Dark Princess

Forgetting the Past

I heard him sigh and try to calm down.

"I was once addicted to drugs. That okay?" He whispered, I could feel his breath in my chest. One thing, he finally spoke! I was amazed by that progress. God, he finally spoke! I tried to move, wanting to see his face and continue the conversation, but he hugged me tighter. It means he wants to stay that way. Don't want to see my face. I continued to rub her soft back and kiss her hair.

"mmm... It's been a long time, baby. And it's not your fault at all. You don't know what that is... So it doesn't matter at all." I answered with certainty. He's just a kid who's been brainwashed. Blind about the morals and values that prevailed behind the palace walls. Only an insane person would be able to judge and corner him. I want to make sure that the love I have is not blind love. I am in love with a girl who is pure in heart, who is kind in heart and who is struggling to let go of the past that once ensnared her. Right Earnest, it's not blind love. You love right. Continue man!

"I even eat human flesh? Is it okay?" I suspect, he will confirm his worries, one by one.

"It's okay, baby... You didn't know anything back then. If you knew, I would believe you wouldn't do it either. Your heart is too soft to act so evil as Jade..." The one who deserves punishment is the man. He deserves the harshest punishment on earth for entangling innocent children to sin as if it were okay. Who would blame these innocent children?

"I drink human blood, you know that, right?" He continued again.

"I knew. And it wasn't your fault. Forget it, baby... Okay?"

"My father is a demon. You're not scared?" That man is a demon. But he doesn't deserve to be called papa. The title of a papa is too noble.

"I'm more afraid if I lose you. Let's forget him. He doesn't even take good care of you. He doesn't deserve to be called papa. A father would not do such a heinous thing to his son. He used you for his crazy purposes. You have a mama who saves you and protects you, let's respect her. And beside him was Papa Kim. Papa's much better than that man. Have you seen what he's done while you're here? That's how a father should act. So don't mind him. If you can, consider that person has never been in your life. Okay sweetheart?"

"You still want me even if you know I'm ruined like this?"

"of course. You saw, I was waiting for you. I wanted a Jade for me, to be my lover, to be my wife, to be the mother of my children, no matter what happened in her past. Let's fight better, baby. Nothing is called perfect in this world. Everyone has their own past. As long as we fight better every day, everything will be fine. Look at you now, you're fine. Perfect. Only the memory of your 10-year life is trying to ruin your present self. Don't let. You have to be strong until you can defeat the effects of that memory..."

"I'm not perfect. You're the perfect one. Shouldn't you marry someone as perfect as you?"

"Ah... Okay. Maybe that's why God made my life perfect, that I might be strong and full, and be able to share all the good in life with you. Or do you want me to marry someone else? Someone who splits like you mean?" I tried to test the taste of having it against me. He hugged me tighter and shook his head gently. I'm sumringah. Yes lah. Cook you'll let me go after this long wait, Jade? I'm going crazy. 

"Mmm…? Tell me. Should I be?"

"No." He answered firmly. My race wants to fly.

"Then, let's go back to the old Jade, which was never bothered by what had happened. If asked to choose, I want you to still not remember the event. But now, our struggle is to forget about it and live well in the present time. And Jade, please marry me..." I whispered through her hair. All I got was an increasingly tight hug and a small nod. Suffices. Tomorrow I will try again to ask until I get a solid answer.

"Thank you, finally talk to me. You don't know how crazy I was waiting for this moment to come. I'm so happy now. I admit I'm very tired, but very happy. Can I get a kiss before I go to bed?" I wait for his response. He relaxed his embrace and looked at me. A look I have long missed. In that way, he touched my innermost inner being. I want to cry. He's back, God! He returns. We spent a few seconds looking at each other. And he kissed my lips for a moment.

"Mmm.." She smiled, and her eyes were timid.

"Be kind to me Jade. I came from a faraway continent just to hug you. But is that so doang?" I pretended to be bland. And finally could not help but be happy to see his expression. He was still very embarrassed but seemed to think about what else he would do.

"What should I do?" She asked. I held onto the cheek, stroking it gently before it kissed her soft lips. I feel like I'm flying. I'm tired of it paying off already. I took off my kiss and saw her smile.

"Why?"

"What's different about the kiss I gave you?" She asked. Also true.

"Different. This one, I did it."

"But it's the same..."

"Dear darling. The first one, and this is the second one. Different right?" He finally laughed amusedly. I'm laughing too. My sense of pleasure is growing. Didn't think I'd get the sound of her laughter either. Complete already.

"Don't we have to sleep, you look very tired..."

"Yes. Let's sleep. Welcome back, baby, you can't imagine how happy I am now..."

"Thank you daddy..."

"M...?"

"Because it's been patient waiting and not leaving me even though it's hard..."

"It's hard, but I'll do anything for you baby. I promise you, I will never leave you under any circumstances. You do too, don't ever leave me, okay?"

"mmm... I was so scared last Saturday, when you were late. I thought you finally decided to leave me. I've been wondering for a long time, how long are you going to survive this mess? And I think it's time you decided not to come again..."

"But I'm coming, right? It's just a matter of work, not about us. I told you, I'll never leave you..."