity like me? I don't even know who Jade is? Where'd he come from? Why doesn't he have a last name like people? So what if he doesn't love me anymore? If I am alone and left alone, the only one who suffers is me. What about our kids? The idea made me overthinking. I didn't like that feeling when she mentioned wanting to have children. He moved his body slightly to look at my face and observe me.

"Jade ...?"

“Mmmm...?”

"Is something wrong?"

"Eitherway. I feel weird and dislike when you say it.”

"Sorry Jade's... Is it because you don't like babies?”

"Maybe. See it? Your decision to make me a boyfriend is a big mistake. Maybe you can get it with another woman. I wasn't. Let's stop at the stage of being 'girlfriend' only.'” He kissed my forehead gently and stopped there for a while.

“I can't stop. Doesn't matter. Not having a baby is also okay.”.

“But you like them..”

"Rubber. But I like you better. You're a top priority. I didn't marry you to have children. Anyway, we still have time to talk about it. The important thing is I can be with you forever.” I moved to her face and kissed her lips.

"Let's get another 3..." I tried to flirt, and he was tempted. The sparkle in his eyes appeared so quickly. He started running the 3% project%.